Life after plastics

Post Date: 5/15/09 7:37 am I had no idea how much my life is changing after plastic surgery I had TT and BA would  have no idea  what make a difference people react to  me and how people treat me. I am so surprised to be honest. I did have 650cc inplants and well they to say hello considering I was like a barely B flat cup not boderlining on c/d cup. My clothes just fit better and my silloutte has changed and  my doc told me he said I never thought I would ever get this far and  he said u sure shocked me and said I am extremly proud of you. He told me I am probally exception. I do work out alot and do take pride now in how I look, Situation I see that is happening when i was miss fat I was looked down as stupid or maybe people had disquist look on their face or kids would speak the truth and say u r so fat, I am sure most can identify with this. I know I am not all that and a bag of chips u know far from that nor miss america. I know some has to come from improved self esteem but what I was not ever prepared is how men are looking at me I  mean I was in car lot dropping my car off for repair and well I was nicely dress fitted top size 6 jean flat tummy high heals something  i can do now that I am not so fat LOL Oh man I was stared down and my hubby said look at the men they are sure checking u out I felt like that commercial of that girl who was washing her car n bathing suit  all the guys were just looking at me. I thought ok must be the out fit etc well since I have the twins men just look at me ok twins now ALOT I am almost embaressed and to be honest I am a very very shy person so all this extra attention  is so foreign to me. I mean my hubby is just a horn dog he just loves the twins  and follows me like I am cat in heat., I know I should just enjoy the new me and go with the flow but I never saw my self as being this. especially at 50. I am very shy person and the circle of woman I hang out with me dress modest ultra conservative church group and I know some may think I am  looking  like a hoochie momma but really same clothes but they just fit better. Not like I am showing off my clevage just they poke threw tops.But now it is like I am being shunned so speak not like I can go to new church  etc but I am sure they might be thinking something like wow. My one friend at owrk told me wow u r so skinny I hate u and she was laughing and she said I am gonna get a lap band and I guess now the 137 lbs  is really showing all hard work is paying off but I am not alone I am sure as most everyone that has had plastic surgery looks dramatic  and alot better but some days I do feel ashamed I even let my body go . I never want to be that 295 lbs woman again and yes I worked hard to achieved my looks but to be honest never in my wildest dreams i would even think I could look good at 50. How  does everyone dealing with the new u. I get snide comment well I wish i could afford plastics like I am being selfish but I only paid 7k to get my looks. I mean damn I have not had my thighs done yet but sometimes I feel I am being judged unfairly I feel alot better as far as my pain back and movement but I also was in gym 3 hours a day for months and none of it was taking my belly off. I know people will adjust  in time and so will I but sure is alot to adjust 2 from a girl that is shy. But to get attention from men and the ungoing flirting is overwhelming and to be honest down right scarry as I was the wall flower all my life,I guess i was a late bloomer. Ayone have simualr thoughts? surely I am not alone in this. I will adjust just really werid if u know what I mean, I turn heads AT 50 CERTINALLY DID NOT AT 25 lol Lisa

 Jodi
For me it is not about every good thing my way it is just, My point of this post is  pretty but what I mean by that is nice  thin looking people have more perks and u know it should not be that way I suppose but I swear every pretty  blue eyed blonder hair girl I knew back in  school seem to get the better grades  cheerleader dates with the cutest guys   etc and me being being latin (not really trying to pull the race card  here as we are talking 35 years ago a different world time and place ) I was a very gifted student and very smart and was in what we call H class back then they were the top classes that only 1% of school population attended and rest of school was XYZ Class and man oh man I was with mostly men.  Smart nerds lol  hmmmmmm My fetish (jk)for Nerdy men must come from this LOL I so remember wanting to be in rhe X class kids that were pretty smart but not enought to be in H class and I became the shy little chubby girl blending and I graduated from Hs when I was 15 I skipped many years in school so even tho my life was not typical teenage years I entered college at 15 and here I was chubby and not fitting in I rememeber going home and crying and eating my sorrow away as I feel like a freak of nature being so young and all these older students . So what is werid I kinda feel like a freak of nature again is what I am saying.I know my head is just maturing to the new me and life after plastics I rmemeber showing up in college very young and NO boobs I also was stabbed and raped at 15 and left for dead and felt like a freak of nature and ate my way to 295 to not be pretty and now all of sudden I feel vulrable My fat armor is gone and I am comming out of my cocoon. I am scared and I do feel weak and not strong as 295 woman. I need to build my muscles and so scarry but above all so much healing go on just sometimes overwhelming and werid. is all. That 295 fat girl is gone I hope Does anyone think they fat girl is gone or is still lurking?
Lisa

YAY Lisa!!! You are rockin that new hot bod of yours!!!! 

GOOD FOR YOU!!!

Congrats!

you go Lisa, good for you

Good for you, Lisa, if you got it, flaunt it!!!

I think that is just awesome Lisa!  You have worked so hard to get where you are and you should be proud!  It must feel amazing and weird at the same time turning heads at the age of 50!  

Melissa 

Good for you Lisa, sounds like you really deserve it and should continue to enjoy your new found self!

~Maxine

Good for you!  I am so glad you are feeling better...work it girlfriend!