Thanks everybody

Thanks for listening ya'll.

I"ve decided to step away from plastic surgery right now.  Even though I've got all the positive support you could possibly ask for, I've come to the decision that if it were truly right for me right now, I wouldn't be having such angst over it.

I'm only a year out from my vsg. It IS possible that I could lose some more weight, even though I have been pretty stable the last 4 months, I never really exercise regularly, so if I do, things may change.

And as someone here said, its not like the residency program is going anywhere.  If they are willing to take my money now, they will take it when I'm ready for all this.  I think I need to stop seeing myself as the "big" girl in the room. Take baby steps by actually buying myself some new clothes.

Anyway, I really appreciate being able to come here and blather away without getting blasted.

Hey, "blather" away any old time.  I'm sure alot of people reading this board are having the same thoughts.  It's good to talk about it with others.  And it's okay if the decision process takes along time.

- Jenny

Glad you came to the right decision for you.  That's the point of the whole journey isn't it?

Best wishes for continued health :)

I hope that you eventually realize that you ARE worth it and get it done. You look so incredibly sad in your pictures and I worry about your well-being. Hugs!!

Laura

As my late father would say, "...ya gotta do what you think is right..."

 I'm glad you have come to a decision you are comfortable with.  And...you know this board will still be here when you are ready too.

I just wanted to wish you the best of luck. This journey is crazy! The decision to have plastics is a huge one. It is difficult to spend that kind of money. But pplease know that you are honestly worth every single penny that you spend on plastics! You deserve to have them done. At one point, I thought that I should not spend the money on plastics because it was selfish. I felt as though I could buy things for my kids or pay off a car. My husband then told me that I needed to stop worrying about everything else and have my surgery. he told me to get it now so that I can enjoy it longer! I am now 4 weeks out from a TT and I am so happy that I did it. I will be having a BL/BA in February and I can't wait! I hated how I felt in my skin when I was fat. I thought that once I was thin all of the fatty issues would go away. They did not. I was thin, looked good in clothes, but looked like a melting candle naked! I was embarassed. Today, for the first time in YEARS, I feel sexy. I feel like a woman. I am so grateful for this journey. I truly hope and pray that you get to this point in your journey. We are all here for you all of the time!