3 days and counting and I'm a mess...

Ok I go in Thursday morning for my BL and TT...and I thought I was doing o****il my husband pointed out Saturday that I'm very edgy right now and a bit emotional...which of course made me snap at him "I AM NOT"...lol..no not edgy at all....ok so this morning I get up and it's all I can do to get kids around and not think about the fact that in 3 days this will really be happening...they all left for school/work and I sat down and all the built up stress just poured out....I had no idea that I was that freaked about this...I don't usually freak out over surgery etc...not to this point...I've dealt with too many medical things with myself and my kids for it to affect me this way...but alas here I am...in a total freak out....and honestly I can't even tell you why...I've tried to pinpoint it...but nothing really comes to mind...there is some fear that I'll wake up from this surgery and something will have gone horribly wrong and it'll be something they can't fix or we won't have the money to fix...but, I don't know that that's what is really getting me...I don't know...I have a really high pain tolerance so even with the few horror stories I've heard/read, I'm not too worried about that....maybe it's leaving hubby in charge of the kids while I recover...lol...I don't know...and that's probably the most frustrating part for me is the not knowing why...I'm rambling, sorry, I just needed to get this out...

Nina

Go ahead and ramble...it's good therapy. I think you're feeling a combination of everything you described. The unknown, not being in control of the kids and your normal motherly duties. It's all perfectly normal. You're going to be fine and you are going to LOVE not having that panni and having to deal with it. You are going to love having nice, firm, perky boobs! Try to shift your focus the next couple of days even if you have to do something you don't normally do. Read a book, take long walks, go shopping! I'll be thinking of you and look forward to your updates. Good luck, Nina!

It's okay - what you're feeling is normal.

I chose to keep myself incredibly busy up until the night before my first surgery.  My surgery was on a Friday, I worked up until Wednesday and they thankfully put me on an insanely busy support project with two practices of phsycians that see a high volume of patients.  I flew home Wednesday night, Thursday I took care of making a turkey dinner so we didn't have to worry about meals for a few days, ran all kinds of errands, and had one last therapy session.  Then Thursday night, had a complete melt down because I had time to focus on just the surgery.  Friday morning, after getting dressed I continued the meltdown.  I cried from stress all the way up until I saw my ps in the holding pen.

He's incredibly calming.