Post - Op Depression....

Yep - I think it's safe to say I've gotten there.
Im feeling broken, useless and frustrated. Oddly it's not due to my swelling and being too BIG for all my clothes right now. But very much related to my being an active person in general.
I am so used to getting out of my house daily for a work out at the gym- I enjoy not just the working out but the social aspect of it all.
Im tired of worrying about whether I will need to have a bowel movement while my hubby is gone fishing or taking the kiddo to school - and therefore not being able to get my garment back on.
Im tired of not being able to work. I am a photographer and I have so many ideas on things I would like to do and create templates for some of my boudoir albums and such - but I can't really do that with my head being fuzzy.
These F#$#%#% DRAINS....I try not to carry on and on about them but they are soooooo limiting! And today they developed a new trick (yes - in addition to staining every pair of sweats I have) they STINK. Like - smell - badly. It's gross.
I feel so un-sexy. Not that Im trying to get busy just after surgery - but it really humiliates me to think my hubby migh be smelling them too when he helps me up and down.
Today I spent 20 minutes TRAPPED in the recliner because I couldn't get the legs down.

My Day Today?:

Wake at 3 with bad headache because I was sleeping in one position all night. I felt bad so I decided I would get myself up without waking hubby who has to get up with my daughter in a few hours. I nearly fell down. He got mad that I got up without asking for help.
Then I slept in the recliner and woke with a back ache from being on my ass for DAYS. Had breakfast, took naps, woke up and my drains are leaking all over my crotch on my white pants. Spent 20 minutes trying to get out of my chair to get cleaned up. I told hubby he could go fishing with his dad - I figure he must need a break by now - and was regretting it.
Ate lunch and cried for 20 minutes about how these drains are never going away and Ill hurt FOREVER (you know - as dramatic as I can possibly be!).

I know this is all fleeting and I try so hard to remember this too shall pass and I will be so glad I had everything done. And really  I do not regret my surgery itself at all - I just needed to ***** and moan a bit.

I had my drains in for 3 weeks for my TT and it was annoying, I finally felt normal when they were removed.
I get depressed about 5 days after every surhery it is horrible, I feel like i loose control thank God it doesnt last
Susan

Glad Im not the only one...
I forgot to add that I feel like an absolute CRAP mother right now too. My 6yr old wants to play - I can't. She can't hardly hug me. I can't give her baths or fix her hair.
She made a 97 on her reading test today (she is 6) and Im not allowed in a car so I can't take her for a snow cone or something special as a surprise to let her know Im so proud.....

I was there too. I NEVER 'need' anyone...but after this surgery and almost passing out everytime I took a shower...I had to break down and ask my hubby to take off more work than just the few days I thought I'd need him for. That was HUGE for me to have to admit I needed more help...I'm usually such a control freak! The lift/recliner chair was the greatest...it helped me feel more "independent" for the most part, but I still needed my hubby to help out with some stuff. And I felt like a horrible mom for that first couple of weeks...I couldn't bathe the kids or get them ready for school or put them to bed! I have an 8 year old and a 4 year old. But it really didn't take too long before I was back to normal!! Won't be long you'll be there too and this surgery funk will be gone and you'll be left with the fabulous body Dr. Lo created for you!!

I am sure you will get past this and start to enjoy your new body once you start feeling "normal again"... Thus far you look amazing.

Lots of hugs.  I've heard that the anathesia getting out of your system can put you into a depression.  Maybe that is adding to how you already feel.  I hope you start seeing the light soon.  Why can't you get in a car?  As a passenger even?

My surgeon has very strict rules on not being in a vehical until post op. Because of the many things that can happen.
Even as a passenger - the way you sit with a seat belt can not only be painful and cause MORE swelling - but if someone should hit you - you could really be in a lot of trouble!
I trust my surgeon very much - and have followed this rule (aside from my joy ride in the ambulance on saturday *wink*) but am definatly looking forward to my venture out for post op tomorrow!

I think this feeling of depression is pretty common - it should lift in a few days once you are feeling more in control and slowly get back into your normal daily activities. Boy reading your comments is making me thing twice about plastic surgery - but then I look at my arms and panni. LOL

Don't let it discourage you. My surgeon is fantastic - and my work is fantastic. I know in the end, it will all be worth it! But I also think it's important to show the REAL feelings Im having during the healing process. Hopefully you will remember that I too had these feelings after you havey our surgery and feel this way.
Right now Im doing the happy dance cause my drains come out tomorrow!!!:)

See - there is always a silver lining . . .the drains come out tomorrow!!

YIPPY SKIPPY!!