scared to go back

Susan, from the few times we've talked I know how strict you are with food and how determined you are day to day. Hearing how you manage to live by incorporating "real" food in your life has made me know that I can work within the new lifestyle that will be reality for me very soon.

Please take support from the friends on this forum and know that you will not fail yourself. We won't let you!

See you tonight, Scot

thanks Scot

Hi Susan,
Yes, I am one of those that said " I'll never go back" haven't gained it all back , but I am afraid that I am heading in that direction !  Today is a new day and I plan on getting "back on track" I have become lax in my tracking my food and exercising. That is why I am back here. I need my butt kicked !  Who is first ? It's not really sugar that gets me it's the carbs, snacking. I'm back to mindless eating , skipping breakfast , and sitting at the computer too much !

I still attend support group meetings ( didn't make it this weekend, we went to Great Adventure) I don't drink .  I just got back from a cruise with my husband and unlike alot of people ( the say on the cruise that people gain from 8 to 10 pounds ! ) I came back a couple of pounds less ! horray !  I yes, I know why, I ate three meals a day , drank plenty of water and walked,,,walked, walked . Now I have to keep up to get moving.

Just wanted to chime in and say Hi...
Sandy

Hi Sandy and welcome back, it is goodthat u realize it before it all comes back. you still have your tool and make it work for u maybe the 5 day pouch will help u DE CARB yoursself.
Good Luck and tomorrow is another day and a new beginning
Susan

Susan,
It's like you are reading my mind. My RA has been so bad that lately the only excercise I have been able to handle is walking and as a result have started to see my weight climb up because I am one of those people that never counts calories. I started doing just that . Tracking my foods and excercise and today is a new day. I am not saying that I won't fall off the wagon occasionally but this fear is healthy fear you know it and I know it! Hang in there. We are here for you.

thnaks Shilpa

Susan, this is truly an important post for all of us. I know that I look to you as a person who has their **** together - you have drawn firm lines about what you will and will not eat, you are active in support, and so very committed!

But...you point out that none of us can say "It will never happen to me" and none of us are immune to bad habits that lie deep inside us, waiting.

I appreciate your honesty and candor.

Lynn

thanks Lynn
 it just lets us know that this is a forever battle
Susan

Hi Susan,

Thanks for the great post on possible relapsing.  I have to confess that I was doing great with my weight loss and even made it under 200 pounds but at 15 months out, I relapsed with my alcohol, and then picked up sugar.  I put back 40 of the 100+ pounds I had lost.  I have been able to maintain that, in spite of my over two year relapse with alcoholism and occasional binges with sugar, and I do still dump.  They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result.

What I have not been doing with consistency is attending support group meetings, or exercising.  I have an out with the exercising due to health issues at this time, but I am back at the gym, trying to swim as much as possible.  I did get to Barix one Saturday, and loved it, and hope to return soon. 

Now that I have been sober for 8 months, I am working more consistently on making health food choices, and not getting into sugar.  I love to bake, but have been making homemade stuff with Splenda Sugar Blend, which has less sugar.  I also have been walking my dog with longer walks than I had been during my relapsing with alcohol. 

I am also terrified of returning to size 28 clothes, and hitting 250.  My highest weight was 320.  I have been around 230 and holding give or take a few for months now. 

I think you are an excellent example of how to work your tool.  You are doing the support groups and staying away from the demons of sugar and alcohol.  I had been in AA and sober for years prior to my surgery, but it just took one night of bingeing to go back to it full force, and wickedly too.

Keep up the good work, and post more about how you are making healthy choices for your tool and your body.

Hugs,

Trish

thanks Trish and Congrats fo being sober 8 months, you can only conentrate on 1 thing at a time, sounds like u r getting it all under control first the alcohol and then the food. keep it up
Susan