I'm back and I have confssion to make

I know I have not been here in over year so here is what's going on with me! I'm failure I still have have not lost weigh in fact I gained here is what was is going on in my life right now to make long story short

I did issues with me knee in 10 they thought something was wrong with it I was also starting with depression as well, so I was seeing the psy doc going the pt for my knee that was getting worse all along till I had to see an orthro doc who know me it was not my knee now keep in mind by this time I could hardly walk  I was in pain and working full time and dealing with depression and not being able to workout. all the while I was getting steriod shots for my knee and begin give steriod pill and naperson and pain pill. So I go see chiropractor he tells me stop the pills you don't need them and I can't let you work out till your back is healed. so months later and also dealing with the psy doc who I ended up stop seeing becaue I had to pay the back doc. I manged to get over depression myself, my back got better I started to work out taking things slowly, I have been able to see my sergon either to have my band adj also if you knew my doc you would know why as well. OKay so I'm working out losing weight it's heaind into xmas time, I hurt my back at work filed workmans comp, now I'm out and on light duty for my back told not to work out agin cause of while I pulled in my back okay all healed now. It's into the new year now I'm feeling great starting to work out and don't my back go out again I can't even stand up!!! Get that all fixed and now I'm feeling great time to start working out again yay. Oh and all the while the car that I had I over the course of 2010 was sinking money into it as well like hundreds of dollars into. So my xmas gift was 04 volvo now.


But how ever I'm such failure that I gained weight due to not begin able to eat the meds making me eat ugh. I need to see my suregon I know this now that I have the money and my insurance is strightened out that was another issue bills were coming back to me cause someone messed up billing under workmaks comp when it didn't need to be so it took months to fix that. Now I'm able to start working out I bought zumba for wii and I love  doing that everynight after work how ever I need to stop sleeping in as well. I'm thinikning of looking for another suregon as well. I'm also thinking of going on the SB diet again becasue I love the food that I can have, I STILL have great resturction in my band as well I know  just need to workout and cut carbs down too. I know I missed this sight for support because I was not getting it at work exp for few people now and some new friends I have made from there are supporting me so this is good thing. But I had to share what is going on with me. I need peeps in here to help me stay on track now too with support as well cause even at home I'm not really getting either which I think I need to start opening up about as well because that is one place where I should be gettign support.

Don't call yourself a failure.  You only fail if you stop trying, and it does not sound like you have given up yet. 

I can relate to the chronic pain and ortho issues keeping you from exercise.  I have herniated discs, bursitis and now foot surgery to keep my from the gym.  I miss being pain free, and can't remember the last time that happened.

I can't take naprosyn, or oral steroids for very long.  I have had ulcers, before and after surgery.  Plus, I am bipolar, and the steroids make me manic.  I only take them when I have trouble breathing, because I have to breath.  I have asthma and chronic sinus allergies.

So sorry to hear you have medical insurance issues that prevent you from getting the proper medical care.  That really sucks.  I would be lost without my specialists and psychiatrist.  Of course, I pay my psychiatrist out of pocket, because I have an HMO, and refuse to change docs.  My doc is not in the network.  Oh well. 

Hang in there.  Don't give up.  I swim when I am able to.  It puts no pressure on my joints, and gives me a good workout.  Right now, I can't go to the pool because I have stitches from surgery on my toes.

Hugs,
Trish