Do I have post-partum?

Since a few days after I had my baby I have been having this feeling of sadness and extreme loneliness. When I came home with her I would cry at least 5 times a day for the first 2 weeks. Since then, it has gotten slightly better but at times I feel so sad and alone. I have my miracle baby in my arms after 2 miscarriages and I feel like I should be on top of the world, but I am not. It is like I feel guilty for being sad so I try to ignore it as if it is not there. I am just wondering from anyone who has experienced PPD if this sounds like what I am experiencing. I have had regular depression at times throughout my life and it has never been like this. TIA for your responses!

Julie

You should not feel guilty about the sadness. It is a huge adjustment to have a baby and the depression stems from hormones. I'm sorry, I can't remember how old your baby is but I know that mine really began to lift right around 8 weeks. I don't fully come out of my PPD until my babies are one year old. I also get absolutely no help from my husband the first 18 months so it is very hard. If you can get awa once in awhile it will really help with the depression.

I can't really take meds because of my hyperstimulation issues with most meds but you may want to see a doctor if the depression is causing you to not be able to live your life.

I say its always best to bring it up to the doctor. It could be depression which is what you sound like. Its very normal and nothing to feel bad about. I had a pretty hard time with it also and got meds for about 6months and felt so much better. Hope you get to feeling better soon!!

Thank you! It makes me feel better to know that I am not alone.

Thanks! Sometimes I feel completely normal though, it is just at certain times that I feel the sadness. Does this sound like what you experienced?

Here is how it was explained to me. It takes 2 weeks for 90% of the hormones to leave our bodies. The next 4-6 weeks the hormones leave in surges especially if we are buring fat. Many of the hormones are stored in fat so if you burn it it releases it faster.

Mine is always pretty bad the first 8 weeks and then becomes situational depression because I resent my husband for a year LOL. I have to add the LOL because it is true and not really funny but I have to laugh at how awful he is when I have a new baby.

 It sounds like you might, though it may not be extreme, it sounds like you are feeling it. Like my pediatrician said when I mentioned that I was sobbing every day; why suffer? I started zoloft the next day and within a couple of days I was back to being my normal self!

Thanks for the responses. I think I will make an appointment to see my doc this week. Hopefully she can help me feel like me again!

I had the same thing after I had Kellen.  Here was my baby I wanted soooo badly yet I was so sad and crying almost all day long.  I started giving myself a pep-talk every morning as soon as I woke up saying "you wanted this, now buck up and take it!"  somehow (don't ask how!) but that worked enough for me to get thru my "funk".  I should have seen a doctor but I cried about that and didn't want to pack up my two kids and trek out by myself.  LOL.  

I think more of us go thru this than we like to admit.  You don't want to seem like you are ungrateful for your beautiful baby but on the other hand, it's so out of our control!  I started to resent Kellen because he "disruppted our happy life" and I felt like I was neglecting Holden.  It eventually got better but it took a little while.

Good luck and HUGS!!
Sandy

I have to admit for the first month or two after having Matthew I would cry at the drop of a hat.  I actually went to a job interview and starting crying before the interview even started.  Of course I didn't get the job....I bet they thought I was crazy.  But, what I'm trying to say is....the first couple months it takes a little while for your hormones to straighten out.  I would say if it last more than 2 months or if its disrupting your life or making it hard for you to tend to your LO then talk with your ob they will be able to give you something for it.  Good Luck it does get better!