Margo M.’s Posts
eight years ago was my wls...............today was my 4th of 4 chemo treatments............
was feeling good about the lifechanging/saving events til the oncologist said that he wants me to have more chemo after my surgery before my radiation.................
now; i'm not a real deep thinker-not really sure how i am feeling tonite.........................
i can say that most days i am still happy that i had my wls even tho there truly are some foods that i miss...and i can truly say that when i was initially diagnosed with my cancer my thoughts went to "great...i had wls to live! what a waste that was"--i don't feel that way today, tho...... i know that this cancer would be worse if i was still morbidly obese.......
eight years ago i weighed in at 233# the day of surgery....today, after all of the stresses of michael's illnesses, jobs, moving, umpteen times, my cancer, etc etc i weighed 168.1 # ---that means that i have retained a loss of 64.9 # or that i have maintained a loss of 64.9% of my desired weight toward goal. i have to think that i am still successful;i have no one to blame but myself for never reaching goal......
happy surgiversary to me!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
today i have my last chemo!!!!!!!!!!
life is good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
came home and had quick lunch then took him to the cancer center for a support group mtg for caregivers- he was the only in attendance . his anxiety is killing me; not to mention what it is doing to him!
came home at 4 and napped- too warm in the bedroom and no cieling fan- refuse to turn AC on in march!!! will drag out the box fans!
today is the last day of steroids til next round of chemo and i am not looking fwd to the next few days- they are not fun coming off these things!
i applied for forebearance on my student loans and was denied- will appeal--or call--they only gave a spot for disabled -not cancer-i hate to use the cancer card but i may have to...with being unemployed and recieving less than $200 a month in pension and having cancer there should be deferment- i think that is the problem i think this was not deferment?-anyhow- should be something for me-otherwise i start paying in june- i doubt i'll get back to school before fall--need to get working again first!!!! so that didn't sit well with me!
bought our corned beef today-yummo!!!!!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
maybe your mind knows what you are about to do to your body--many of us went thru periods of "last meal" syndrome for lack of a better term..... and usually those last meals were not such good choices.
part of the exercise of the food diary is to show you where you need to watch and to get you thinking-as you did-what are your triggers etc...
so you are doing well-really!
do you drink water ? that helps to make you realize maybe you're not hungry! also you need protein-now as well as after wls--your choices were not filling in that respect-but setting off triggers for MORE! doe sthat make sense?
maybe some chunks or a strip of cheese with that apple..or some jerky.....
linda- even the best of us have weak days- and yesterday was one for you- but you realize that it was not what you consider a "good eating " day and you can move forward.
maybe someone else has light to shed on this for you!
pat yourself off and look to tomorrow! when is your surgery or are you not that far????
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
my treatment went well yesterday and today was my shot- so i did some errands while i was out- had to drive to find a Michaels- and was very surprised at how th area has grown but it's been 10 yrs since i have been near there! anyhow- was on a fact finding type mission- will go back next weekend when i can use my 40% cpn.
tonite is the feel good look better program from 5-8 pm--they share makeup and skin care tips as well as other things relating to cancer patinets..have no idea how many will be there but am anxious to go..
i'm on steroids right now for 3 days and most ppl get tremendous bursts of energy-not me!
i did lose another pound!!!whooooooooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooooooo! i'll take it! but he wants to test my b12-says that chemo can hinder whatever absorption i have with my sublingual and that i may need to do shots--no fun but i'll do it cuz i know the bad things that can happen....
vickie-excited for you to have hubby coming home!
trish-great news to be released!
connie-wtf???? be careful!!!!!!!!
i'm gonna try to nap a bit before i leave for tonite's program...
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
i can't remember the last time that i started this thread!!!!
it is beautiful out this morning! we're sposed to get rain later...
my younger son is ocming to take me to my treatment-he wants to be involved so-----i guess it's cool but it means that i have to show him where stuff is etc and i am used to the normal routine...
roxie is sticking to me more solidly than ever; she has always been my velcro dog but this is getting ridiculous!
anyhow- i need more coffee so post away!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
ok now i have to something to b*&%V about!!!! i just took the dog out- when i go out i have been wrapping my winter scarf around my wig cap cuz it really looks nasty in "public" and i put my winter coat on--( oh and i'm in my jammies!) nobody told me it is freaking gorgeous out so there i am dressed like nanuck of the north!
now-here's my b*&%V--i want a porch or a deck so i can sit and enjoy!!!!!! read !!! coffee!!!!! nap !!!! whatever...we have a sliding door that has some patio bricks outside and a teensy privacy rail but we are right on the parking lot so no privacy at all............and when the neighbor dogs run wild (which they are NOT sposed to do) they run between the privacy rail and our door!!!!
ok- resume what you were doing..................
tomorrow is chemo #3 and tomorrow nite is support group. then tues i have my Neulasta shot (for white blood cells) and tues nite is the look good feel better program put on by american cancer society....i have been told that chemo #3 kicks butt worse than the previous so i sure hope that i feel ok for these nite time things! i'm really looking fwd to them....
no motivation and i have some important things to do so i'm going to go .....
oh-judy-remember to smile big when you fire his butt!!!!!!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
happy birthday marti!!!
i am sposed to go thrift store shopping with my "daughter" (my eldest grands' mom) and have a bunch of stupid errands to run..have been looking fwd to it all week but now i am crashing-have been up for about two hours and feel good but suddenly i hear my bed calling...i think it's the rain!
my food issues are due to my chemo-yea that's a good excuse! --i am craving a lot of diff foods and most are carb laden...and i am finding that NOTHING(none of the tried and true tricks we are taugh****er/protein/exercise etc ) will stave off the craving until i give in-- it doesn't help that i get steroids in my chemo drips as well as 3 days worth after each treatment.... so i am plugging along and TRYING to behave!
had a good thing happen yesterday-if i wrote about this already i apologize for repeating and will come back and delete-
i applied for a job where my daughter works-a financial planning place- and they called yesterday to check on my availability-the gal who interviewed me by phone a few weeks' ago knows about the cancer but yesterday's gal doesn't-(just something medical) anyhow i had to report that i am still not available mon and tues every other week so she encouraged-rather stressed- that when my schedule changes to get back to them ASAP cuz they really want to get me onboard..that made me feel good -viable!!!! they want me due to work experience and credentials- not necuz of my daughter whom they all love! that makes me feel even better! am hoping i can get in and get trained on a job before i start radiation cuz i hear rads really wipe you out-i can have my rads after work each evening(will be 6-8 weeks 5 days a week) . we'll see how this all works but i really need to get a paycheck coming again and feel useful! and a reason to leave the house...i love being at home but am going nuts in this dinky apt!!!!! no yard to putter ,no porch to sit on, no place to craft, no money...no alone time....(ouch! somebody just smacked me!!!)
ok-done whining!
i'm on allergy pills due to my neulasta shot so i haven't really had any issues with the seasonal stuff-YET! but i feel for ya laureen!!!!
well- i had better kick self in gear and do something about getting out the door!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
suggestion pre-op--take pictures (yea-we all hate them!) and take measurements with a tape measure..... someday you will be glad that you did--when you start losing you may hit plateaus -they are normal-and the best way to know that you are losing even if the scale stops is to have measurements to fall back on!
in a few weeks; i am 8 years out from my surgery...
ask questions...be informed! be good to you!!!!
for the hospital- a robe and slippers and chapstick.....
if you are going to try protein to supplement i suggest buying samples from some of the reputable companies- not a whole huge tub of stuff....your tatse buds may change drastically after surgery--and if you are addicted to caffeine as i was/am-try to wean off before surgery-at least for awhile cuz caffeine dehydrates so you have to work harder to get your water in....
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
where is everyone?
today i have a lunch date with my son! it will be great to have some time with him alone..he has the most wonderful kids but when we are together we don't get "good" time cuz of the kids' distractions..ifyaknowwhatimean!
then i am off to do some grocery shopping and get the money order for the rent etc...
had a wonderful visit with my granddaughter last nite..tho it tired me out.
really wish that i would get a burst of energy somewhere- i have so much that i still want to do to try to make this horrid apt feel like home--i look around and see what i want to do but just cannot get the motivation to take up hammer and nails or whatever! and, deep inside, i think that i am putting it off cuz A) i will only have to take it down again when we move again and B) it makes it feel permanent.....and i really don't want to be here by fall... we are geographically quite close to where i get my treatments and i will be in radiation til at least end of july so i want to stay here (if i must) til then since rads are a daily drive...so my goal is to move august/september....and that includes breaking the lease which could or could not be a problem- i have read the lease and know what it says however there are many cir****tances here(neighbors/dogs barking 4-5 hours at a time, conditions of the bldg) that could help me to break it!
well- off to get dressed, don the wig and some makeup and big earrings!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
my schedule has been wonky since i started chemo and my sleep keeps getting interrupted by my roxie girl..at 1:30 this morning we were outside walking- i was NOT a happy camper about this. but she is getting older..and i am thinking that i really need to be picking up her bowls at nite- michael had taken her out at about 10:30 so i don't know what is up.
what hair i have left on top of my head is hanging on for dear life! i need to get practicing with scarves- i do have a wig taht i got from a wonderful non profit - and it looks ok i guess but cumbersome for everyday around the house.
i have a carepages that i need to update--
i am finding that i just have no get up and go-even with the steroids that i get for 3 days following each treatment!
today, my eldest granddaughter is coming over after school for a bit so i need to hit the shower- and tomorrow i have a lunch date with my son during his work lunch hour...
i need to check with vitalady about vitD...the oncologist did run blood work on me - not a full set like we are sposed to have but better than nothing- my sodium and porassium were actually high and my iron was good! he was so sure that it would be down...but i don't see any evidence of testing for vitD....
being the beginning of the month it's time to pay rent etc..my landlady does not accept checks so i have to run to the bank-nuisance! and i hate this apt....i want to hang pictures but i am hesitant to make it "permanent"...ah well....
ok- done whining....
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
my home computer is trying to die so u have spent time on it tonite moving my documents and pictures to a flash drive...but i don't know how to move things from my"favorites" and "bookmarks".
tomorrow morning, i have my second chemo treatment so i won't be worth a lot for a few days..slugsville here! between the bed and recliner!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
when i had to drink the "stuff" before my CT scans the gal thought i was worried about calories when i asked her about sugars in the "stuff"--heck no! i DO still dump on more than 5 grams...if it were not for that i probly would have regained everything that i lost!!!!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
hugs gf
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
the nurse agreed that the pain meant that the shot was working to make my white blood cells strong enuff....and today i kindof feel like my lump is starting to shrink.....
i'm fighting like a girl believe me!!!!!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
i have spent as much time as i possibly can in my jammies..and gravitate between the recliner and the bed....i feel like a slug!
yesterday; had to dress and drive to cancer ctr for a PICC line flush-10 minute drive- OMG-my lower back was in more pain than i can ever remember which, i think, tells me that my Neulasta shot is working to keep my white blood cells up....i have a call in to doc about pain meds and have yet to hear anything..discouraging but today i feel better...somewhat.
toady, at 12:30, i have a phone interview with someone from the company where my daughter works-they have a part time opening in account maintenace that i am perfectly suited for if my body will allow it and if the dept can work around my treatments...much as i need the money there are some days i truly do not feel like moving off the chair but....
so i could use swinging chickens and prayers --if it is meant to be....
i got an email last nite from a cancer website who is giving me a wig! it should arrive within 7-10 days and will be great for church/work etc...it's a Gobor-hope the color will be ok....not returnable! so grateful! i need to practice scarf tying cuz anytime now the hair could start to leave! jeannie i think of yo--i do not think i can do the whole bald look- i don't have a nice shape to my head!
bunches of stupid errands to run-try to do them all when out so as to conserve gaoline....
snowing here...bah humbug!
does jean b ever come on here???????
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
