Rant/ Vent/ Irritations and a Gratitude

I have three rants that I need to vent!!!!!!! 

1. I am not pregnant (as far as I know) but yes I do have 30 "baby pounds" I am still carrying.  It disgusts me, and I am trying to get my crap together to lose those 30 plus another 20.  WHY ARE PEOPLE SO IGNORANT AND RUDE?  I have the body type where I carry my weight in my belly.  I know that.  I hate it.  In the last two weeks I have been asked twice by strangers, (after they look very obviously at my belly) if I am pregnant.  I AM JUST FAT, OK?  Dude, people suck sometimes.

2. I quit my job to be a SAHM.  My hubby does not make enough to cover all my debts, student loans, our car payments, and rent for our own place.  So we moved in with my parents.  It's not my ideal dream situation, but I get to be with Sophie all the time and that is a wonderful thing.   Sacramento summers suck and I am in misery from May to September.  I have no tolerance for heat and they will not run the A/C because this is an old drafty house and is poorly insulated, so running A/C is a waste.  Thank goodness they do have a pool, but I can't sit in it all day.....So my vent is that I am hot as hell and I hate it.  It is making me irritable and cranky all the time.

3. The dentist effed me over today and I am so pissed about it I can't even tell you what happened or I will break down crying.  Sufficeth to say I got ripped off majorly at a time when I can't afford to get ripped off. 

Last but not least, I am so grateful for my Sophie and my hubby.  Hubby is a sweetheart and no matter if I wake him in the middle of his night of sleep or if he is in the middle of doing something, he will always, always get up from his sleep or from what he is doing to help me.....like he did the other day to help me set up a portable swamp cooler in the middle of his night (he works graveyards).  He did it without complaint, without resentment, and happily asked if I needed anything else before he went back to sleep.  He's a keeper.  Sophie is beginning to show a strong preference for me above anyone else, which is a big deal to me.  I am starting to get confidence about being a mom.  Who knew?  Maybe I can do an ok job at this after all.  I never knew I had it in me.  I always thought all babies hated me.  I can honestly say that I found one that definitely doesn't.    So that is pretty cool and that is what gets me through the day. 
How about you?  Anything chapping your hide or blessing your day?

EDITED TO ADD: Sorry, I have to add that I am irritated because my last period was around April 4th.....So that was almost two months ago.  I am not preggers, took the test.  I can only guess my periods are screwed up because of all the extra weight I'm carrying or something.  They have always been screwy, but I guess I forgot how screwy they were since I didn't have them for about a year (due to baby).  Ok, I will shut up now.  I just want to have a normal period so I can have a hope of getting pregnant again someday.....

Well now....I'd be pretty pissy too!  There is a guy on the pa forum where I "hang" most of the time who has said "Never ask a woman if she is pregnant unless you see a head (or limb) sticking out"  Words to live by!

Anyhow...I'm just pissy for no reason today.  I woke up that way.  I was mad at the lady in front of me at Wawa who insisted apon paying in exact change and dropped the nickel and had to count out some pennies from the bottom of her change purse...I was mad at the guy in front of me driving to work for doing "only" 5mph above the speed limit...I was mad at patients for coming in to the ER for a problem that has been going on for 3 mos and "got bad tonight"...as hubby said "what side of whose bed did you wake up on"  I don't know but hope I find my way back to mine today!

As far as being grateful...at least I had money to spend at Wawa..had a car to get me to work..have a JOB to go to in this economy...and a hubby who just made a quick little comment and then proceeded to kiss me on the head and make me feel special.

Pam

I've been asked the preg question as a pre-op.  It's just wrong. People need to be slapped.

I posted my hide chapping before I read this LOL.  No naps is not working for me right now.  But at least it's the weekend, I plan on fixing that!

Hope a good day is ahead.

Sharon

Even worse that the idiots who ask if you're pg...are the idiots who feel it's their place in the world to tell fat people how to lose weight...or that they need to lose weight...as if we didn't KNOW we were fat this morning when we got up and layed down on the bed to squeeze into those pants.  I've run into my share of them in the world when I was pre-WLS (not that I'm skinny now...but I'm comfortable and average size - about a 14)...and I have been sorely tempted to turn into an UGLY fat person when I meet them.

After I moved to NY (I'm originally from Oregon) my younger sister (who is also way overweight...and wears shorts and doesn't care if the world sees all her cellulite, etc hanging out....) came to visit from Oregon...We were riding the Staten Island Ferry...and this wench came up, stuck her face in my sister's face...and said 'Oh look! A family of pigs!' and made oinking noises.  Wonder what the penalty is for shoving someone off the side of the ferry into the NY Harbor?  Can you claim temporary insanity?

Just remind yourself that those 30 pounds you are trying to lose are the pay off for your beautiful little girl...and you can get back on track and lose them and more...to be the person you want to be and happy and healthy with your weight...but there's not a damn thing you can do for stupid people.  Poor things are just stuck in a revolving door of stupidity.

Re the AC thing...well...pre-WLS, I'd have been your ***** buddy on that one...I hated heat.  Now...I hate AC...and I live in the land of 90 degrees 365 days a year, about 70 percent humidity...and it's perfect.  When I get cold at work from the AC, I go outside and pet cats to warm up in the sun...and we're always having AC fights at home because I don't want them blowing on me.

Don't know what to tell you re the dentist since I don't know what happened...but I suppose you could bite him if you go back to him (which it doesn't sound like you will).

Regardless of everything bad...you at least have it in perspective that you have a fantastic family who loves you.  Isn't it a warm, fuzzy feeling how your baby loves you unconditionally?  I mean, we all know (I hope) that our spouses love us (and hopefully accept us as is...), but it's not the same totally unconditional as your baby...who gets happy just to see you walk in the room.

As for me...my only mini rant is...I'm impatient.  I'm waiting to find out where we're going after Indonesia...and those who're 'in the know' to make the decisions don't seem to be making any decisions. 

Rant away! (Perhaps the irritation is worse b/c AF is on the way for you?!)

Family living situations suck. Been there, done that, can SO empahsize!

Congrats on your continued bonding with Sophie! That's great! I am hoping my son will do well with my husband, b/c all little kids are afraid of him. Even his little brother... he is kinda hairy... LOL, but he's not mean or anything. (he's worrying about this. He thinks that I don't know)

I hope your day gets better and go sit in the pool. Swimming is great exercise. Use that as your excuse!

Ugh!!! Sacramento summers DO SUCK my friend!!! I was in my pool yesterday (on a floating raft can't submerge because I have no mucus plug) thinking to myself - WTH??? Why do our summers always start SO EARLY! Then I always get the GREAT idea that we should go to the state fair in August!!! LOL! Remind me what an idiot I am when I am *****ing about it later!

I am sorry you are having a yucky time with the weight and your dentist! I have gained 28 lbs of baby weight myself this time - and am not looking forward to working it off in this heat - I can relate! (((HUGS)))

You had Sophie at Kaiser Morse right?? They are no longer delivering there - my friend had her baby at the new Roseville facility and it is REALLY NICE! So when you do get preggo again (it will happen!!!!) you have a new beautiful facility to look forward too. I am going to Sutter Roseville - and a little jealous now! LOL!

Rant all you want, girl!

I have to say, I got asked the "are you preg" question a few times myself when I was pre-op (and couldn't get pregnant to save my life).  It always made me burst into tears!  Now I think about it and it just ****** me off that people are rude and assume that of people.  Grrr.

I think you'll lose that last 50 you want to lose and know that Sophie is sooo worth it~ What a little beauty!

Your husband is like mine... he does stuff and doesn't complain.  They are the keepers!  And as for Sophie preferring you... I think that's sweet!  Tyson has always had a preference for me, as well.  He's a major momma's boy :)

Hope you can find a way to keep cool~  Oklahoma summers are absolutely miserable, too, and I'm a very hot natured person for someone who is 130 lbs.  I'm not a typical freezing post-op LoL.  I am one who likes to keep the house at 67 degrees.

Well, my complaints/rants for the day are that AF continues to be completely out of whack since I've had Tyson... well, heck, I've never had a normal period in my life so why would it be any different since I had him.  My last one just ended on May 17th and it was a 13 day period.  I started again last night!! FULL FORCE!! ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!  Every little thing is getting on my nerves today... esp all the road construction on base.

I also wish time would go faster so Jason would be home, but I can't complain since I know we will be happily together again in a few months :)

Have a great day, y'all!