I'm really glad I got my consult when I did...

cuz I'm going to need a long time to save up for this. It's not as bad as I was thinking it would be but it's still a LOT of money.

Looking at a breast reduction/lift, brachioplasty, and belt lipectomy/body lift. I haven't read everything closely yet but the cost estimate factors in my insurance covering the breast reduction and a over half the anesthesia for the BL because apparently I have a ventral hernia and insurance will cover the repair for that.

I have 38 lbs. to lose to get to where I'm thinking my goal should be. At this point, I honestly don't know if I can reasonably get there but I'll consider re-evaluating when I get closer. At the very least, I want to be within normal BMI and body fat ranges. And THEN I want to maintain for a while. So maybe next year at this time...or sooner, at least, for the breast reduction. That is the only surgery I've ever truly wanted so no matter what happens with the rest, I'm getting that one done.

I am so thrilled to be this close to being ready for this. I feel so much better, I look so much better...although I have lost from all over so all the rolls and bumps I had 80 lbs. ago (at my highest weight) are still there. Some days they look just as enormous as they used to be; others I can tell they are a lot smaller. It has finally occurred to me that many of them aren't going to go away as the fat disappears underneath. My poor skin is all stretched out and I can SEE that now. It's icky to contemplate but exciting at the same time because I can lift and pull it like I've seen others do in "before" PS pics and I couldn't do that before because there was too much fat in the way.

Finally feels like I'm getting somewhere. :)