My facade is crumbling. I'm scared!

I'm having my hernia repair and abdominoplasty on December 10.  Up until I got that date today I've been nothing but excited and happy.

Somehow the moment it became a reality and I put it on my calendar I lost it. 

My recovery from DS was harrible for me mentally.  It was the first surgery I had ever had and I had no idea what to expect.  I'm apparently a slow healer and I don't deal well with pain.  Even my mom (sort of kindly) called me a wimp today.

The pain, the drains, the reliance on others, the feeling of being a prisoner to my body.  It's all coming back in flashes and I feel so oppressed by the emotion it's stirring up.  I was never even going to consider plastics because I never, ever wanted to go through that again.  Now here I am, signing up again.

My husband is supportive and trying to be there for me, but it's so hard to explain to him what it was like and how it made me feel.

I'm so scared.

I'm sorry you had such a bad experience, recovering from your initial WLS! Well, pain is a ***** Post-op medications will help you deal with the pain--don't be afraid to ask for what you need!

Relying on others to help you when you're vulnerable is no sin! It is an opportunity for them to enrich their spirits through care-giving. Think of it that way. It would be mean not to let them take care of you when you need it! :)

Also, the hernia repair is necessary and important. You would be having that surgery anyway, and it's wonderful that you can get the two procedures done at the same time. Think of your new, flat, strong stomach--and how great it will be to slip into jeans without worrying about a muffin-top anymore!

Feeling better today. 

Thanks everyone!

In lots of ways plastics is much easier, there are no food restrictions and its all about you LOOKING good, I loved my tummy tuck, I remember waking up looking down and being thrilled.  I never felt terrible pain it was numb and actually still is, even 3 years later.  I thought my rny was much worse pain wise, and there are people here that say that can't be so but why the hell would I lie about it.  I think I know what hurts and what doesn't.  Walking hunched over was the worst part I think, but I was alone from day one.  Obviously I just had a tt and not a hernia repair so that I can't comment on, but hopefully it will all goes smoothly and you will be thrilled too.

Hugs Heidi

My WLS was SO much worse than the PSs. i am a TOTAL wuss and I would go through ALL of the PSs twice before thw WLS once(Painwise). I'm with MyLadyHeidi in that the hunched over was/is the worst part. Good Luck

Glad you're feeling better today