Ah Hapoy Monday from Denver International Airport!
HELLO CARLA AND EVERYONE....
I am checking in as I do most everyday. I just didn't have the chance to reply. I was going through so much and my hands and body have been so painful.
I was having horrible depression. It just kept getting worse. I went in to see my psychiatrist. I spoke to him and my therapist about the med changes my medical doctor made. She took me off Celexa which worked wonderful for my depression. She put me on Cymbalta as that can also be used for depression and Fibromyalgia pain. Well it wasn't helping with the pain and my depression was getting so much worse. Also my thinking and balance were so off. I was to the point that I couldn't hardly walk even with my walker. I was falling a lot! I asked my psychiatrist if he would please put me back on Celexa. He said he had a feeling the Cymbalta wasn't going to work. He reminded me that he had started me on that long ago and I had issues. I thought I was on it too but my doctor couldn't find anything in my medical charts about it. So dummy me said go ahead and try it. I needed the pain to get better. I have been off it now for two weeks. My balance is really much better. I can walk with a cane. My thinking is clearer and I am not so depressed!!!
My daughters and all my grandchildren were here over the weekend. They were absolutely stunned at the change in me!! Carrie saw me on Thanksgiving and had called Jamie. They thought I was going to have a stroke if I hadn't already had one. Carrie was planning to come and see my doctor with me. She was scared to death! The girls both agreed that they would hear my doctor out. If nothing was resolved they were taking me to Rochester Mayo Clinic!
This weekend I was having fun, laughing and moving around. No problem with my speaking. I could easily get out of my chair.Everyone kept saying "You are like you again". My kids were so happy!!!
I still have to deal with the pain and fatigue. Even the fatigue is so much better. I am not sure what my doctor will come up for a pain medicine. I am so allergic to so many.
I felt like I was being poisoned and in a way I was!! It will take sometime to get the Cymbalta completely out of my system.
I actually feel like I may live again...I really thought I was on my way out!!!
So anyway....it has been a long, very scary ride. Now you know what has been going on with me. There was no way I could even begin to answer posts. I wanted to but couldn't do it!!
Slowly I will be coming back. My hands are the reason why I don't feel I can answer everyone. Please be patient. I will be back!!
Thanks to all of you that were so concerned about me. I appreciated the calls and messages. I am sorry I couldn't talk or post much.
I love you all....I miss you all.....hugs......connie d
Oh Connie, I am so glad you are doing better. Your story about the med change is an important reminder that patients who take antidepressants should remember to stay in contact with the psychiatrist about symptoms. I was in a horrible funk back in PA, when I was still teaching, and when I called my therapist, the first thing he told me to do was call my psychiatrist, then call him back. My psychiatrist decided it was time for a medication change, coz I had been on Lexapro for years. He switched me to Cymbalta, and it has worked fabulously. Sometimes it takes several tries to find the right med, and sometimes a med that's has worked for years just doesn't work anymore.
Connie,
Guess what my neighbor, who has been out of town since the end of November, brought me! A Christmas card from you!!!!! I guess the mailman put it in her box and her friend collected all of her mail and she got back from her overseas trip and was going through her mail and she had about five pieces of our mail....What a beautiful card....thanks again.
Hi everyone,
Just dropping in to say hello.
Patricia, hang in there. I feel sad when you post about your church on FB and here. T'is catty and sad when pseudo Christian women are catty. I do not believe Jesus told his followers to be catty. All we can do is pray for people like this.
Carla, I wish I could travel like you do. I really do.
Vicki, I pray you get the lake house sold very soon. It is sad that you are suffering so much every time you are there. Your beloved was a part of your life for a long time, it will take a long time for you to completely heal. Hang in there.
I cannot wait for Caralee to be born. She has some cyber grandmas here who want to spoil her.
Connie, I am happy you are doing well on the Celexa (citalopram). I took it for a few years and had the opposite effect with it toward the end. I became more and more anxious, like you did with the other medication the doctor has taken you off of. It is weird how the same medication works on different people differently. I am so happy you are feeling better, except for the pain. Thank God the depression is better. Hugs to you.
My love goes out to you all.
Me? Same stuff different day. Daughter driving me nuts with her father. She wants me to take him to the gym 3x a week. You know he is obese. He can't walk far because he said he has a weak knee. So she got him a trainer to work his muscles and do a little cardio. She is paying for that. She wants him at her wedding, as I stated.
I told her if I have to cart him around, I get paid from HIM for wear and tear on my car. You can tell by now that I really really don't care for him, right?
Last week he worked out for a half hour and was tired. When he came home, I was throwing something in the trash. What do I see? A Publix bar cake. All eaten up. 300 calories each slice. Six servings. And there was another cake in is room. So I told Lisa.
And my sister with that toxic situation there. I talk to her and talk to her and I give up.
I can only fix myself, as the serenity prayer states.
Love you all. My prayers to all. I am going to be working out again to get ready for the wedding. I need to look good for her, the guests...some of whom I have not met, some of whom I have not seen in a long time.
Good day to all,
Arlene
Oh Connie! How you must struggle just to get through the day when your meds are working so hard against you! That's not the point of medication at all! I am praying that the doctors will be able to come up with a combination of drugs that will HELP you, not harm you.
Honey, you know if we could, we would all be there in a heartbeat to help you with daily chores and shopping and just visiting. I wish so much I could fly you down here for the winter months. Maybe we can do that one day. Since we can't, just know that I pray for you daily. Love you VERY MUCH!
Vic