Summery Sunday Roll Call
Good Morning PA,
Saturday really was a struggle for me. I have a lot of recovery issues I am trying to work through, and my sponsor is unavailable due to having her only phone shut off. I tried during the week to call other women in the program, and only got voicemails and since those calls were earlier in the week, I had hoped I would hear back from someone, but nobody has called me back. Why bother giving me a phone number to call for support if you are not going to return calls?
My sister invited me to go with her to Mom's next weekend and I had to tell her that I can't go there. Wilkes Barre, where Mom lives, is a huge trigger for me. When I was a teenager, my parents got rid of me, sending me away to stay near there for a summer and never contacted me. Then, in high school, I would hang out with my boyfriend who lived there and drink and do drugs. Then, there is Mom, the biggest trigger of all. I can't deal with all those triggers right now, especially so soon after Gettysburg.
Sorry to be such a lump, but that is how my weekend has progressed so far.
Sunday has me attempting to get to church, and see some friends. I also must make a meeting, and connect with sober people again. I have done three days in a row of meetings.
Oh, the best part is, Sunday is my grandson, Lincoln's first birthday. I must call and see if Colleen would Skype with me so I can wish him a Happy Birthday. I will see them in Minnesota in two weeks, but I miss my grandchildren terribly.
Be safe and have a great day.
Trish
Saturday really was a struggle for me. I have a lot of recovery issues I am trying to work through, and my sponsor is unavailable due to having her only phone shut off. I tried during the week to call other women in the program, and only got voicemails and since those calls were earlier in the week, I had hoped I would hear back from someone, but nobody has called me back. Why bother giving me a phone number to call for support if you are not going to return calls?
My sister invited me to go with her to Mom's next weekend and I had to tell her that I can't go there. Wilkes Barre, where Mom lives, is a huge trigger for me. When I was a teenager, my parents got rid of me, sending me away to stay near there for a summer and never contacted me. Then, in high school, I would hang out with my boyfriend who lived there and drink and do drugs. Then, there is Mom, the biggest trigger of all. I can't deal with all those triggers right now, especially so soon after Gettysburg.
Sorry to be such a lump, but that is how my weekend has progressed so far.
Sunday has me attempting to get to church, and see some friends. I also must make a meeting, and connect with sober people again. I have done three days in a row of meetings.
Oh, the best part is, Sunday is my grandson, Lincoln's first birthday. I must call and see if Colleen would Skype with me so I can wish him a Happy Birthday. I will see them in Minnesota in two weeks, but I miss my grandchildren terribly.
Be safe and have a great day.
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Trish,
I'm sorry to hear about the support/contact issues. I'm floored that considering phone calls were made in the BEGINNING of the week you have not heard back. You are doing a VERY good thing by NOT going to Wilkes Barre. Smart smart move!!
Today - so up in the air right now, I'm probably not even on airline radar. It's 2:30 and I'm wide freaking awake much to Brian's dismay. Apparantly I'm keeping myself on a night schedule tonight.
Was hoping to go to the 8:15 spin class - it depends on how long this second wind lasts. Knowing my luck I'll crash around 6 or 7. But whenever...I'm gonna go with it. I have not been sleeping well, either during the day or at night so I've come to the determination that when I'm tired, I will sleep.
Work tonight which is supposed to be a "princess shift" at the heart from 1900-2300. A few times when I've been slated for that I've been extended (by my own agreeing to stay) so we'll see if that happens. Considering I'm up so late tonight and most likely sleeping most of the day today...I very well may offer to stay tomorrow especially if needed.
Wow....told you I have no idea what I'm doing!
~P
I'm sorry to hear about the support/contact issues. I'm floored that considering phone calls were made in the BEGINNING of the week you have not heard back. You are doing a VERY good thing by NOT going to Wilkes Barre. Smart smart move!!
Today - so up in the air right now, I'm probably not even on airline radar. It's 2:30 and I'm wide freaking awake much to Brian's dismay. Apparantly I'm keeping myself on a night schedule tonight.
Was hoping to go to the 8:15 spin class - it depends on how long this second wind lasts. Knowing my luck I'll crash around 6 or 7. But whenever...I'm gonna go with it. I have not been sleeping well, either during the day or at night so I've come to the determination that when I'm tired, I will sleep.
Work tonight which is supposed to be a "princess shift" at the heart from 1900-2300. A few times when I've been slated for that I've been extended (by my own agreeing to stay) so we'll see if that happens. Considering I'm up so late tonight and most likely sleeping most of the day today...I very well may offer to stay tomorrow especially if needed.
Wow....told you I have no idea what I'm doing!
~P
Instead of complaining that the rosebush has thorns, be happy that the thorn bush has roses. 
Hi Trish - you are so NOT a lump! You are a human being who needs to work through things like the rest of us - I am just happy that you have a place to vent. Larry set off a trigger for me yesterday. With my surgery tomorrow - he is understandably freaking out - and the only way he knows how to deal with me is to watch everything I put in my mouth. So - seeing as I don't eat sugar anymore - and he can't push those buttons - he is now on a salt kick. I realized yesterday that he gave me the "Should you REALLY be eating that" look? And although, I probably would have been fine NOT eating a small handful of peanut butter pretzel bites, I ate them just to spite him. HUGE trigger for me. I know he is worried - and I know that eating to spite someone else is just stupid, I was just annoyed. Amazing how we all have our triggers.
Anyway - It is 4:30 AM - and I must be on Pam's night schedule - because I can't seem to sleep anymore either. Hopefully some anesthesia will help! OY! Leaving about 8:30ish to head back to camp for a prespective family event for families from my synagogue and Larry and I were invited to come "spread the joy" so to speak! There are going to be about 10 families coming to check out camp and use the facilities. I was actually given HUGE kudos from one of the directors for my involvement of getting kids from my synagogue to try out camp. We had the largest contingent in camp this summer - THEY seem to think I had something to do with it - I think it is just a coincidence. Either way - my ultimate goal is for the kids to enjoy what camp has to offer and give back what my parents so lovingly gave to me!
After camp - The Minnich's very thoughtfully have offered to cook some meals for my family while I am recuperating and we are meeting up to "exchange the goods" this afternoon. ( I am beginning to think they are more worried about Larry than they are of me....hmmmm...) Tonight will be just Larry and I as Josh is still at camp, Molly is down the shore with the in-laws for atleast a week and Emily will be with my step-dad until at least Wednesday.
I hope your Sunday is peaceful everyone!
Anyway - It is 4:30 AM - and I must be on Pam's night schedule - because I can't seem to sleep anymore either. Hopefully some anesthesia will help! OY! Leaving about 8:30ish to head back to camp for a prespective family event for families from my synagogue and Larry and I were invited to come "spread the joy" so to speak! There are going to be about 10 families coming to check out camp and use the facilities. I was actually given HUGE kudos from one of the directors for my involvement of getting kids from my synagogue to try out camp. We had the largest contingent in camp this summer - THEY seem to think I had something to do with it - I think it is just a coincidence. Either way - my ultimate goal is for the kids to enjoy what camp has to offer and give back what my parents so lovingly gave to me!
After camp - The Minnich's very thoughtfully have offered to cook some meals for my family while I am recuperating and we are meeting up to "exchange the goods" this afternoon. ( I am beginning to think they are more worried about Larry than they are of me....hmmmm...) Tonight will be just Larry and I as Josh is still at camp, Molly is down the shore with the in-laws for atleast a week and Emily will be with my step-dad until at least Wednesday.
I hope your Sunday is peaceful everyone!
Morning everyone...
I've tried multiple times to get on here tonight without much luck. Working 1am till 7am this morning. It's going on 5 and I'm just eating now... it's been that kind of night. I am seriously regretting my scheduling for the weekend right now. I only got about 2.5 hours of sleep this morning after my 16 hours of work, drove a little 2 hours to a family picnic, had a good time there, drove home another 2 hours home and snuck in a 1.5 hour nap before coming here. I'm hitting my brick wall hard right now. Once I get out of here, I'm stopping at the store to get stuff for Erin to prepare food for Steffi and clan during her recovery time. After that, home to bed.
Going out again... I'll try to get back on later. Have a great one everyone...
Thanks Pam. I'm feeling a little better, got a bit of a second wind. So yeah, stopping at the store and then home to crash. Not much planned today, except meeting up with Steffi to deliver the goods. Back to regular work tomorrow, normal hours and a normal routine. Weekends off and medic shifts mess up my routine way too much.
Have a great Sunday everyone!
Have a great Sunday everyone!
Hi all!!!
Trish: Good for you for avoiding Wilkes-Barre!!!
I just woke up a few minutes ago after sleeping at least 6 hours. That's pretty exciting because I haven't been sleeping well for about a week. We walked around the block last night, and I had trouble with my pace. Out of habit I wanted to walk fast, so Paul kept me in check. (He's been so sweet and wonderful this week!!! I'd be lost without him!!!) It's hard for me to not exercise after making it such a big part of my life! I know I'll be back to it in time though.
OK, it's time to try to unfold myself from this sofa and do the co-op section walk to the bathroom!!!
Have a wonderful day, OH!!!
Trish: Good for you for avoiding Wilkes-Barre!!!
I just woke up a few minutes ago after sleeping at least 6 hours. That's pretty exciting because I haven't been sleeping well for about a week. We walked around the block last night, and I had trouble with my pace. Out of habit I wanted to walk fast, so Paul kept me in check. (He's been so sweet and wonderful this week!!! I'd be lost without him!!!) It's hard for me to not exercise after making it such a big part of my life! I know I'll be back to it in time though.
OK, it's time to try to unfold myself from this sofa and do the co-op section walk to the bathroom!!!
Have a wonderful day, OH!!!
I'm sorry you are having so many issues. You are not alone. This board is basically for those will issues whi*****ludes, I think, everyone. I hope things improve for you soon huuugzzz.
Yesterday we spent the whole day mowing our huge lawn. I am thankful for it. Having lived in San Francisco with a patch of grass in the front that was very tiny. I appreciate the wilderness of our small town.
Today is church and chilling. I am tired.
Went on my job interview Friday. It's for an overnight shift which is fine. I have done several in my life time. If I don't get it, I am going to try to get into the CNA program at the hospital.
Have a great day all!
Yesterday we spent the whole day mowing our huge lawn. I am thankful for it. Having lived in San Francisco with a patch of grass in the front that was very tiny. I appreciate the wilderness of our small town.
Today is church and chilling. I am tired.
Went on my job interview Friday. It's for an overnight shift which is fine. I have done several in my life time. If I don't get it, I am going to try to get into the CNA program at the hospital.
Have a great day all!
Clueless about weight loss and weight loss surgery of any kind.
Good Morning Trish & PA:
Trish, I'm so sorry to hear you are having such trouble getting in touch with your AA contacts, hang in there! Deciding to stay away from mom - good for you!!!!!
Like you I have to make a very conscious decision to stay away from my dad and my brother (my only sibling). They are tooo toxic for me, I choose to live a content stress free life not falling into their craziness.
I am getting ready for church. Gene has been up since 3am working on his sermon for this mornings worship service.
Yesterday the electric company came out we were not getting power from the meter to the ho****er heater. The guy did something in the meter - I had a hot shower yesterday - now this morning no electric going to the water heater again. Sooooo I'm hoping there is enough ho****er for showers this morning.
After church we have to come home call the electric company again. Figure out if we're going to be able to go see Gene's mom in rehab. Depends on the electric company I suppose. Dinner tonight will be leftovers and the chocolate chip cookies I baked yesterday.
It amazes me, I have to put the cookies out of sight or Gene will keep eating them till they are gone. I cannot wrap my mind around the fact that in his family of origin when something was baked or cooked it was eaten as soon as it came out of the oven until it was gone that same day. In my family of origin we ate my mom's baked goods for dessert after dinner and she only cooked enough food for that meal, never had anything leftover except for spaghetti which we had maybe twice a year. As much and hard as I try to wrap my mind around the family rule Gene grew up with that as soon as it was cooked it had to be eaten I just cannot.
Once I get home from church will be answering everyone that has answered my medic alert post.
Hope everyone has a great day.....
Ida
Trish, I'm so sorry to hear you are having such trouble getting in touch with your AA contacts, hang in there! Deciding to stay away from mom - good for you!!!!!
Like you I have to make a very conscious decision to stay away from my dad and my brother (my only sibling). They are tooo toxic for me, I choose to live a content stress free life not falling into their craziness.
I am getting ready for church. Gene has been up since 3am working on his sermon for this mornings worship service.
Yesterday the electric company came out we were not getting power from the meter to the ho****er heater. The guy did something in the meter - I had a hot shower yesterday - now this morning no electric going to the water heater again. Sooooo I'm hoping there is enough ho****er for showers this morning.
After church we have to come home call the electric company again. Figure out if we're going to be able to go see Gene's mom in rehab. Depends on the electric company I suppose. Dinner tonight will be leftovers and the chocolate chip cookies I baked yesterday.
It amazes me, I have to put the cookies out of sight or Gene will keep eating them till they are gone. I cannot wrap my mind around the fact that in his family of origin when something was baked or cooked it was eaten as soon as it came out of the oven until it was gone that same day. In my family of origin we ate my mom's baked goods for dessert after dinner and she only cooked enough food for that meal, never had anything leftover except for spaghetti which we had maybe twice a year. As much and hard as I try to wrap my mind around the family rule Gene grew up with that as soon as it was cooked it had to be eaten I just cannot.
Once I get home from church will be answering everyone that has answered my medic alert post.
Hope everyone has a great day.....
Ida
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