I miss food.....

So I've been going through about 3 weeks now of wanting nothing but bland stuff to eat and feeling so nauseated and gaggy.  I've thrown up like 3 times in the past 2 weeks and get gaggy when I start to get hungry, so I munch on some Ritz crackers with PB or suck on a ginger altoid (which helps with the nausea).    So here's the pity party I've been having today and what it's about... 

I know I can't do it, but I so badly want to just have a "normal" stomach right now, not this RNY pouch that I have.   I want to be able to give into my preggo cravings of a Dairy Queen Oreo blizzard,  waffles with warm butter and syrup on top, and ice cream, ice cream, ice cream.   I want to be able to drink with my meals and to be able to eat "normal" stuff.   It's frustrating not to be able to eat whatever I want, for fear of dumping, and not being able to give into the preggo craving and be happy.   I just hate food right now and know that this is just a feeling that will pass once I feel better.   I can't eat as much as before I got pg because I don't eat as much now that I'm nauseated.   I am kicking myself for not researching the gastric sleeve more (I was self pay and could've had whatever one I wanted), but then I probably wouldn't have lost as much weight (130 pounds) and KEPT it off!!   I keep going back and forth with loving my RNY and wishing I would've had the sleeve.   Then I love my RNY.... lol

It's only been a little over a year since my surgery and I think it's cuz I'm preggo, but I'm regretting having the surgery a little bit because of the food issues!!   Before I got preggo, I was pretty happy with having the surgery and didn't have problems finding food to eat.   So I know that it's just because I'm preggo and want stuff that is bad for me that I shouldn't have anyways... and since I've been sick, I've tried to keep up my protein but am probably only getting in like 30-40 gms a day.   Before this I was getting in 60-70 gms a day (what my doc wants).   I am trying to drink 2-3 cups of milk a day, which would account for like half of the protein I need.   But sometimes it's so hard to gag down food or anything for that matter.

When I was first out of surgery at 2 months, I had a sugar free carnation instant breakfast mixed with milk and totally dumped after I drank it and had a sour stomach all the rest of that day.   Now, I can have a cup of milk at a time and be fine, but the csfib mixed with milk is 20 gms of lactose which is too much for me.   A single glass of milk is only like 12 gms of lactose, which I'm fine with.    So, since I've been craving a wendy's vanilla frosty lately, I bought some Breyers low carb sf fudgesicles and tried 1/3 of one today.    I waited for a bit and was fine (and the fudgesicle was ok tasting), but don't want to pu**** in fear of dumping (like I did with the CSFIB).  

I miss food!!  *sigh*    And the only way I'm getting down enough water each day is to have some of it with Crystal Light Lemonade, mixed with some splenda.   Is this ok to have on a daily basis???   And mind you, I'm only getting in like 32-40 oz a day and that's gagging it down.

Anyone relate to me???

Girl, I couldn't ge****er down cause it made me sick. I made a promise to myself everyday that as long as I got a liter of water down I could drink what ever else I wanted.

Ya know, it might be a lactose intolerance that is make you sick and not the sugar.

Good luck with everything. I really didn't have issues. I gave into my cravings and if I was afraid of dumping I only ate a little to take the edge off the craving.

Are the ginger altoids really working? I never thought of trying those before. I know I had lemon ginger herbal tea and it helped a little.

I had lap band and for the most part love it. But I have days just like you, that I regret it and wish I didn't have because then I could eat the bag of chips. I could drink with my meals and so forth. I think no matter what surgery you have sometimes you have buyers remorse. I agree that is probably more so now that I am pregnant. So I will join you in the pity party. I just wanted to let you know you are not alone!

I can SOOOOO relate.  I was a big time sweets addict prior to surgery and have been craving cakes and things recently (16w pregnant).  I just want to have a brownie or a piece of cake.  And don't even get me started on the pregnancy boards out there with women craving (and eating) anything and everything they wanted.  And I am feeling bummed because I can't have cake at my shower too - stupid I know, but still.  I have no doubt that this surgery helped more than I know in conceiving, but, like you, can't help but feel a bit of buyers remorse when I can't give in to what I want.  SF cookies and candies don't really interest me.  I made a SF dessert last night that jo posted a little while ago with SF cheesecake pudding/creamcheese/graham cracker crusts/SF cherries, but that tops out at like 9g of sugar which is pretty much my limit.

So yeah.  I hear you LOUD AND CLEAR!

Jenn

see I'm lucky in that I can have a small piece of cake, a brownie, or a regular cookie and be fine.  It's the ICECREAM and the WAFFLES with butter and syrup that are the pregnancy cravings I've had with my other 2 children and was able to give into, but not this time.   I haven't tried sf syrup though yet, I've just heard bad things about sugar alcohols and it having a laxative effect in some people.   Before surgery, I had some sf icecream and that's what it did to me, I was in the bathroom!   But maybe I can try some sf syrup if I get brave enough, with some yummy waffles...

And like some of you have said, once I start feeling better and can eat again, I'm sure this feeling will go away.  It's just depressing sometimes to hear these other pg women saying that they ate an icecream shake or totally pigged out on something I can't have!!  But at least I'm skinny this time around when I'm pg and got pg the first try for this baby (which is a miracle compared to my other two kids)!!   Count your blessings!!

Thanks for the support, you gals are great!! 

I totally understand how you feel! My first trimester I couldn't stomach much of anything. Everything made me gag. I so desperately wanted a normal stomach so I could eat an actual meal. I wouldn't have even minded a healthy meal I just wanted to eat! Now I feel 100 x better and I can eat a lot more! It really turned around for me around 19-20 weeks. I know that seems like a long way away for you but just keep truckin and hopefully it will get better for you soon!

-Ashlie