Too much weight gain this month...

My husband is trying to be supportive and understand why I am so devestated but he is (after all) a man. 

After a healthy gain so far, I went for my OB visit today and discovered that I have gained 12 pounds in the last 4 weeks.  This puts me up to 23 pounds gained and I am only 23 weeks pregnant.  The doctor was so respectful but he didn't sugar coat things.  He basically had a total intervention with me.  I kept it together during the visit but I was (and am) so upset.  I know that I have not been doing what I need to be doing food-wise.  I take full responsibility for my actions.  It is just so frustrating to live in my world right now.  I constantly question every single thing I put in my mouth.  Sometimes I win the battle, sometimes I lose. Apparently this month I was losing alot. 

I have struggled quite a bit with hunger - which is a sensation that I have not really had to deal with for the 1.5 years since my surgery.  I am trying to eat protein rich foods and follow the advice of small snacks every 3 hours instead of large 'meals'.  At any rate, it's back to square one.  He doesn't want me to gain any more weight for the rest of the pregnancy - or at least minimize the weight gain.  He said as long as I am following the healthy, balanced guidelines for nutrition, the baby will develop fine.  (He did not ask me to lose any weight - just maintain).

I have had problems (pre-WLS) with large gains during pregnancy and previous drs were not kind.  Maybe part of my reaction to this has to do with that.  Otherwise, I just think I am struggling because it has been so nice not to fear the scale.  Now I do.  I also hate the constant negative feelings in relationship to food.  I NEED TO EAT TO LIVE.  I am sick of having such a horrible internal struggle about it.  I'd like to make the right choices and get on with it.

Sorry for my whining.  I just know that here I am likely to find others that are also struggling with this situation and/or emotions about the process.  I am committed as of today to change my naughty food behavior and get back to the good ol' WLS basics - modified of course.

Thanks for listening.

My aunt (who battled this without surgery and was successful!) always said that people who aren't addicted to food have no idea what it's like. Fellow addicts can understand, but you don't need alcohol or drugs to survive. It's hard, because if it was just about the addiction, we would aviod it all together... but it's just not possible.

I gained 15 (!) pounds this month. Now they aren't mad because last month I was still down 18 pounds... but if it continues in the same fashion... I will be introuble.

Monday I am going back to all the rules I have been breaking. No more junk and crap. I don't plan to feed the baby that junk so I don't need to give it to him now.

Good luck, and no I will be right beside you in this "lets eat healthy food for baby" battle.

Cheers to that!  For all my whining, I am proud of all the choices I made today.  I won the battle today.  1250 calories and 124 grams of protein.  Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to do my best to make it a good one.  Thank you for your encouragement!

I hear you...as I'm battling the same. I'm currently 20w5d and have gained 13 lbs...but some mornings that scale said more like 17 lbs. I am very aware of what I do and do not eat...it's a constant battle in my head. Keep in mind, I began this pregnancy at an ample 215 lbs.

Soon my husband and I are leaving for a (much needed) mini-vacation to a lovely beachside community known for it's gourmet restaurants. Within a few days of coming home, I have both and OB appointment and my annual GBS check-up. I'm already freaked out about the weigh-ins. I'm trying to be diligent and eat sensible things...like I'm snacking on asparagus as I type.

Know that you are not alone in your battles,

--Paula

RIah....

Congratulations on your good day of eating....and if you are anything like me (I believe it is with all of us with eating disorders) that it is an EVERY DAY battle.....I knew going into the surgery it was not my magic pill and it was not going to "cure" me.....I struggle EVERY DAY....with every bite....

A friend of mine and I were just having this same conversation yesterday about how we have to eat to live and other addictions are things you do not have to "have"....so it is extra hard for us....way hard....

Sometimes those hard conversations **** me off....most of the time they help me to kick my arse in gear.....but it is so not easy.....

I gained 27 pounds with my pregnancy and the did not want me to gain anymore....they really put the scare in me of being overweight already, gaining more would increase my chances of gestational diabetes.....it worked somewhat.....

I love to snack too and did when I was pregnant....going back to healthy snacks helps me and trying to put my hands to work with other busy work then eating helps too....

Keep posting so we can support you, work together on this as we struggle with this a lot....you are not alone!!!!

Hugs,

Ann

It is so hard for us to see that scale go up!!! I totally agree we have to eat so there is no way to avoid it. I too have strayed a little to far from how I should be eating! I need to reign it in now. So far I am lucky that I haven't had that big gain but I can definately see it coming this month unless I back away from some of the junk! I hope you know that you are not alone in this! THanks so much for posting this it realy helps to know that we are all going through similar things and are here to support each other! Keep us posted on how it is going. My motto for my eating/weight gain is to just take it one day at a time!
Hugs,
Kim
 

Well yesterday was a bust (bridal shower brunch in the morning, graduation dinner in the evening) but today has been better.  I am not going to be able to maintain perfection but I am going to do the very best that I can.  Thanks to all for the wonderful support!!!