I am going crazy....
One minute I am crying that my children deserve a better mother - the next minute I am hating myself for having 30 extra pounds to loose.....
On top of it all I miss being pregnant. After basically begging my child to come out for 2 weeks I can not wait to get on the TTC wagon again - even thinking about stopping breast feeding at 8 weeks so my period will come back - WTH is wrong with me???? I am freaking losing my mind and HATE this feeling!
I don't want to call my Doc because I feel like she will think I am a freak and a failure - this sucks.
On top of it all I miss being pregnant. After basically begging my child to come out for 2 weeks I can not wait to get on the TTC wagon again - even thinking about stopping breast feeding at 8 weeks so my period will come back - WTH is wrong with me???? I am freaking losing my mind and HATE this feeling!
I don't want to call my Doc because I feel like she will think I am a freak and a failure - this sucks.
Dawn Momma to:
Bailey Rachelle Renee 8/21/07, Baby #2 in heaven 4/12/08,
Isabella Ava Rose 6 18/09, Carter Kenneth 7/14/10
Bailey Rachelle Renee 8/21/07, Baby #2 in heaven 4/12/08,
Isabella Ava Rose 6 18/09, Carter Kenneth 7/14/10
Oh honey, your doctor won't think you're crazy but you probably should call her/him. Sounds like you have either the Baby Blues or PPD - maybe? I keep typing things to say but I keep erasing them because I'm sure you don't want to hear it! LOL!
You aren't a freak. I think many new mommies go thru this and not enough of them talk to anyone about it. I hope you can bring yourself to do that.
Good luck and BIG HUGS!!!
Sandy
You aren't a freak. I think many new mommies go thru this and not enough of them talk to anyone about it. I hope you can bring yourself to do that.
Good luck and BIG HUGS!!!
Sandy
I did not miss being pregnant, but I wanted another baby by the time Niko was two weeks old. I also was dealing with crazy body image mania. I was down 50 lbs from pre-pregnancy and I couldn't get over how crappy my body looked. You are not crazy. You are hormonal. You should talk to your doctor though, in case it's more than that. Don't hate on yourself. I always thought that it was odd how the best mothers in the world are the ones who fear they are not doing enough. Bad mothers tend to think they're getting it all right(which is an impossibility). The fact that you're even worried about it means you're just being a mom. Take a deep breath. Give yourself some credit.
Big Hugs, Angie
Big Hugs, Angie
Please call your doc! I didn't say anything to my doc till I completely lost it. And I wish I had gone and said something sooner.
You ARE NOT a failure! I am still struggling with emotions and actually have another appt this friday to change/adjust meds to help. I don't particularly like that I am like this and need meds but am trying to remember that a happy mommy is better than a depressed one. And I don't want Jantzen to sense any sadness in me.
Please give them a call. They are used to this. It's very common, and there's nothing wrong with getting help to get over this bump.
You ARE NOT a failure! I am still struggling with emotions and actually have another appt this friday to change/adjust meds to help. I don't particularly like that I am like this and need meds but am trying to remember that a happy mommy is better than a depressed one. And I don't want Jantzen to sense any sadness in me.
Please give them a call. They are used to this. It's very common, and there's nothing wrong with getting help to get over this bump.
When life hands you lemons, ask for tequila & salt and give me a call!
Dawn,
I felt the same exact way after Nylah. I thought I was a terrible mom and she deserved much better. Then I would cry and cry about my weight. I did have PPD but didn't get any medication and I SHOULD have. Make the appt. I know you will feel better with medication, there isn't really a way around it unless you take it. I didn't want the doctor to judge me either but ALOT of women have this problem, you are not alone. I really feel great right now (almost 36 weeks) but am getting anxiety thinking about that I may feel that way again. But this time I will do something about it. As Jojo said Happy Mommy better than depressed - the kids CAN sense it.
Good Luck, let us know what you decide ** thinking of you!
Vanessa
I felt the same exact way after Nylah. I thought I was a terrible mom and she deserved much better. Then I would cry and cry about my weight. I did have PPD but didn't get any medication and I SHOULD have. Make the appt. I know you will feel better with medication, there isn't really a way around it unless you take it. I didn't want the doctor to judge me either but ALOT of women have this problem, you are not alone. I really feel great right now (almost 36 weeks) but am getting anxiety thinking about that I may feel that way again. But this time I will do something about it. As Jojo said Happy Mommy better than depressed - the kids CAN sense it.
Good Luck, let us know what you decide ** thinking of you!
Vanessa
There's probably nothing you could tell your dr about how you're feeling right now that she hasn't heard dozens of times before. You're not the first, nor the last, to be on an emotional rollercoaster after giving birth. It's probably exacerbated from exhaustion from keeping up w/Baily and Bella both.
Talk to the dr & see if they recommend meds...and don't forget to take care of yourself while you're running around taking care of your babies. If Baily still takes a nap in the afternoon...get Bella to take a nap at the same time...then get mommy to take one too. Cleaning, organizing, and cooking can wait until everyone's awake.
Talk to the dr & see if they recommend meds...and don't forget to take care of yourself while you're running around taking care of your babies. If Baily still takes a nap in the afternoon...get Bella to take a nap at the same time...then get mommy to take one too. Cleaning, organizing, and cooking can wait until everyone's awake.
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Your doctor will not think you are a freak!!!! Call her if you haven't already!!!
Everything you are feeling is very common after having a baby. I remember crying and missing being pregnant. My family thought I was crazy.
Stop stressing about the 30lbs too! You will lose it. Just give yourself time. 30 lbs is a "normal" pregnancy gain and actually a pretty good gain for pregnancy I gained almost 60lbs with my first!
Everything you are feeling is very common after having a baby. I remember crying and missing being pregnant. My family thought I was crazy.
Stop stressing about the 30lbs too! You will lose it. Just give yourself time. 30 lbs is a "normal" pregnancy gain and actually a pretty good gain for pregnancy I gained almost 60lbs with my first!
Dawn,
Without reading the pp's, I must urge you to call your doctor. You are NOT crazy or a freak or a failure. You are going through MAJOR hormonal fluctuations right now and you need to be able to count on your medical team to support you however they see best. In my case, medications have helped me greatly, as has exercise.
I'm here if you need to chat - just PM and I'll send you my phone number.
Hugs to you sweetie!
Without reading the pp's, I must urge you to call your doctor. You are NOT crazy or a freak or a failure. You are going through MAJOR hormonal fluctuations right now and you need to be able to count on your medical team to support you however they see best. In my case, medications have helped me greatly, as has exercise.
I'm here if you need to chat - just PM and I'll send you my phone number.
Hugs to you sweetie!
Jo
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