I forgot!!!

I forgot how the PS & pain meds can REALLY put you into a funk/depression. I was reading some Post and others were pointing out that just after PS we need time to get over the effects of the antethsia & pain meds & surgery trauma. I FORGOT!!! And I've been going home ery night for the last 5 days and CRYING & HAVING PITY PARTIES!!! "My life SUCKS! My incision is not HEALING in this one place & it NEVER WILL!!! I'll probably have a HUGE scar there! Who will EVER want to look at me!!! Why did I DO this! I should have SAVED my money!! I'll be paying this off for a YEAR!!!I'm going to end up OLD & ALONE if I don't go BACK to my Ex Husband!" I've held it together during work but after that...I'm SOBBING in the car! I'm questioning all the choices I've made in the last year(They were GOOD & CORRECT choices) I FORGOT!!
 Well now I remember & ...I know..I know... I read all of the information the Dr gave me saying depression was one of the emotions I would have.
 I'm glad you helped me remember because NOW I know & I'm going to stop it as soon as I feel it. I'm going to get up & take a walk or pick up that book I've been meaning to read or watch a funny movie or call my DM & say "I love you . Lets go do lunch & shop!!"
"Now seating for Pity Party for one...AAHH Tonya..we have you PP table ready!!"

 So sorry that you are feeling so overwhelmed. I did have my moments too, and my husband and daughter ducked for cover!! I didn't realize the anesthesia and pain meds could do this. I am fine now, about 10 weeks out and other than depression from the economy, I'm feeling pretty good. Hang in there.....Funny though, I'm starting to get picky about every little thing that I think could be better and we shouldn't go there. Unless our surgeons totally screwed the job up, we should look at how much better we look and be happy....Best of luck and just know that we've all been where you are.....LN

((Hugs)))

Hi,

Maybe you were reading Diana Cox's posted message and my comments... Recovery is difficult... not just physically... we have plenty of time to recline and think about out past, present and future. The best thing to do is post and read on here and other boards. Have friends stay or visit at your home. This is all uncharted territory for us... Even with my "fix" I'd forgotten how I have to wait it out for my body to heal itself.

You're doing everything right... baby steps...
Kim

LOL...You are right! It was Diane Cox's post & included your reply. I just forgot that these were NORMAL issues I would face for a few days/weeks. The HIGH from braving surgery going down and the LIFE REGRETS going up. I'm spending tomorrow with my DM and tomorrow night my "Man" and I are spending some time together. I haven't told him that I've been really down but when I said "I need me a dose of Jason and I'll be good to go" He got the message & has given me some "boosts".
 In fact...When I met him last year(11 months ago) I told him about the WLS(even showing the DREADED BEFORE PIX!! OOOOHHHH  LOL) and told him I was 2 months out of Facelift/Breastlift. I THEN said that 2009 I was having a TT. Now.. I am 5' 2", he is 6 ft. I was always ROUND.He has a nice physique and apparently always HAS. i HATED for him to see my stomach. It was stretched out & fat still attached I could get rid of...I HATED IT. Any "personal" moments I was so  worried he'd see/feel my stomachthat I couldn't really enjoy our time together. He'd see some little night "thing" and say lets get that & I'd say "NO I don't have the body for that!!" Well the other night I sent him a pix from my camera phone of me standing at the bathroom mirror in my (just for him) red polked dotted bra & itty biity underwear(1ST PAIR OF THONGS!!!) and after he got it I said that I was still swollen so I'd look better in a few weeks...He said "I don't care.." I asked didn't care I was still swollen... " No.." that sweet great wonderful man said "I thought you were great just the way you were...You didn't have to have surgery to look sexy to me"  I cried (quietly of course!) I think he's a keeper!!!