Waiting to feel pregnant...

Up until the ultrasound I really thought it must be a mistake and that they'd tell me I was wrong and not pregnant after all. It was really such a relief seeing that little one up on the screen moving and with a strong heartbeat!  I suppose the majority of my disbelief probably stems from the fact that I wasn't trying this time! Before I was on rounds of clomid and progesterone, timing my cycles, and monitoring my temp like crazy. And not one conception. I've never MC'd  cause I've never carried. Though I suppose I am grateful for that it did make me feel broken or defective you know. But this time was different. Hubby and I weren't planning to start actively "trying" again for another 6-12 months. I only took the test out of habit because my newly regulated cycle was a few weeks late....as it always used to be. you could have knocked me over with a feather when I saw those 2 lines! I guess what I'm saying is that for it to happen when I wasn't killing myself to make it happen is just surreal still. Hopefully it will set in soon so I can actually try to enjoy this! LOL...BTW when I say I don't "feel" pregnant, I don't mean no symptoms. My breasts hurt  and are almost back to pre-op size....TG I didn't toss my old bras! I'm just past the point where I needed 3 naps a day to get by and I still have frequent killer gas and I drool like a bad faucet. I am lucky in that I'm not generally nauseaus....only thrown up twice so far....which is a relief with all the calories I'm trying to get in. But that doesn't really make me feel pregnant....just sick. LOL Like oops! Not a baby...just the flu.  

BTW. I am not at all complaining about it happening so unexpectedly and effortlessly. I am not that callous. I know what it is to go through the endless cycle of trial and dissappointment and would never belittle that for anyone. God bless my still-struggling sisters! I know I am damn lucky and I guess that's part of the shock.