Slightly off-topic but maybe not in my update
My bra blubber incisions are with Scarban, silicon sheets. Itchy and thick scars but my inner satisfaction in knowing I am 5cm less around than before. In European size bra I am now a 90B\C and not 95D.
I may not look as 'perfect' as some others but I feel better emotionally knowing I am less.
Partly in response to MyBariatricLife's last post, as well my own sense that for me as a woman who lives alone, my activity on Facebook and forums in Hebrew and in English, are for me a source of survival and support and as such I need validation and not accidental vindication on what I do in being honest.
As I wrote in response to MBL, our bodies are likened to a temple as our homes and possibilities to renovate.
We lost weight and dreamt of slimmer bodies-often looking more at 'the number on the scale or the number in the label in the clothing we buy hoping to be able fit into' to define who we are.
I get Disabilty so I really don't have the money to pay for Africa as so many of you have had by working hard and saving towards your goal for your surgery to fulfill your dream of slimmer healthier body and appearance.
I had panni which was really tt;BL/BR and paid for bra blubber excision. Even with my complications in wound-healing after surgery, I still fantasize having inner thigh plasty and saddlebags. If HMO will pay.
I have noticed a certain emotional awareness and personal revelation in my eating lifestyle in that I, as a RnYer try to eat my protein but also live my life and never want to ever feel emotionally deprived by food. I recently learned that although I still 'graze' I choose it to be green beans or my addiction of sunflower seeds in their shells. I used to love my B&J coffee ice cream and would be a lot when it was on sale and although instead of finishing a pint dr a sitting, a pint know is 4-6 eatings. And yet the last time I wanted to buy and stock up, was October 2013! Wow-what happened to that I somehow changed?
I also noticed that if I allow myself to eat/drink at a party or holiday celebration, it is okay and once I know and say it is okay, I don't have the same urge/desire to eat and pig-out. I'm still a fan of 'the clean my plate' syndrome, I somehow don't eat quite as much.
My off topic is other specialty doctors telling us to lose weight claiming it will correct out complaint of pain. I've written before of this here and in a Hebrew forum and was accidentally invalidated by some people.
When I was 15, I fell crushing my left ankle necessitating surgery. During the year after the surgery I managed to sprain the ankle twice. I was fat then, maybe even obese. I lived my life and years later had the surgical ok a removed.
In 2005 I developed osteoarthritis only in the left ankle and by summer of 2006 I had Ankle Fusion and was in nine casts over 199 days including somehow (due to obesity and lack of upper arm strength) chipped my lateral malleous and had subsequent revision surgery.
Over the past year I have had to live in pain if I walk too much or after work. I've repeatedly seen orthopedists*with regard to my pain, X-rays shoe complete fusion of the bones but no orthopedist dealt with my pain so I've had a 'diet' of 10mg OxyContin via script from my GP of which I take depending on how often I have work or walk too much. My pain is not due to inclement weather; it can rain and If I am home and not going out, I am usually okay.
I bought new prescription orthotics this past January and they have never felt totally comfortable.
The last time I saw an orthopedist in my HMO, he referred me to a a Sports Foot and Ankle Specialist in my local hospital who only recently started to work in my city two years ago. He sent me to do a series of X-rays after his physical examination which revealed that the hardware, the screws, one has moved and it's head is pushing agains the outside ankle and the other is embedded. I have the common bunion and three hammer toes. No mention from this skinny orthopedist about my body size or weight unlike the orthopedist* who had performed my Ankle Fusion when I weighed more (and he knew me at my highest weight of 120K/152cm.
In my medical/surgical part, and living alone without family nearby, the emotional difficulty in deciding of to have a surgery even if medically based but still considered to be elective is a frustrating and at times judging process.
I am now at another medical (orthopedic) crossroads: to struggle on in pain or to have a surgery considers to be complex with all the known risks/complications similar to those we are told before our various plastics procedures.what is even more scary is knowing the recovery is considered harder than the actual surgery.
Okay, I'm drifting off as I type on my iPhone so who knows what gibberish might be hitting the page.
I'm looking for comfort and validation even though I am an adult of value, my Disabilty includes borderline personality disorder often causing me to take things literal and be over-sensitive.
Mikimi in Israel
I may not look as 'perfect' as some others but I feel better emotionally knowing I am less.
Partly in response to MyBariatricLife's last post, as well my own sense that for me as a woman who lives alone, my activity on Facebook and forums in Hebrew and in English, are for me a source of survival and support and as such I need validation and not accidental vindication on what I do in being honest.
As I wrote in response to MBL, our bodies are likened to a temple as our homes and possibilities to renovate.
We lost weight and dreamt of slimmer bodies-often looking more at 'the number on the scale or the number in the label in the clothing we buy hoping to be able fit into' to define who we are.
I get Disabilty so I really don't have the money to pay for Africa as so many of you have had by working hard and saving towards your goal for your surgery to fulfill your dream of slimmer healthier body and appearance.
I had panni which was really tt;BL/BR and paid for bra blubber excision. Even with my complications in wound-healing after surgery, I still fantasize having inner thigh plasty and saddlebags. If HMO will pay.
I have noticed a certain emotional awareness and personal revelation in my eating lifestyle in that I, as a RnYer try to eat my protein but also live my life and never want to ever feel emotionally deprived by food. I recently learned that although I still 'graze' I choose it to be green beans or my addiction of sunflower seeds in their shells. I used to love my B&J coffee ice cream and would be a lot when it was on sale and although instead of finishing a pint dr a sitting, a pint know is 4-6 eatings. And yet the last time I wanted to buy and stock up, was October 2013! Wow-what happened to that I somehow changed?
I also noticed that if I allow myself to eat/drink at a party or holiday celebration, it is okay and once I know and say it is okay, I don't have the same urge/desire to eat and pig-out. I'm still a fan of 'the clean my plate' syndrome, I somehow don't eat quite as much.
My off topic is other specialty doctors telling us to lose weight claiming it will correct out complaint of pain. I've written before of this here and in a Hebrew forum and was accidentally invalidated by some people.
When I was 15, I fell crushing my left ankle necessitating surgery. During the year after the surgery I managed to sprain the ankle twice. I was fat then, maybe even obese. I lived my life and years later had the surgical ok a removed.
In 2005 I developed osteoarthritis only in the left ankle and by summer of 2006 I had Ankle Fusion and was in nine casts over 199 days including somehow (due to obesity and lack of upper arm strength) chipped my lateral malleous and had subsequent revision surgery.
Over the past year I have had to live in pain if I walk too much or after work. I've repeatedly seen orthopedists*with regard to my pain, X-rays shoe complete fusion of the bones but no orthopedist dealt with my pain so I've had a 'diet' of 10mg OxyContin via script from my GP of which I take depending on how often I have work or walk too much. My pain is not due to inclement weather; it can rain and If I am home and not going out, I am usually okay.
I bought new prescription orthotics this past January and they have never felt totally comfortable.
The last time I saw an orthopedist in my HMO, he referred me to a a Sports Foot and Ankle Specialist in my local hospital who only recently started to work in my city two years ago. He sent me to do a series of X-rays after his physical examination which revealed that the hardware, the screws, one has moved and it's head is pushing agains the outside ankle and the other is embedded. I have the common bunion and three hammer toes. No mention from this skinny orthopedist about my body size or weight unlike the orthopedist* who had performed my Ankle Fusion when I weighed more (and he knew me at my highest weight of 120K/152cm.
In my medical/surgical part, and living alone without family nearby, the emotional difficulty in deciding of to have a surgery even if medically based but still considered to be elective is a frustrating and at times judging process.
I am now at another medical (orthopedic) crossroads: to struggle on in pain or to have a surgery considers to be complex with all the known risks/complications similar to those we are told before our various plastics procedures.what is even more scary is knowing the recovery is considered harder than the actual surgery.
Okay, I'm drifting off as I type on my iPhone so who knows what gibberish might be hitting the page.
I'm looking for comfort and validation even though I am an adult of value, my Disabilty includes borderline personality disorder often causing me to take things literal and be over-sensitive.
Mikimi in Israel
I needed bilateral knee replacements due to long standing arthritis damage. I saw several orthopedist in consult Three docs said that they wouldn't do both together, and all said I needed to lose weight before they would consider surgery. I had just immediately lost over 100 pounds. Needless to say I was very discouraged & disappointed. I then had a consult with one of the top knee replacement surgeons in NYC, and expected the same response. I was so wrong. 3 weeks after my initial consult, I had both knees done at the same time!
I was very surprised & 9 weeks later was touring London , only using a cane occasionally , & only taking. Motrin.If you feel like you need something, just push until someone listens. No one knows your body like you.
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