Tested, Shouldn't Have, Now Depressed, Let the Mind Games Begin!

monet s.
on 9/3/09 5:08 am - Mountains of, NC

So, long story short - I had a MC around the first of July, had one normal cycle, then hubby and I started trying this past cycle.

I O'd on CD17, so as of today I am currently 11 DPO. I just couldn't resist this morning and I took a Clearblue Easy digital test. Of course, it came back a BFN. I could kick myself for doing this! All I have done is moped around at work all day!

Its too early? Right ladies? My period isn't due until Sunday. My original plan was to wait until at least Saturday to test.

I guess I'm just venting to people that I know will understand. I can't talk to anyone in person because I don't want anyone to know we're trying. I've been writing down symptoms I *thought* I was having since around 3 DPO and now I just look at my notes and think to myself that I must be really stupid and have let my imagination get the best of me!

I've not been this hard on myself in a long time! At this point I just don't know - maybe its emotional stuff related to an early pregnancy (for which I'm hopeful) or maybe its just PMS. I just want to crawl into a hole and not come out until I know a definite answer. Work is the last place I want to be!

I wonder if I should have used one of those cheap dollar store tests with the 2 lines? Would they pick up an early pregnancy with a VERY faint visible line before the HCG level would create a positive on a digital test?

I don't know. Anyway, thanks for reading my venting novel. Its just nice to have a place to express how I'm feeling right now. Typing this out has already helped!

You ladies have a great day!

Monet

Liz R.
on 9/3/09 5:21 am - Easton, PA

RNY on 01/30/07

I'm right there with you! I am having a lot of the symptoms I had before my MC now... I am 3DPO and think that I am crazy! I am FORCING myself to wait until next saturday (9/12) to test which is a few days before AF should arrive.

Here's hoping that it is just too early and you really are preggo!! (I got my last BFP at 13DPO with a clear blue easy digital - and then about 4 others! lol)

*fingers crossed!*

monet s.
on 9/3/09 9:40 am - Mountains of, NC

RNY on 09/01/04

Thanks Liz!

I'm trying to decide if I want to test tomorrow morning (12 DPO) or wait at least until Saturday. Touch decision! Good luck to you!

Monet

Sara S.
on 9/3/09 5:37 am

RNY on 02/26/09

I have always used First Response or Answer. CBE never gave me a positive till I was about 4+ days late.

Good Luck!

Sara

Mom to Haleigh born 04/14/10 and Dylan 05/15/12

monet s.
on 9/3/09 9:39 am - Mountains of, NC

RNY on 09/01/04

Maybe I'll give one of them a try - thanks for the suggestion!

Monet

Carrie20071
on 9/3/09 5:37 am - Carrboro, NC

Lap Band on 06/09/08

I know exactly how you feel. I just wanted you to know that I didn't get a faint line on the $tree test until 12 DPO and still got a negative with the CBE digital. I tested again the next day; got a more definite line on the $tree test and then took the CBE digital and that was positive too.

monet s.
on 9/3/09 9:38 am - Mountains of, NC

RNY on 09/01/04

Thank you so much! That is just what I needed to hear! Maybe that will happen for me as well! Thanks again!

Monet

plusizedbarbie
on 9/3/09 7:08 am - Manahawkin, NJ

RNY on 09/17/07

I was 10DPO and took a FRER and it was positive. I didn't use FMU though, it doesn't work that well for me. However I did take EPT certainty digital that same day and got a BFP. But some are more sensitive than others. I say take a FRER tomorrow

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