Wed - Raves & Rants

Thanks Courtney - while I'm not glad that you're going through this as well, because it completely sucks - I'm glad that I'm not the only one being "selfish". While their situations are different - they are the same. Hayli has had problem after problem with her pregnancy due to her own neglect. She has dropped out of school to "focus on her pregnancy" and refuses to get a job once the baby is born - she claims that her mother is going to take my uncle back to court for more child support.

I have learned to deal with the fact that it is what it is, but at the same time, I do not have to be happy about it. I do not condone it but the only place I voice my opinion is here and to my mother - as I do know that she is only 16 and needs the support - of which I have been there for her through the whole thing thus far and will continue be.

I hope things get better for you. Enjoy your pregnancy though - as long as you and your hubby and your trips are happy - that's ALL that truly matters!

I don't think you are being selfish at all. This is one of the most special times in life, and when other people make us feel like we have to take a back seat, it hurts. At least you are happy for your cousin, I think what my sister is doing is selfish and crazy, and I can honestly say that I am not happy about the whole situation at all. My sister is the same way about working and getting her act together, she wants to be a SAHM, but if there is NO ONE brining home any money you can't just stay home, you have to do what you need to do to make sure you have what you need. Maybe I am selfish LOL but I feel like my kid is just as special as her's is, and I am sick of everyone thinking what she is doing is "great" and that I am making a "mistake". 

Hell, my grandmother even told me I should have an abortion, because "four is too many", but for my sister it was all excitement and happiness. 

Ok, ok, I am BITTER LOL I will shut up now.

Rant all you want!!!!  We all need things to be just about us once and awhile. We all need to feel like the special one, it is just our human nature.  While I do hope your cousin and her baby will be alright and that she does not end up having a csection remember that she is the lucky one to have you in her life, she will probably be calling you for advice.  Having one(csection & baby) at 34 years old was hard, I cant imagine having one at 16......

Your shower will still be great and special because it will be all about you and your baby.
Enjoy your day and just think, you will be holding you baby soon!

HUGS, sweetie.  I hope your cousin gets better and has the baby the day AFTER your shower.  That is my baby shower wish for you!  I think most people would feel as you do if they were in your situation.  I can't imagine.