GRIEF SUCKS
Aw, Vickie, I feel for you. I'd take up Cindi's offer, or if not that, find someone to do an estate sale to get the house ready for sale. That's what my brother did. Don't put yourself through this. And get to a therapist. You need someone to talk to. Please find a therapist. Or a grief group.
We are here for you too. I can imagine it's tough. I have never lost a husband, but I've lost my dad and some close friends over the years. We love you.