Liz....

Hey hun! How are you doing? Just checking in on you! Thinking of you!

Jackie

Aww thanks sweetie! I am OK - had a rough day today - went back to work - I cried from 6:30 until around 10. every new person that walked into my office made me cry. My bosses were terrific - they were tearing up. 2 of my co-workers (manly - union sheet metal guys) were sitting right there crying with me - they'd been there with their wives and were so great. I love most of the guys I work with. The other a-hole (holier then thou know it all type) pushed some work on me (physical labor) and made me stay an hour late because I was making up for his ignorance.

*sigh* anyway - thanks for asking, I called the Dr and got an RX for xanax for the next few days. I see the OB on 7/17 and hope to get the clearance to TTC again then (that should be about when I am getting my period again)

How are YOU doing?

*hugs* thanks agian for thinking of me!

Liz

I was so worried when I didn't hear from you until now! I'm ok! I think I'm in the pissed part of grief. I'm just so mad this happend to me.
I'm also scared to  TTC again. I don't want this to happen to me again.

Jackie

I was in the pissed stage earlier today. Last night I got a call from my hubby that friends of ours lost their baby yesterday, she was at work (young girl - early 20's) she is a mental health coordinator and a patient shoved her really hard into a desk and started the miscarriage. I cried and cried and cried.
I drove through wendy's on the way home to get a burger (ate the burger not the bun) and the cashier was preggo - I almost cried then and there! She looked all of about 16 - how come she can have a healthy baby and I have busted my ass to get healthy and carry a baby and I can't do that! But then I realized that I was being irrational and thanksed her for my dinner and drove off. Now I am home alone hoping that Chris gets home early because I need a cuddle. Kitties can only carry me so far!

I know it isn't a consolation - but go hug your 4 other babies! and I'll hug the kitties! They have been my lifesavers

I am afraid of it happening again too - but more afraid of never being a mommy!

I'm seeing pregnant women everywhere. Infact two of my friends were due within a week of me. So it's really hard. I know I'm so lucky to have my son and step kids. I hug my 9 year old like crazy. But he keeps asking me why our baby died. It's very hard. I would love to loan Cameron to you for a hug....he is a charmer and a good hugger. We will get through this....I guess only time heals.

Jackie

BTW I love my kitties too!

I know it's crazy!!! Tanya and I were due within 1 day of eachother - so glad that all is going well for her (HOPEFULLY she gets down to another of my support groups soon!) and 2 other friends are due within a week of eachother in September.

AWw so glad that Cameron is there for his Mommy! Hard to explain it to a 9 year old - hard enough to explain to us!

TIme will heal I suppose. The more people I talk to the more it has happened too

stay strong!! Together we can get through this! are you going to start trying ASAP too?

I want to start ASAP but hubby isn't for sure yet. We will try again I know that. But he is really having a hard time. I will not be temping or using my monitor. I will just check cervical mucus. That's how I got pregnant this last time. I gave up "trying" and bam we got pregnant. For 7 months I tracked everything and didn't get pregnant. I'm positive the stress of it made us not concieve. Plus my husband does not work shift work anymore and the first month of shift work we got pregnant. LOL!

I just can't imagine going through another miscarriage....I'm very scared of that. My Dr told my hubby after my D&C that my uterus looked perfect so we shall see.

I'm so here for you! We can get through it! We are strong women! How is your cramping and bleeding? I'm still cramping and bleeding :(

Jackie

Now Chris would start tomorrow if we had the go ahead. I might temp too - we were only trying 3 months when I got preggo the first time. Chris works until 9 - not home until around 10 and I am up at 4:30am for work so it is tough but I can go without much sleep a few nights a month! lol

Dr told Chris the same thing - uterus looks great and we should have no problem with round 2 - doesn't take the fear out - I am so demanding a US at 6 weeks though! AND blood work! I never had HCG levels last time.

I am barely spotting (brown) but I never really bled - just spotting. Same with cramps - they were so horrible thursday night before the D&E after she put that seaweed thing in my cervix. Afterwards just mild cramping. I had a D&E not a D&C wonder if that makes a difference. My "tissue" was "sucked" out she used some kind of suction tubes instead of scraping. I wonder if that is why the pain and bleeding is less. Now just the emotional hurdles.... Hope that the xanax helps tomorrow!!

Sorry you are still cramping and bleeding :( hopefully that ends soon!

Jackie,
I was scared about TTC again so soon after the MC but my OB was very positive that the changes of back to back are super low and she was not worried about it happening, that gave me a lot of home.

I am so sorry to hear that you are still cramping and bleeding hun :( that makes it so much harder to move on I think, it keeps it on the forefront of your mind.  I hope you stop bleeding soon.

BTW I am sorry I just interjected myself into your conversation :(

Please advice and encouragement and support is always welcome! I hope we all get our babies very soon!! Thank you!

Jackie