Why so emotional?

Like most here, I've been overweight my entire life.  I've always dreamed of having a flat stomach, how crazy happy I would be if ever that day would happen.  Well, it's going to happen, I'm scheduled for November 20th for my panniculectomy, my pre-op is this Wednesday.  So why am I constantly crying lately?  I've lost close to 100 lbs and feel the best I've ever felt in my life, maintaining my weight for 1 1/2 years now.  However, with that said, I am 20# short of a goal I set for myself 3 years ago.  Not sure if the tears are from some inner disappointment in myself for not obtaining that goal?  Or are they just from the fear of the unknown?  Or how crazy is this idea, that I'm losing the last of my old identity?  Has anyone else experienced this overwhelming fear of what the hell am I doing?

YES YES YES almost all of us do. I recently had a 6.5-hr plastic surgery. I had never had a long surgery like that in my life. I called my surgeon twice in hysterics trying to cancel the surgery. I told my PCP I was convinced I was going to die. I had so much anxiety that I had BP spikes and would get lightheaded and shortness of breath. I had some medical things going on in the background that I do not want to get into now, but it was emotional hell on Earth for me. 

Guess what, my surgery was soooooooo easy. Thank God.

Thank you!  I've been following your blogs, very insightful.  I can't even begin to imagine how it's going to feel without a bulge or roll getting in the way.  Going in for my pre-op tomorrow, any last minute suggestions on questions would be greatly appreciated.... 

Good luck!!! It was WONDERFUL to get rid of my barrel tummy and monster crotch. I still remember seeing myself FLAT for the first time when my PA removed my binder. OMG, incredible!!! Then when I say myself for the first time in the full length mirror at my surgeon's office I was ecstatic.

My best advice at this point is to make sure that you and your surgeon are very aligned on what your results will be and where your incision will be, and what you can expect during recovery and the complications you might have -- and which of those are urgent and require immediate medical care, make sure you understand his treatment protocol (compression or not, removal of drains, care of the drains, when to see him post op), as well as how you can reach him in an emergency or during non-working office hours. 

And if you are curious about my tummy tuck journey, you can read a detailed account of it here.