Now I know why they call it "pleasingly plump"

I know many of you  are  "groin" tired of these groin pics of mine.  I'm freaking out with pain .and it's Sunday ..so what else is new?  Think I may try to apply for disabiltiy within the next two weeks.  If doctors say somehow say I'm fine I'll try for psychiatric disabiltiy I guess.  Although, my feeling is that I would have psychiatric problem if I thought my plastic surgery results  were okay.  I give up!!! ...and need to be laying down almost all the time. And to think I was strong and healthy and went to the gym faithfully for over 20 years until plastic surgery came along and knocked me to the dirt.

 I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I think the look is not as bad as you think but pain is another issue.  I hope you can find a doctor who can help with the pain and find out why you are hurting.  I have no words of wisdom for you, I wish I did. Just take it one day at a time.

Thanks I just got home after 5 hours of sitting at work.  It wasn't too terrible sitting tonight.  Yeah it's going to be hard to find someone to diagnosis my case because of the medical brotherhod denial factor.  I realize that.  One day at a time maybe.  Thanks for your support though.
Did you read the latest about Calcium ..and heart attacks? .Guess it's okay balanced with Vit D ( I always heard it should be balanced with magnisium too.)

Were you a self pay for your surgery?

yes...no support at all from any organization. ...just like a deer in the headlights. Guess they saw me coming and tried some sort of experiment on me which had nothing to do with my structure at all just to see if it could be done or something.  The surgery was not carried out in the way discussed during my preop evaluation anyway. . So if that was the case -they now know that it can be done  and the receipient  can live through it for at least nine years afterwards albiet in terrific pain which they can't feel.   I hope they are happy with my satisfactory (according to them) outcome. I'm sure not !!  I'm not even upset about what happened to me anymore.  I'm upset about the denial that I have a bad problem though and I'm super concerned  about what's up next .  My situation is getting worse by the minute from the tork force that has  eroded all the adipose in my inner leg, I feel I'm slowly dying from some sort of rupture that has been building up for the past 9 years or that I might end up not being able to walk or even stand before too much longer. Doctors I've seen hardly even look at me and always    say that I'm fine.  I'm not though and so I'm trying to buy up as much life and disability insurance as I can (while I can )with the money I might under ordinary cir****tances have used to have fun or go on vacation or buy nice clothes with.  Then when I  fall over flat on the sidewalk someday soon  and can't get up I'll apply and hopefully get    social security disabilty assistance a couple of years before I'm due to retire and watch " The Kardashians" all day long and just numb out.   Sorry so long and so bummy -outty -ish.