Feeling Hopeless-Kind of long post

Yup, it sucks the big one.  You're not alone, your thoughts and feelings are okay whatever they are...express away.  I'm thinking of you and sending you a big hug.

Thanks, Jennifer

Traci

Traci~  I went through almost 7 years of "unexplained" infertility before I got pregnant on a whim with my first.  I understand the emotions you are going through (anxiety, jealousy, anger, frustration, hopelessness, sadness, etc).  I wish there was a clear-cut answer to when it's going to happen and it sucks that there isn't.   Just know I'm here for you and I know that speaks for many others as well!  *hugs*

~ Renae

Thanks, Renae! Yes, I guess you hit all the emotions I go through at times.

Thanks for the works of encouragement!
Traci

HI Traci--

Hope is a funny thing....it can be so inspiring and it can be all but gone at times too. It waxes and wanes, like so many other things.

My husband and I TTC'd for 2+ years and we were frustrated, sad, and very upset during various parts of process. I learned a lot during that time...some good lessons (patience), some very hard lessons (getting your "ducks in a row" does't mean things are going to work out). I learned a lot from this website and blogs regarding infertility that I was not alone and that there is hope.

During my TTC period, I would do other activities to try satisfy my urge to be productive, among them: planting. Every summer and fall I would fill the planters beside my front door. Each time, I would tear up thinking about how much I wanted to be nuturing a child, to be a parent. Not planting a frickin' petunia. Well, last week I was switching out the summer impatiens for the fall mums and was thinking "This is THE fall I'm going to a mom." Of course, that brought tears to my eyes too.

I have hope for you!

--Paula

I am sorry you have to go though this, it really isn't fair. I typed up a bunch of stuff and deleted it a few times because I remember how it used to make me feel when people would tell me things like "keep your chin up" and "stay positive", when all I wanted to do was cry. Have your sad moment, cry if you want, scream, yell, just don't keep it bottled up inside.

Does your Doc have a support group? If they don't call the office and see if they know of one in your area, sometimes it's nice to be able to talk to people face to face who you KNOW will understand your feelings. Hugs and prayers.

I think this is my moment to finally get it out. After 15-16 months I finally have vented about my frustration.
Thanks!
Traci

Hey Traci,

I myself have not had fertility issues, but I have a very close friend who has and I wanted to give you a little bit of hope in your hopelessness.

Like you my friend tried for 7 years to get pregnant.  No-one could tell her why she couldn't get pregnant.  In fact, she never ever GOT pregnant, clomid, injectibles etc.  There was absolutely no reason they could find why she couldn't get pregnant.  Finally, she and her husband decided to stop trying because it was just too hard on her hoping every month that this cycle worked.  Within 6 months, she was pregnant on her own.  She carried her beautiful daughter to term and she is now 5 years old and was joined by her sister who is 16 months and her baby brother born two weeks ago.  One of the positives is, you know you can get pregnant.  Hopefully, it is just a matter of a little more time.

Please don't give up hope.  Sometimes the plan just isn't our plan. 

Feel better!

Thanks for posting this. I haven't been temping for about 6 months becuase I was going through fertility treatments no need to wonder when you are ovulating since you are told when to trigger and have your IUI. Then, I was pregnant for a little over two months so no need to temp there. During the time I had to wait post miscarriage to try again, there was no charting/temping just to give it a rest. Then, I went in for another IUI and this month I wasn't going through a treatment and was traveling and wanted to enjoy my trip with my friend of 20 years and not worry about anything.

So, I know I just have to wait until my time.

Traci

im sorry. i hope your day comes soon.