Baby dreams

Julia23
on 8/6/09 4:58 am - UT

Tuesday night I had an awful nightmare. I was in a hospital bed in a room at the hospital with a couple nurses surrounding me. They were talking to me about having a D&C done. Apparently I had had a miscarriage. So I remember in my dream, I was so confused and scared and nervous, I didn't know what to do. I asked if I HAD to have one or if I could just let the baby pass through naturally (or whatever the other option was).But now I can't remember if anything else happened in that nightmare.
Then this morning I had a dream that I took a pregnancy test and left it on the counter and I guess I had forgotton about it. I ended up taking another one and it was +. Then I guess I took a 3rd one and it was + too. Then I found the first one I took and it was +. My mother-in-law was with me while i was looking at them and of course was excited. Then we went and found hubby and he was really excited. Then we told my mom and she was devestated. She said something about, Now I am really scared for you guys, and she was crying. Then I heard her tell my dad in the other room and he was like "Ohhh, THAT IS GREAT!" (not great as in a good thing, but like, oh nice, thats just what they need) And I remember feeling so out of control. I wanted to be happy but how could I with the negative tension. It was awful.

This is so crazy to me. The other 3 months of TTC I've been crazy with testing and worrying and checking my FF chart all the time. This time has been so different. It's like I am SO ready and would be SO happy if it happens, but if it doesn't then oh well type of attitude(i guess I say that now, but if I got a negative I am sure I wouldnt be too happy about it). I am suprised with my change of attitude that I am having these dreams. And I didn't have these when I was obsessing over everthing. Know what I mean? LOL Anyway, just thought I would share this with everyone.
Julia