Flipped out about weight

Ugh.  I feel like a jerk.  I should be enjoying my pregnancy, but it feels like all I want to do is eat.  I am taking in a lot more carbs than usual and it makes my stomach sick.  I am 7-8 weeks in and have my appointment with the doctor next week.  I think I have gained a solid 6-8 lbs in this short period of time.  I am exhausted all day and it seems all I do is get out for exercise, eat and sleep. 

Does anyone have any feedback for me?  Should I have a Dr. Phil moment and just get my act together or is this somehow normal for a first time mom?  I am just so mad at myself b/c my weight has been stable between 145-152 for several years.  I battled an eating disorder, overcame it and now have healthy eating patterns (in general, notwithstanding my pregnancy desires to eat).  In the 5 years since surgery, including 2 years of horrible bulimia, 1 year of recovery without bulimia (at this point) and 2 years of weight loss (immediately following surgery), I lost about 150 lbs.  My weight is an absolute obsession of mine and I am finding it terribly difficult to let go.

I see counselors, psychiatrists, etc.  I have battled my own issues for a couple of years now and I feel like this is setting me back emotionally.  I am becoming addicted to the scale again and don't know what to do. 

Please knock some sense into me.

Best,
Rachel

Being overweight, having lost that weight, and battling with your other issues is most definitely going to weigh heavily on your mind and I will be honest and tell you that all women, wls or not, probably struggle with this. For us, the fear of reverting to our former self makes it more real. Pregnancy is an emotional time and with so many other worries weight just adds to it. A normal healhty pregnancy can have you expecting to gain 20-30 lbs. It all depends. Some gain less, some more. I gained right under 30 and lost it all within 6 weeks. You should continue to follow to the best of your ability the healthy eating habits you had before getting preggo. Does that mean you will not have cravings or weak moments and want to eat a tub of ice cream or a bag of chips...been there....lol But if it happens you deal with it and move on. I think if you know you have emotional issues attached with weight gain and eating you should definitely speak with your counselor but it is normal to have weight gain concerns with pregnancy in my opinion.

I think we can all sympathize here, after so much of our attention has been spent on weight management... it's hard to not focus on it.

My advice is hide the scale... if you can. Or perhaps tape a picture of your first sonogram (when you get it) to the scale to remind yourself what your focus should be and why your body is changing.

Good luck, hun. It's not going to be easy... but it's SO worth it in the end.

~Victoria