No D & C

When I went to the ER yesterday she did an exam and my cervix was wide open and I was passing "the tissue".  I wasn't in any pain, having any cramps or excessive bleeding.  I guess you could say that after the first night (pure hell-even with 3 Tylenol #3) that it was relatively easy.  Afterwards we came home and I slept for 2 1/2 hours.  Then we went grocery shopping and birthday shopping for my youngest son.  Funny how life goes on...

However, today I'm alone and I know it's the hormones but I can't stop crying.  I didn't cry at all yesterday (I was relieved that part was over) but today I'm a mess.  I'm trying to clean the house to keep my mind occupied but it's not working.  I want to crawl into my bed and stay there for a while.  I don't understand why did I get pregnant, fight with my husband for a month about keeping it and then have it die.  Why?  

Ok, enough already.  I know you're sick of this and I know that I am not the only one to have gone through this.  Thank you for listening and supporting me.  Although I haven't responded to posts, please know that I read them and appreciate everyone's love, support and prayers. 

We are soooooooooo not sick of it....we are here to help you and love you and support you.....again, I cannot even fathom what you are going through all I can offer is my prayers and support....I am so sorry sweet Kelly.....

Staying busy helps me too....and naps are okay too....in moderation....when will your family be back? I am praying you get back to some normalcy VERY soon.....it is good to hear from you as I was thinking of you all day.....

Prayers, Hugs and lots of lovies,

Ann

i dont even know what to say... this last few months has been a whirlwind for you... stay brave :)

Kelly,

I'm so very sorry you're going through this!  I'd be crying, too!!  And I don't think anyone is sick of hearing about you -- we're all concerned and want to support you!  ((Hugs!))

I don't think there are any answers about the "why," though.  Usually when something bad happens, I try to think about what I can learn from it, but I really don't know what you can learn from this.  It's just a rotten thing that has happened!  

Allow yourself to grieve.  That's really important.  Talking with a counselor would also really be helpful.  

You've been in my thought and prayers and will continue to be.

Cindy 

I wish I could just give you a big hug and help dry your tears.

I am still so sorry you are going through this. 

you'll continue to be in my thoughts and please post any time you need to. 

Everything you're feeling right now is perfectly normal.  Each of us grieves in our own way...and there isn't a right or wrong way to do it.  Staying busy is good...but when even that doesn't help and you just need to cry anyways...do it.  Think of each tear as a little bit of healing going on.  For your children's sake, since they didn't know...obviously it's best if you can sneak away to cry on your own so you don't upset them...but do let yourself cry when you feel the need.

I'm glad you didn't have to go through the additional trauma of the D&C.  I guess that's one thing I can say I've been fortunate w/my three mc's is that I've managed to pass everything on my own w/o the drugs you had or a D&C.  I can't imagine either...because I was a mess just getting the rhogam shot in the ass.

You know I'm always here for you day or night.  Hugs n kisses!

Ash :)

My hearts goes out to you, sweetie.  I am certainly not sick of your posts~  I just hope that you are able to get through this time of grieving and find peace.  Know that we are all here for you.  *hugs*

~ Renae

HIJACK!!!!

So been wondering where you are....hope all is well...give us an update....how is Ash doing too???

Miss you!

I've been away for the last 2 days and wondering how you were making out! Glad that the pain is better, I can't imagine what you are going through but are here if you want to talk!

Liz