Recent Posts
Hi Eileen and my sistas,
Well, I am here, at least in body. The rest of me might be ready to go to the funny farm.
The boys did spend the night and in fact, they are still here. We don't know what to think about Christie. We kept the boys last night so she could have some time to herself and get some sleep. Finally heard from her about noon today, and she said she just woke up. She wanted to have her coffee and then come get the boys. It's 2 o'clock now and we haven't heard from her again.
Personally, I am feeling very torn between worry for my child and aggravation at my child. I know she is hurting. I know she has bipolar disorder and there are times when it gets ahold of her. But I honestly think quite a bit of this current "crisis" comes from her being upset that I am giving more time to Carrie and Caralee right now than I am to her and the boys. Which is RIDICULOUS.
I will let y'all know as things develop. There's no use in trying to "talk sense" to Christie. She is mentally and emotionally unable to hear any of us when she is like this. But I cannot keep all three babies at once by myself. It's just more than I can handle. I'm sorry for it. I know she needs help. But I have a bigger commitment to Carrie and her baby right now.
And frankly, what I really want is for all of them to go away and leave me alone! I want to have a whole week to be in my own house, sleep in my own bed, and do whatever I want to do when I want to do it.
Okay, enough of that. I got a real "whammy" in the mail yesterday! I got my bill for my bloodwork back in March (when I went for my annual WLS checkup). Holy Crap! It was $2000!!! I'll have to call and see first of all if there is a cash discount. Secondly, I need to call that Christian Healthcare Ministries and find out about how I submit that claim and hopefully get reimbursed for some of it!
I also got a bill from my lawyer. He's charging me $1000 for putting Butch's will through probate!
I feel like my bank account is hemorrhaging.
Well, I am a gal who is full of woes today, aren't I? Between money problems and children problems, I would very much like to just run away. Anyone want to join me? 
I still haven't had a chance to get out in the garage and dig for the box with all my software, but I hope I can do that before Carrie leaves in the morning. I would really like to have my new computer all set up and functioning this evening.
Oh, Christie just got here. Talk more later.
Vickie
So not much is going on here. I'm jus****ching the White Sox game and washing my sheets. I slept late today, til 10 a.m., which for me lately is late. I heard Gary up early (he's an early riser) but went back to sleep.
Vickie, I read your posts from yesterday about Christie. I hope she gets through that. I can't imagine what that is like, the ups and downs, and what it does to you and to her kids, too. Don't know if I ever told you this, but I had a long lost cousin, Christine, whose mother was bipolar. After my Uncle John died by drowning (I was very young when this happened), her mother pulled her away from her father's family (Uncle John was my mom's brother). Eventually, Christine's mom was institutionalized several times, because that's what they did back then. She was raised by her grandmother. My mom's mom tried to reach her, but was rebuffed. Christine didn't really have a very good childhood. It's good you're there for those boys because you are a stabilizing influence in their life when their mom can't be. I hope you can remind Christie to stay on her meds, too. I know you do, you're a good mom.
Gary is making dinner tonight, something called cheesy chicken and rice. He's throwing it together from what we have in the house.
Other than that, not much else. I spent part of last night catching up on some Sunday shows: "Once Upon A Time" and "The Family". Still far behind on so many other shows. I gave up on so many of them long ago.
Well, what's going on with all of you?
Hello, where is everyone? It's nearly 2 p.m. CDT and no one has posted.
BRB
Vickie.. So sorry about Christie. I don't have any experience with bi-polar so I can't give you any advice. It has to be hard. Praying for you both. Glad you got out in your garden. It seems to be a place of sanctuary for you. Don't stress over the cookies. That is undoable. Just go forward.
Tell me again what you are doing to drop the weight. It seems to be working. Just hang in there and know that you have friends here.
Eileen
My cruise was wonderful. I am having trouble adjusting to being home. I now have to have my brain engaged. On a cruise there is no pressure of any kind. Do a lot do nothing, eat don't eat, take a class or not, no cell phone, internet, or technology of any kind unless you want it and are willing to pay for it. now that I am home the ringing phone is jarring. oh well. You are right that I used to not fly. I still have edema problems when I fly but there is no longer a danger of my throwing my blood clot. My doctor says it has been there so long that it is firmly embedded and the thinners allow the blood to flow over it. I just have to take a day to rid myself of the edema once I get where I am going.
Glad you had a good trip. I agree a movie doesn't have to be Oscar worthy to be entertaining and sometimes that is all you want. Movies can teach lessons that need to be learned and that is good but sometimes you just need an escape.
Trish isn't it grea****ching the grands play ball. I don't get to watch mine as much as I would like but when I do I hoot and holler with everyone else.
Ynonne...Doesn't it feel great to not be able to get into our clothes because they are too big. As the pounds drop and the clothing size with it you will be so excited. Sometimes it happens so fast that clothes you buy can only be worn for a few weeks. That's why I shopped resale shops and Walmart until I stabilized. Congratulations on the loss.
Connie so sorry you didn't sleep. That's awful. I'm always cranky after a night of no sleep. Its the worst. Glad you got out for your walk. I enjoy walking when the weather is nice but "nice" for me is a small window. At 75 degrees I can't walk far. I get overheated so easy then dizziness follows. I always take water even for a short walk but the heat takes its toll on me. I know 75 is not hot and is quite pleasant if I am not walking or hiking. 40 t0 65 with a sunny sky and a light breeze is optimum for me. Summer is Houston has me being held captive by the AC. That's why I go to Wyoming in the summer. We hike in the Big Horn mountains where it is usually cool.
Hope you sleep tonight and without bad dreams. I don't know much about dream analysis don't know if I even believe it but I do think stress and anxiety can contribute to poor sleep and possibly awful dreams. Maybe someone else has some insight.
Hope it gets better.
Oh Vickie,
My heart aches for you and Christie right now. I have been on several ends of the bipolar crises. My own, and my Mom's. It's so scary and I am just so grateful that both Mom and I are on meds.
I hope she sees the need for help now. I'm praying.
Hugs
Albert Schweitzer
I didn't realize that she was our age...so young. I think you have had quite enough loss in your life. It can stop now.
