Feeling like I'm doing a little (ok, a lot) self destructive eating--just a phase?

May I offer another idea at what might be happening?

or even a few things?

1) remember other surgeries and how the weeks after anesthesia causes you to feel like you are "losing it"--some of stress / don't care etc could be medical.

2) when you are healing you will require more calories, and so you could be needing extra calories. It is better to get them in form of protein, as it is the building blocks for healing--but that being said--still get the water and vitamins--do not slack here--you body needs it all right now to heal, which takes a full yearish to accomplish.

and last, though you feel good, etc---self-sabbatoge--yeah, but it also can be the newness of having to renavigate your identity. Remember when we had to refigure who we were since we were not the "fattest one"? well, now you have a new sense of beauty, sexuality, etc--and you need to figure out again who you are in all that--and girl, for that calgon and a good journal will work wonders!

Navigating that one myself, and now a tattle on myself, instead of stuffing emotions, I go and look at the "girls" and smile.

I agree with Rhonda. I needed lots of extra calories post-plastics and my metabolism was working in overdrive, so I actually lost weight while eating tons. Are you gaining weight? The hard part came for me after about 3 months when my metabolism went back to normal and I had to cut back on the eating. I'm4 months out and am back in my regular routine.

Laura