Swede's good news, bad news post. LONG

Im not sure where to start,  What a rollercoaster ride its been.  At this point im cautiously opptimistic and scared to death.  Here is a recap of my week.

Saturday.  Woke up feeling sick, Weighed myself and found out that i had lost 25 pounds in 9 days.  I was happy for about 10 minutes until I went to the bathroom and all that came out was blood and clots.  I called the hospital and they said come on in. After two more trips to the bathroom and having the same results I decided that I needed an ambulance.  My wife called her mom and she rushed over to get my kids so they wouldnt see daddy being put in an ambulance. 
Arrived at Magee ER.  They stuck me here and there (btw I could never bat for the other team....did not like it).  They decided to admit me for observation because they didnt know whhy I was bleeding,
Sunday.  A lot of sitting around having my vitals and blood count taken.  I was losing blood...dont know why.
Monday.  To scope or not to scope...that is the question.  My surgeon doesnt want to scope me for fear of injuring my new stomach and other connections.  We will wait and see how the blood numbers look,  Guess what...still dropping.
Tuesday.  Less and less blood in my body....how is this happening?  Wait and see........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday.  Well Mr, Baumgardner, you blood count seems to have leveled off even if they r low...you will be ok and we are going to discharge you.  Um...Ok.  They come in and take out the IV and disconnect the heart monitor,  Jen and the kids are on there way.....but i dont feel good.  I make it to the bathroom and round two begins.  I call the nurse and she calls the dr. and I get readmitted!  I am losing faith and trust in the people who are supposed to be taking care of me.  What would have happened if this happened when i got home?  At this point i am really scared and frustrated.  What the F@#$% is going on?  I called Jen and told her to turn around and take the kids home and why.  She said ok.  About twenty min later she comes in and we just both break down.  She was stronger than i was....God bless her!  Im glad she didnt listen to me.  So, the dr. comes and guess what the plan is????? lets wait and see how your numbers look tomorrow.  Guess what?!?!?!?!? They are still dropping!  Im very weak and tired but they do schedule an endoscope to see what my new pouch looks like. 
Thursday.  Well I was NPO (no food or drink all night) and in the morning they gave me the endoscope.  There was debate about the results.  My dr. doesnt think that the pouch is the culprit, she thinks its my old stomach and that its a staple line bleed.  BTW they cant scope that far down.  They cleared out a little blood from the area.  Guess what we get to do now?  Wait and see how my numbers are.   All night long my levels dropped and they kept me npo. 
Friday.  My dr. wakes me up and says that we are going to scope you again both upper and lower just to rule those areas out.  We are also going to transfuse u with 2 units of blood. I ge the blood.  They take me down for both surgeries, they are going to do them in one sitting.,  I wake up in recovery and im still alive.  Yeah!  When i get back to my room I find that my dad, wife and surgeon are waiting for me.  Here is what my surgeon said.
"the endoscope showed nothing, however, there is a mass in your colon.  They took a biopsy of the mass but we wont know if it is cancer until tuesday or wed of next week.  It is in an area of the colon that produces cancer.  It was difficult to see because of all of the blood surrounding it.  We are going to have you do a colon prep on sunday and do another scope on monday."  She actually said this is good news because now we have found the cause of the bleeding and we can do something about it.  I agree with her about that!  Now I just hope and pray that it isnt cancer. 
Jen has a pretty positive outlook on it and I am trying as well, but it is some scary **** 

I left alot of the ups and downs out of this post but I think you guys get the idea.  It should be a long weekend.  Please send your prayers to me and my family.  I know we will get through this and some day down the road it will be but an unpleasant memory.

BTW thank you all so much for the prayers and well wishes you have already sent my way.  You have no idea how much it helps.

Swede

Hang in the Swede.   Am praying that all is well and that there is no cancer found.  I'm believing that the folks on the board and their prayers are why I got good news from the tests that I had done today.    Be well, rest and get back to your old shining personality in your new, changing body!                                                                  

good luck Swede i hope it all works out for u
Susan

Good to hear from you. You, Jen and the kids have been in our thoughts and prayers. I am glad to hear that your pouch is OK and this isn't related although it's still scary! 

My Mom was diagnosed with rectal cancer 2 1/2 years ago now and is in full remission. I hope that this is just a mass and not cancerous. Please keep us updated and if you need anything we are all here.

Liz

Swede,

I'm so sorry that you're going through this!!!  I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers!!  I'm a true believer---and living proof that it works---in the power of positive prayer!!  (I survived a cerebral aneurysm 15 years ago, with no lasting effects.)  How fortunate that this issue has been found and that you and your docs can begin to take action!!!  You ain't kidding it's some scary **** but you'll get through this, and we'll be by your side the whole time!!!

Keep us posted on what's happening!!!!

Swede, surrounding you and your family with the love and light of God.

Deb

oh Todd, I know you have been going through so much.  Hopefully, they will figure out what this mass is and that it is nothing more than just a mass.  I think of you every day and hope for the best for you. 

Keep thinking positive thoughts and know that there are a lot of people on this board and in your personal life at home who care about you and are keeping you in their prayers.

Wow - some people will do ANYTHING to get attention!   HA HA! 

I am so sorry that you and Jen are going through this right now.  Know that there are so many of us thinking about you and praying for you.  I am very glad that you posted.  I HATE being out of the loop and not knowing stuff! :)  It is good news that they now know where the bleeding is coming from, they can now move forward and get it to stop.  And just think.....you are losing TONS of weight!?!?!  (Trying to find the silver lining my friend!)

Please keep us posted so we may conitnue to send you the well wishes you so deserve!  We all love you and are proud of you!

Swede, when my kids were small, I had a breast cancer scare. Waiting for the results was simply horrible so I can relate in some way to what you are going through this weekend. Thankfully, you are in the right place and the docs were able to locate the source of the bleeding.

Best advice...say your prayers, love your family, and just take it one step at a time. Our brains tend to run way out front of the reality of the present moment and take us down the path of "what if" when there is no need to go there. You're in my prayers, and do keep us all posted as to what is going on.

Swede,

OMG!! I am so sorry for all of this. I can only imagine what you are going through. We are here to support you! It is good that we have this board to talk about the ups and downs of our journey. I will pray for you that you are ok and the results come back clear! It is totally expected and understandable that you are scared. I went through a cancer scare myself before my surgery. Luckily, mine turned out fine as I am sure yours will!

Take care,

Beth