Humbled...two years since my last posting.

I cannot believe it has been two years since I last utilized OH.  I had my surgery in January 2008 and by May I was thinking "I had this...".  I stopped going to support groups, I stopped using my resources (such as OH) and I just worked and went about my daily life....my way.  Here I am, two years later....and I need these tools more than ever!  I have begun to adapt...almost too well, to certain foods and food amounts.  I am reverting back to "old habits" of eating to feel better and not to be well.  I see the pre-WLS Carrie coming and I am feaking out!!  I actually began eating so much and so frequently again that I had to have my b/f pad lock the pantry and fridge.  Ugghh, hated to do it but I needed (and still need) the help.  I have not really gained but a few pounds, but that alone has me worried. I CANNOT go back to where I was three years ago.  So last week I decieded to revert back to the tools I was given...and what a help it has been.  I have utilized the nutrition tracker almost daily.  Though I am still struggling with my food and emtions on a daily basis, what a blessing to see in both numeric and pie chart form what I put into my body without realizing it.   I am beginning to do a little more, little by slow...I am looking at other posts and pics and once again realizing where I came from and how I need to work on keeping the weight off.  I am praying more and more and have a loving b/f and family to support me...but only OH folks truly understand.  I hope to learn more about myself and be a better, more consistent support to others along my re-newed journey.  God bless!

Hi Carrie - Welcome back. Remember we are always here no matter what you need. It sounds like you are doing a great job of geting yourself back on track. Remember your tool is still there you just need to work it!

Good luck and welcome back

Liz

Welcome back, Carrie!!!  

Carrie,

     There is a support group at Barix this Saturday from 11 to 1:30.  It would be great if you could attend.  Congratulations on admitting that you need the support/love of the great folks here on this board.  I am 13 months out from surgery at Barix and know that I could not have done as well this past year if it wasn't for the new friends that I have made here.  Welcome back.  Hope to continue seeing you on the boards.  Take care.

Donna

Hi Carrie,
I had my surgery 2 years ago as well mine was 1/29/08. I also had surgery done by Dr. Pupkova. I don't seem to recall names and you do not have an avatar but I am glad you posted here. Since last december I have been gaining and losing the same 15lbs over and over again and YES it is easy to revert back to the old ways of eating. You are doing the right thing by coming here AND you are not alone. The first important step is that you realized what you were doing wrong and the second step is logging all the foods that you put in your mouth. Sounds like you are on your way to successing again. Don't beat yourself up but be very afraid of going back to the old ways. That FEAR is a good thing! Post here often and you will do great. Remember small steps and somebody said it here the best this journey is a sprint not a marathon.

Carrie,

WELCOME back!  We are right here.  There are a few of us struggling.  I recently had a regain of 15-20 pounds...talk about a reality check.  I've done a lot of work thus far (the trainer stat post is about that), and it's freaking hard.  BUUUT, it sounds like you have a good game plan.

Fear....it becomes empowering instead of paralyzing.  It's my new catch phrase.  But you have to bust through the paralyzing to get to the empowering, and it sounds like you are definately getting there!

GREAT job thus far!

 Great Comment from Pam.  I am at the beginning of my journey and i hope to keep ur experience in mind.  If we cannot learn through others generally we simply fail on our own.  

Awww thanks

Hi Carrie,
I am a Barix Baby, who also lives in Bristol...though my profile says otherwise.  I would love to get together with you for coffee, or a walk along the river...I am down there at least twice a day with my dog.  I have been floundering for a couple of years now...though I am four years out from surgery.  Long story...not as important as the decision to get back on track and monitor my food and exercise. 

Feel free to PM me for my phone number.  I don't live far from Mill St.  

Hugs,
Trish

welcome back. Just like anyone recovering from any kind of Big life change, we need momentum and support,. what worked for you one year wont at two. This is a process unfortunately I have not seen an end in sight. But is a good thing. When I am working with my clients who are post op, I use humor when we talk about the struggles.  I say to them, my surgery was a rebirth, I am almost 4 years out. To me that means I AM FOUR YEARS OLD lol what do you expect from a 4 year old??? We are learning. Jason is just lucky I am not drawing on the walls with crayons....cut yourself some slack and use your tool, After all you are only a toddler.