Wed - Raves & Rants

Babies having babies - has to lead to drama.

I hope that the baby moves and she doesn't have to have a c-section (BTW who ever heard of them doing it scheduled voluntarily on a saturday or sunday - wouldn't they make her do it friday or monday???)

Your day is going to be amazing the the ladies at your shower are going to fuss all over you just like you deserve! Can't wait to hear all about it and see pics next week!

I am so freakin tired it isn't funny. I slept plenty last night (a good 8 hours) and I can barely keep my eyes open! There goes the baby sucking my energy again! lol It is for the absolute best reason though!!

Thanks Liz. Like I said - I know my shower will be amazing regardless of who is there and who is not. It would just be nice for EVERYONE to be there - including Hayli.

I completely hear you on being tired. It doesn't matter how many hours I sleep at night, I'm almost always tired. Either from a lack of sleep or too much sleep. You're still really early in your pregnancy - I didn't get my "burst" of energy until almost half way through my second trimester. Then I could sleep 3-4 hours and be good to go for 2 days. The past 2 weeks though I've been dead tired again - and of coarse it's when I have the most to do. My shower, getting Drew's room together, etc. We waited a long time to get Drew's room put together because it was his sisters room for when she would come on weekends. She's not happy about losing her room but I think she's coming around a bit because she realizes that he is going to be living with us 24/7 as where she only comes every other weekend.

It sounds to me as if you are jealous that she is having her baby first and getting attention. I am sure it is your hormones making you feel so badly about your cousin. I had terrible hormones with the last one and also had irrational thoughts and feelings. I am SURE that if you were given two dates to have your baby you would also pick the soonest. If she commented on the birthdate that is not the only reason for her to pick it.

She is still a child and is going to need support and help. No matter how fun and easy she thinks it is going to be it won't be and she probably could use help. Pregnancy isn't a competition.

I'm not jealous that she is having her baby first. That's not the case at all. I will admit that I am a bit jealous over the attention she is getting. I know she is 16 and is going to need all the help and support that she can get. But what makes me upset is that my family has basically condoned her actions. I know that it happened and there is nothing that can be done about it because it was her choice to keep her child (and in no way am I saying that she should've gotten rid of the child or what not.) But as I stated previously - I'm almost 27, I put myself through college and my masters, I have a great job, I have been with my SO for 6 years, etc. Minus the fact that I'm not married - I did everything pretty much how you are supposed to. We had a family BBQ the weekend before Hayli's shower - do you think ANYONE asked me how my pregnancy was going? Nope, not one. But everyone was fussing over Hayli, rubbing her stomach, asking her about what she's naming her baby, how she's doing her room, what she needs, etc. etc. etc. So yeah - I guess I am a bit jealous over her attention. I think that's a natural reaction for anyone - not just pregnancy hormones.

As for the birthdate - you're right, I would probably want my child here sooner than later as well. Maybe it was just the fact that she specifically stated "I'll have it done on Saturday since it's Deanna's birthday" that made me preturbed about it.

Sorry she is still stealing your thunder...i know it is frustrating but your shower sounds like it is going to be super awesome!!  You may have more fun without her being there to take attention away from you on your day lol I am sure you will have a great time!

Raves...going on three straight days at work without having to leave for home sick...doing pretty good i think. Still having to eat every couple of hours or every hour sometimes cause i get pretty sick to my stomach but I am tryin to control that...

Rants...I am struggling to get out of bed...I want to sleep all day!!! But I am making myself get up and go...have to save time for maternity leave ya know? lol

Have a good day everybody!!
~Flora

Thanks Flora. It will be great, I know it, regardless of what happens!

YEAH for not getting sick. I never got sick to the point where I had to leave work, but there were many days that I was racing to bathroom or better yet, puking in my garbage can. It subsides after awhile.

As stated to Liz - the tiredness won't really go away - it does for a little while but then comes right back. There were many days I wanted to stay home, but I too am saving my days for maternity leave.

Ya know, I was the same way about the weight loss between me and two cousins. Everybody would just comment on how good they looked and never said a word to me. It can make ya crazy. Family drives ya nuts compaired to friends. And jealousy is an irrational emotion. It makes no sense as to why we feel it but we do.

I have a rant but no rave. Hope that's ok.

I have been sick for over a week and it has been preggers symptoms. I took another test today (cause I should start this week) and it was negative again! I just wish I wasn't so damn sick all the time.

I agree Kathy - the weight thing happens all too often as well. But for what it's worth - I think you look great. And while you may not be pregnant now - don't give up hope - your day will come!!

Thanks Shauna. I am not to broken up about the test. I just wish I wasn't sick like I was.

I can tell you that I know exactly how you feel! My sister (while not 16) is pregnant and due right around the same time as I am. She, and her boyfriend, are not employed, my sister is HIV positive (boardering on AIDS status), she is a total mess, won't take her meds. Yet everyone is THRILLED that she is having her first baby. I want to smack each and every one of them, and scream "Doesn't anyone have any COMMON SENSE around here!".  Her situation SUCKS, her kid is in DANGER because of her reckless ways, and if she can't even pull herself together while she is pregnant, who in their right mind thinks she is going to be able to pull herself together once the kid is HERE! 

Ok, sorry, rant over. I am just sick of people asking me how I am going to do it with another child and the "oh, this must not have been planned" and the "are you crazy?" comments to ME, while they are falling all over her with excitment.