*****Tuesday Roll Call*****

Good Morning Pennsylvania,
I can't sleep after a terrible run-in with my Mother Monday evening.  This is a lifetime event for me, and I keep forgetting that she is mentally ill, and not of her right mind.  She gave my sister a mug I had designed for Mom for her birthday with my granddaughter's picture on it, and her nickname on it.  She gave me a T-shirt I bought her when I was at Temple University for grad school that said, "Temply University Mom" on it.  She never wore it and complained it was too big.  When I told her I was hurt by her insensitivity, she made fun of me, and mocked me.  She threatened to disinherit me, something she has threatened since I was a teenager. 

So, instead of going to the Special Olympics Dinner Bingo tonight, where she will be at the same table as I was supposed to be, I will be home, taking care of myself.  I don't feel safe around her.  She has publicly embarassed me in the past with her rude remarks about me, and I am not emotionally strong enough for her abuse these days. 

I intend to get to an AA meeting to protect my almost nine months of sobriety, and to the gym to strengthen my body by swimming, sometime today.  I also must get some tidying done.  Because of the constant pain I have, I have avoided some of my housework responsibilities. 

I hope you all have a good day.

Hugs,
Trish

Hi,

Sorry you are having a hard time.  I went through some difficult times with my dad.  Neither one is alive now and I have made peace with it all. 

Today is haircut day and Open Mic tonight.  Tuesdays and Saturdays are my night outs so to speak.  I am hoping to get a job offer tonight but we shall see.

Hey there - I am proud of you for knowing what you can and can not handle.  good for you.  Sucks that sheis so difficult.  I am betting however, that is makes you a better mom and person - certainly stronger!

I am a little concerned about the day for me.  I laid in bed for over an hour last night, not being able to fall asleep, so NOT my MO.  Then I finally fell asleep about 11:30ish and was wide awak at 5, a full hour before I have to get up.  Not sure what is going on that I struggled last night.  And today is my long day.  Looks like it will be made to feel even longer....oh goodie!  Headed to work soon, then to pick up two young ladies for hebrew school, then home to get MY two young ladies, then to pick up the young man and head to the synagogue.  Teach til 6, take a potty break and start all over again at 6:30 with the older kids.  AND....the added bonus - my rabbi wants to have a meeting with the teachers from 8:30-9.  WOW...so freaking excited!  

Looking forward to getting into my bed tonight already - how is THAT for the start to a BEAUTIFUL SUNNY Tuesday...WHAT?!?!?!  AND....it is Raining?!?!?!  PERFECT!!!!!!  Sigh......on the bright side - the girls aren't killing each other....yet!

I had the same problem last night, figures, the first night in MONTHS Amelia sleeps through the night and I am up all night - UGH!!!

How did your talk with the "oldest kid" go?

It went OK.  He started to get defensive and I put a stop to that immediately and then I think some of what I said sunk in.  I don't always say the right thing - no matter how hard I try - but I think I was on yesterday.  we shall see.  He did mention that he "may have not been handling the stress from work as well as he thought."  REALLY?!?! (I actually said that to him....) :)

Thanks for checking in.  Another in a long line of cycles for my marriage.  (oh - and no worries - the girls starting fighting with each other before Molly had to leave for school...FML)

Trish - so proud of you for doing what's best for you! Hang in there hun.

Today has me at wor****il 4, hoping to run to Wegmans and the liquor store at lunch. After work headed to Mom's to pick up Amelia and home to get some cleaning done for the picnic this weekend!

Have a good day all, I hope the rain passes quickly

Morning Trish.. sorry you had such a rough time with your mom.  But, again, I'll give you kudos for knowing when you need to back off and stay away from the toxins and go for help. 

GET TO YOUR MEETING!!!!!!!!!!!  You know I have the power to kick your ass if you don't!! LOL

Today has me feeling much better rested than I was yesterday.  I am working til about 3:30.  After work, I'll take Siehara to Hebrew School.  While she is there, I need to run over a friend's house to pick up the camera I left at the church where the wedding was on Sunday.   I'm sure I'll be there for a *****atting until it is time to get Siehara from Hebrew School.  

Tonight is Pilates and then home for hopefully another early night in bed. 

I am making cheeseburger pie at some point so we have dinner for a few nights.  That is one of the few things that Siehara does not mind having as leftovers and since payday is Friday, I have to stretch what is in the house til then.  I'm good with the chicken, shrimp, and the cheeseburger pie to get us through for enough meals.   I really need a 2nd income.. sigh....... I'll get through it.  I always do.

Morning everyone - Big hugs to you, Trish - I'm sorry to hear about your situation with your mother - but happy you recognize you can't control or change her, only the things you do for yourself, so go to your meeting and swim - and when things get rough for me I clean. Helps take my mind off things and work out some aggrevation.

I also want to thank EVERYONE on these boards for all of the prayers and well wishes you're sending out to my daughter and her family over Kaity's upcoming surgery - you guys rock!

As for me I'm at work today - my arm is finally starting to feel better so the PT must be working - I don't think the shot did a stinking thing, tho, other than leave me with a nasty bruise on my shoulder. Sadly I woke up AGAIN at 3:00 AM with a major hot flash and laid there for an hour waiting for my body to cool off, then couldn't fall back to sleep, so again I did not get up this morning.

Not much on my agenda for tonight - was busy last night - made a huge batch of spaghetti sauce and that will simmer in the crockpot today - nephew will have the rest of the dinner ready when we get home, then I can head to the grocery store and finish my laundry.

Hope everyone has a great day - stay dry!! Kathy

Good morning PA!

I have about 3 tons of work to tackle today. Think I'll get it all done?

A dentist appt. at lunch, and planning to catch a 6:30 class at the gym. Have to take it a bit on the careful side tonight, because I will be on my feet most of the day tomorrow.

Trish, sounds like a wise move where your mom is concerned. When she lacks judgement, you can exercise it for your own life.

Dear Trish,

Why is it that Mother's feel that they have the right to make us feel like CRAP?? I do not get it!! They are the ones who are supposed to be there for us no matter what!! When my mom was healthier, she would constantly put me down about my weight, how I did things,my clothes, etc.... Now that she is sick and in a nursing home, I don't have to deal with that. Just have to deal with the fact that she has Alzheimer's and Parkinsons. Anyway, I am so sorry that your mom doesn't realize how precious the bond is between mother and daughter! I look at my daughter every morning and I smile and tell her that I love her. She is my miracle!! It is good that you stayed away last night. Sounds like you made the right move!! GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!

Today, is wor****il 3:30 then I may drop by and see Shilpa. I know she is climbing the walls!! 
Things at home kind of suck right now. Stressed to the MAX! Steven and I are biting each others heads off at the littlest things. It must be something in the air!!! I guess this too shall pass....

Have a great day everyone!!
Looking forward to the picnic on Saturday!!!

Beth