Just a vent. Ya really don't need to respond.

I am just having a bad day today. Still highly emotional and missing my Munchkin. i would have been 5 months now and it's killing me that I lost it.  I have to go to a baptism in two weeks and not sure if I will be able to. I have another one to go to in Jan (maybe) and that one might kill me since I should have been 8 months then. Not sure what I am going to do. Things will get better I know but when? I am hurting so bad right now.

((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))

Thank you! 

Kathy,

I know how you feel I keep checking every once in a while probably for pure torture to see how far along I would have been with out the first MC, and I am sure I will continue to do that for this one. I looked about 3 days ago.... 23 weeks......
It is torture, and I am holing on to hope that it will get better when we have babies....  That is my only prayer right now...

Sometimes it is sooo hard I dont want to be around anyone pregnant because the jealousy is difficult (sorry everyone I really do love you guys) I can completely empathize I am lucky in daily life I only know one person pregnant and she leaves my place of employment end of the month no baby shower but its hard because shes 25 weeks...

I am there with ya Kathy if you need to talk let me know....

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))) Anytime... :)
-Amanda

Kathy,

I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad today. I remember all the pain I felt when I saw pregnant women and babies after my MC. I know that it will get better. You will have your rejoicing that covers the sadness. I wouldn't let myself think about it during the rest of the ended pregnancy, but I would each year on the day I was to have given birth. However, I know that all the pain was to open us up to really understand what a blessing having a child is. We are going to rock as parents!!! (Don't make me into no liar!!!)

Kathy, last decemeber I started iui treatments (before my gastric bypass) and had 3 failures. I had friends who were pregnant during this time and it was soo hard for me to be happy for them. I mean I was happy but I wanted my own joy. With this pregnancy, I am so scared something is going to happen to my little one...

I wish you the best of luck getting your wish of being a mom...And keep your chin up. I'm praying for you!

I am sorry Kathy, unfortunatly there is no set timeline for griefe, it would almost be easier if there was. I remember living though every milestone that should have been, watching other people have their babies and going to baby showers and just wishing I could dissapear. It was not until after my offical due date that I really started to feel better.

I still think about the babies I lost, you never forget, but it does get easier over time. HUGS. If you feel you aren't ready for those baby related get togethers then DON'T go, your mental health is important and you need to take care of you right now.

Kathy....just wanted to say I am so sorry and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Shari