I chickened out!

My TT was supposed to be this morning...I registered at 6am, got my IV started, and was wheeled into the pre-surgery staging area.....THEN...I had a panc attack- I freaked out big time.  I was crying and shaking...I couldn't get it out of my head that I might not wake up, and that at the very least I was putting myself through lots of pain and reovery for vanity reasons...and I knew it wouldn''t be the end either.  Once my tummy was fixed,  I would hate my legs more, or notice some back fat....anguish about my boobs...hell I even have issues with my chin....I just put a stop to the whole thing and cancelled my surgery...I was freaking out almost all the way home, and my hubby is pretty pissed at me..but it is what it is.  Just wanted to let everyone know- I am gonna try to learn to like myself as-is, and stop wanting the perfect body I will never have anyway...thank you guys for all the support you gave me!

Fawn, I am sorry you had a panic attack.  When or if the time is right you will know it.  Good luck and have a blessed day.

Sherline

Thanks for the kind words!

I am sorry hon. We are here for you.

Thank you Russ!

Im really sory to har that babe, in my eyes yu are perfect , you are the perfect mommy, the perfect wife, the perfect friend.
I love you  and im here for you too.


Josh

Thanks Josh!  I was really beating myself up earlier, but my daughters were so happy I didn't go through with it that I am sure I made the right decision...HUGS!

 Do not be too hard on yourself. I once had a panic attack during a sleep study and freaked out when they put the cpap on me. I had to get out so I understand the feeling. You are right about fixing one thing and thinking the rest looks worse. I am struggling with that now.

Thank you!  I knew I couldn't go through with it in that state....If I reconsider, I will make sure I am 100% ready before I go for it again...although right now I do not think I will reconsider...

(((Fawn))) I like that you want to love your self as is. Why is DH pissed? I doubt you're out that much money. This is about you. I have the awful skin rashes etc and I've often wondered if I am doing the right thing. Only you know. I'm sorry about the panic attack but I am happy you did what was right for you.