Well Here Goes.......

Don't think of it as you being selfi****'s your time to shine. As you stated you're always giving a helping hand to other. Hell, now it's time to do something for yourself. All work and no play is no fun. You shouldn't feel guilty for doing something for yourself. You must be a mom because my mom is the same way. She will give her last to others and her children before she will think of herself. Me on the other hand I know that I have a little selfish streak in me. I will do for other but I always put myself first. I dunno maybe I will change once I have a child and will have to put someone else before me.

I so feel your pain on this.  I always say I LIVE with constant guilt.  Should be a better mother, daughter, employee, wife, you get the picture.  I was self pay for my RNY and now paying for a LBL and BL/BA, and definitely have had those thoughts....I also worry because this time I am borrowing and I think what if I lose my job or something like that - I am the breadwinner.  But I tell myself I have to gain back a semi-normal body and if I DID lose my job I would look and feel better during the hunt for a new one...also I will be able to do more with my kids without the hanging belly, exercise more comfortably, etc.

We ARE worth it and good luck to you!