Struggling.....

Okay I have a confession and hopefully no one is too mad with me.  

I have been avoiding you guys :(

I am horribly ashamed but I need to go to confessional....

And in all honesty I have been avoiding everything I have gone into my own little funk just staring at that darn calendar waiting for AF to finally come so I can start trying to get pregnant again, and honestly in the mean time I have Avoided anything that reminds me of babies.

Hubby and I ended up having a LONG talk and both finally talked about everything that had gone on in June (hubby had been under the I just dont want to talk about it wing till he realized i needed to talk so I was avoiding him too)

The last month has been such a mess I just want to move past and start trying agian, I feel like AF is never going to get here am I the only one that is not very good at being patient??  It has only been a month since the MC (a month Friday) so its not like I am late agian she said 4 to 6 weeks.  I am horrible at being patient!

On a positive note I am starting to feel more like myself, I am eager to start working on our new house again ( we just purchased a house in May) I had completely lost all interest but I have to start getting pictures up and finish the last of the unpacking...

Thanks for being there for me everyone even after i have been avoiding you all.. I am hoping for forgiveness and understanding.

-Amanda

Amanda,
A lot of people need a break from this board.  Don't feel ashamed!  It's called taking care of yourself.  I hope AF shows up soon so you can start TTC again.
Have fun with the new house.  We are remodeling and I'm SO OVER IT lol!
Amy

*BIG HUGS* I was wondering where you were but wanted to give you your space!! This week I finally started to feel like myself. You aren't the only impatient one! I hadn't even stopped bleeding from the D&E and I wanted AF to show up so we can start trying again! I never wanted my period so badly! lol It'll be 3 weeks for me on friday and I am so ready to get pregnant again. Lets hope that you, Traci, Jackie and, I can all be preggo buddies again real soon!!

PM or call me if you need to talk!

Liz

PS - Hubby and I had the big talk last weekend after an "intervention" from some really good friends. Now I feel like I want to share my story and educate people about blighted ovums.

Liz,
I am really hoping that it happens quickly, I am horribly impatient person by nature, especially once I have made my mind up that I want something.
I just needed to get outa my funk on my own, I am feeling a little more like myself so I am hoping that I can be around more with out feeling like an inadaquate non-pregnant non-mommy....

Thanks for the reminder I will definetly call you if i need to talk :)

Amanda that is MORE than reasonable. Getting stressed or "obsessing" won't help you conceive. Taking a break is a smart, sensible thing! 

Praying for you....stay safe and well! 

Kathie

This is a very hard board. You want to be happy for people but you want to grieve too. We had a member here who was very good about educating the masses over what to say and what not to say to someone going through what you have been through. Unfortunately after her last loss she had to leave due to some craziness on this board.

If you want to get together for a walk at Rowden or lunch I would love to meet up. I am in Lapeer every Sunday but I can make the short drive whenever.

No one here can be mad at you!

Hugs and understanding!  Feel free to PM anytime if I can help or if you just need to vent to someone who has been there (3 m/c's).