Update on us, swine flu & wonderful Brennan!
Sorry it has been so long, it has been so crazy at my house! And it is so hard to put it all in words... to try to make very long stories shorter....we have been dealing with so much & I am just at my wit's end.....Brennan is a wonderful & sweet baby & I absolutely adore him, I can't believe he is 3 months already! Gotta post some new pixs soon, he already knows how to flirt with all the girls, he is hilarious! He has the smile that just lights up a room, and my oldest, who is 10, is the best big brother. All is well there....in other areas though, not so much. I think some of you will remember, DH was reconnecting with his 18yo daughter who was adopted, well we met her 2 weeks before the baby was born & it has been a rollercoaster to say the least. Apparently there are problems at home, and pretty much, she lives here with us now! Can you talk about some major stressors! All within 3 months; don't get me wrong, I am happy that they are getting a relationship again but I have to admit I don't think I was ready for this so fast. DH is constantly telling me how we need to be on the same page, bla bla blahh, be a united front, etc. well not only has he not been living up to his end of the bargain, he seems to do exactly the opposite of whatever the agreement is when it comes to her. It is the most bizarre thing. He has some depression issues, add to that the guilt of giving up his daugther, and that brings us to today. He has agreed & is seeking help for himself for the issues he has been having (they have become very bad here lately) and I am thankful that he is seeking treatment for that. But in the meantime, I feel that I am losing my mind here. I am trying hard to hold things together for my babies & I just want to run away from home with them and not come back; luckily I don't think this every single day & I haven't acted on it. But I don't want to desert him & I know he is a good dad and want him to get better, which I know will make him happier with himself, then he can be a better husband & dad. I can't find the heart to put his daughter on the street so I am really, really trying here and I certainly know that she is not the cause of all the problems of my marriage, but unfortunately, she is the icing on the proverbial cake right about now, if you know what I mean. Thank to all who have read this far as I know this is quite a bit of rambling....and now, he has been diagnosed with swine flu....so I have him quarantined away from my babies & you guessed it, now his daughter is also sick so I have 2 patients. Add to that a major work deadline this week that I am trying to get finished & I just don't know how much more I can take! I so need a vacation!
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