Lost My Mom Two Weeks Ago Today

Been awhile since I posted here, but needed to tell someone I guess.

For the last few months mom has been sick, and in and out of the hospital and rehab. Got to the point of her having the flu really bad and the medications to help her fight it got to her kidneys. She went into kidney failure and at her age she was not a good candidate for dialysis. She tried but couldn't handle it for 3 hours three times a week. We tried a nursing home with Hospice. It was a hell hole!! She was not taken care of at all there. So we brought her home and I was lucky enough to have wonderful people that I work for to let me go be with my mom til the end to take care of her. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Watch my mom die more each day. The last day and night were the worst of my life listening to her die. I prayed like never before that GOD would take her and end her misery.

Mother's Day is coming now and it is tearing me apart. My mom and I were so close. Now I don't have her anymore.

Thanks for listening to me here.

Sorry to hear of your Mum's passing. Glad you posted or I would never have known. Sad you no longer post about the Funny Farm, enjoyed your posts here but you have chosen to no longer post here, except for this one re your Mum .

Come back?

hugs

jen

Thank you for posting back Jen. Means a lot to me.

Seems like everyone has stopped posting here. What happened? Used to be a busy board. Now it looks like it is dead as a door nail.

Maybe someday I can post again about my "Funny Farm" but right now I am so empty inside.

Thanks again for answering.

HUG'S

Oh Judy,

I'm so sorry to read this. Losing one's mom is, I think, a terribly deep thing. How wonderful that you were able to take care of your mom the way you did! I am sure that it made such a difference to her to be cared for by you during her most difficult and vulnerable time! My heart goes out to you.

I personally believe that we all survive the death experience, albeit in a different way than before. I believe that our departed loved ones are safe and okay, that they are aware of us, that love transcends death, and that in time we will see one another again.

Be very kind to yourself and patient with yourself as you adjust to this big change. Hang in there. It takes time. May you find comfort and peace.

Thank you for posting back to me. It meant a lot for me to hear back from you about your own mom. You did a good thing taking care of your mom like you did. Both of us will always have that special bond of caring for our mom's like we did in their time of need.

I see a Red Cardinal bird every day and I do believe it is my mom letting me know she is with me still.

Thank you again for answering my post.

HUG'S

Condolences to you and your family. It is really hard to lose a loved one.

HUGS

Thank you so much for the condolences. Means so much to me. It was so hard being right there with her to the end. But glad I was!

HUGS'S

Judy

So sorry to hear about your mom. Losing a parent is so very hard. No matter how old you are you feel like an orphan. I went to the phone the other day to call my mom and had my hand on the receiver before It hit me that she was no longer here to answer my questions or share special and funny things my grand kids are doing. She has been gone 4 years now and at times I still forget. It will take time for you to settle into your new normal. Honor her memory in whatever fashion is true to you and the relationship you shared with her. Trust that God has a plan even if we can not see or understand it.

Thank you Linda for responding to me. I know what you mean! I wanted to call mom so bad the other night to tell her something that Rick did that was so funny and I couldn't! I cried and cried. I just don't have anyone to talk to anymore to share things with.

Tuesday the 6th will be her birthday and I know it will be hard for me once more.

I feel your pain. I really do.

HUG'S

Judy

Treat yourself well. Try to do all you can work wise on Monday, so Tuesday can be a lighter day. Holidays and birthdays are difficult. It will get less painful with time and the memories and remembrances will become dear friends. Get grief counseling if necessary. I was lucky enough to have a woman in my chorale that had gone through the same thing the year before I lost my mom and she was a great listener. You may be able to find a support group in your community. Do what you need to do.