A cool Sunday morning
Good morning sistas,
Oh, my goodness! It is finally cool here this morning. It's LOVELY! It won't last for long and the temps will climb this afternoon, but for now, it's a true breath of fresh air!
I am struggling with making myself do what I have to do and that is so not like me. But I just can't seem to make myself settle down and deal with the business end of things like taxes, etc. I KNOW I have to. I know it. But my mind shies away from taking the actual steps to do any of it. I'm acting crazy.
All I really want to do is shop and spend money and sew. These things are not bad, but I don't know how much money I have! That's what's bad. Yesterday, I very nearly talked myself into buying a $3000 sewing machine. THIS IS NOT LIKE ME. I have no aversion to spending money, but I usually know how much money I have to spend!
Anyway, I'm struggling. This is new territory for me.
I have been ordering fabric and curtains for the house. And I'm excited for all the decorating and sewing to come. While I don't care a great deal about some things, I am very interested in settling into my little house and getting it all prettied up.
Next week I have my first meeting with my friend about that grant writing project. She's a very good friend and helped me quite a bit when Butch was in hospice. I feel comfortable with her and I'm looking forward to having something new to learn and do.
The other thing I'm interested in is the new baby. Oh, I'm very interested in Pita! So looking forward to doing all the sewing and decorating for the new nursery.
I'm quite disappointed in that order I placed for the Big Board--you know that oversized ironing board I posted about here? So far I haven't received a single response from that company! I've emailed and called to no avail. The charge hasn't gone through on my credit card either. I don't know WHAT to think! I just get an answering machine when I call saying "I can't come to the phone now." WTH? It's like I'm calling her home phone, not her business line. IDK.
Mike's parents (Christie's SO) arrived yesterday. They are here for a week I think. Anyway, I do NOT want to see them. I just don't want to see anybody. Whenever I DO see someone, I always have to either explain or talk about Butch and that makes me cry. I'M IN MOURNING. Why can't people understand that? I don't want to go around wearing black, but I also don't want to socialize right now. They want to take all of us out to dinner, but I'm going to decline it. I don't want to go.
Christie has yet to plan a b-day party for little Budder. I don't know what's going on with her. It's true that Reese is too little to realize what day is his birthday, but I don't understand what's going on with her. Mom says she's waiting for me to do it. Ha. It's going to be a long wait. I haven't even bought his b-day present yet because I don't know when the party will be.
I played with my new "tool" yesterday. It's a little rotary blade that cuts little evenly spaced holes for crocheting borders around blankets. I just played around with some scrap material. It worked pretty well. I'm eager to try it out for real on a receiving blanket for Pita.
I went to a big plant sale on Friday and I hit gold. Everything was 50% off! Everything! I bought a car load of plants for my new back flower beds. I really ought to go back this afternoon and do it again. Maybe I will. I'm still trying to get a revised bid from my lawn guy. I told him I needed a less expensive material for building the raised beds. I can't afford the chopped block I initially wanted. But I still want the beds! I wish he would get back to me so we could okay the deal and I can get on the work schedule.
I need to buy 4-6 trees also, and I need the yard guys to put them in while they are building the new beds. So much to coordinate. I need him to respond to me.
Well, I need to go. The new curtain rods came on Friday and this morning we are going to hang the new curtains in Mom's room. I had to go to Lowe's and buy a little rechargeable drill. Butch had several of those things and all kinds, but they are all so heavy. This one is lightweight and I can lift it over my head. Should be fine for the little things I need to do around the house like installing curtain rods, etc.
Mary, I'm proud of you for stepping out and trying to do things. You're doing better than I in that respect. We also said we would start going to try out new churches, but we've only gone once. Like I said, I keep putting things off. We should have gone this morning, only I didn't want to coordinate all the effort. It's like I'm in a brain fog all the time, except when I'm doing something I want to do--like sewing or gardening. Everything else, I just let it all go.
Eileen and Cindi, y'all just relax and do a little packing each day. It will happen. Cindi, I had a dream about you last night. I don't remember the details, but you were in it! LOL!
Love you all!
Vickie
Good morning Vickie and OFF-
Vickie in my opinion you are distracting yourself from the grief with all these projects. A normal process for many. Fight or flight. You're avoiding painful stuff at the moment. I do it myself at time by volunteering to do things when I have a major issue in my life. Take the time to list all the to do's that you have to deal with Butch's passing and just break it down into manageable chunks. I did all the paperwork when my father died, my mother couldn't deal with it. So I know what you have to go through, it's tedious, but it's manageable in smaller pieces.
I agree with your mother, Christie is waiting for you to hold the party for Budder. Don't give in my friend, you're in mourning and you don't have to be the hostess with the mostess during this time.
Well yesterday ladies I helped generate the mailing labels for the the donation letter that the town library sends out each year. None of the ladies on the library board have computer skills to maintain a donor spreadsheet and do a mail merge. I guess I will have to write them a cheat sheet.
Spent the rest of the afternoon and evening with my friends at the north end of the lake. I'm her knitting coach. For three years I've been coaching her to knit a bowl that can be felted for her cats to sleep in. The problem is that she doesn't knit on it during the winter. Anyway we knit and chatted all afternoon. Then we had BBQ chicken for dinner. The best part of the meal was a blueberry pie she made. It's no bake. It was delicious and I came home with the recipe.
I think I've sold my kayak. Someone is coming today to look at it. I haven't used it at all this summer with the weight gain I can't get in and out of it easily. The moving company was going to charge me $215 to move it to Texas. Cheaper to buy a new one when I get to Texas. I don't think I really want to kayak that much with the alligators and cottonmouths. May have also sold the trundle bed and the recumbent eliptical machine. So that will help. I'll end up leaving a double bed, a small table with two chairs and a recliner behind. That will give me something to sleep on should the camp not sell this year.
Well that's all for now. Thinking positive thoughts for all of you.
Cindi B.
Post scriptum: Okay, so I ordered a new big ironing board. About the same price as the other one, but made of a lighter material. I hope it will hold up. Anyway, I found a coupon for free shipping, so the price wasn't too bad: $130 with tax and free shipping. Here's a pic:
I got a couple of "hits" this morning on some of my good junk for sale. One lady is coming to get an end table (Mom's) at 1 p.m. Another lady "says" she and her mom are coming to look at the big computer desk. Cross your fingers and swing chickens! I just got out there and cleaned it all up real pretty for her. I'm asking $75, but would take less just to get it gone!
Cindi, I can't wait until we can have a weekend of knitting & crochet lessons together! Unlike your friend, I promise to work on mine more than once a year! LOL!
Vickie
Hi Vickie and Cindi and my OFF family:
I have been so sleepy lately and last night, I wound up falling asleep at work a couple of times. I finally just gave up and went home. I figured out it was the antibiotic that was causing it. Bactrim's side effects include excessive drowsiness. Just what I need right now. Gary has said he will help me with the packing. Although he said he'd do more pitching (hey, I got rid of five bags of clothes!).
Got the Bears-Packers game on ... Bears just got a field goal on the first drive. It's early ... they'll find a way to screw this up.
Vickie, you're right not to host a party ... you need to take i slowly getting back in the social scene. Let your daughter host a party ... it's her kid, after all. My niece always had her boys' birthday parties and invited us to come to them.
Cindi, great that you sold your kayak. I have to try to sell more of my stuff. I think my big Bears post is going for sale. I have nowhere to put it in our new place.
Got to get into my grubbies and get moving. Gary's ready to work. Have a good day.
Afternoon OFF family!!!
Well............we now have SMART PHONES and WE are STUPID!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!! The directions we both have for the "same" phone which we found out when we got home ARE different!!!! GREAT!!!!!!!! Now we both have to learn TWO DIFFERENT phones!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! Bought two phone cases for them...guy said the phones were the same...YEAH RIGHT!!!!! Mine fits...Rick's does NOT!!!!!! His is a little bit LONGER!!!!!!! Took case back today. No case there to fit his til late Wednesday afternoon!!!!! WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!! Hope he doesn't break it!!!!!! Trying to add phone numbers to them now. Can't add at store from old to new...INCOMPATIBLE we were told. ****!!!!!!!!! LOTS of numbers to add in...GRRRRRRRRRRR So if any of you that I have numbers and it rings and hangs up...its just me trying to add your number to my new phone.
Had an early morning District VFW meeting this morning. OMG was it ever LONG!!!!!!!!! They put me in charge of the 50/50 tickets, sign in sheets, and the Penny March. Lucky me. After the meeting they had a lunch of Swiss steak, mashed potatoes, corn and pies. YUCK!!!!!!!! It was awful!!!!!!! One of the members made it all and it was bad!!!! Sorry but it was. There were people from ALOT of different VFW's from all over Ohio. Interesting but not. Very long. Back is killing me from sitting so long.
Weather is ALOT cooler today...need a jacket!!! WOW!!! last week sweat your brains out and now freeze your arse off...lol
Well back to putting phone numbers in my phone. wish me luck.
Thoughts and Prayers for ALL that need them!!!
HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
You have a way with words, Judy. I read your post about the flea problems at As the Apartment Complex Turns. It wasn't funny at all. However, the way you describe your situations sends me into giggles. Again, you should write a book. You'll get the hang of the smart phones. And it sucks that phone numbers can't be transferred from an old phone to a newer one.
