Happy Wednesday at 1 am

Good morning all. 

I am awake  and hoping the effects of my third day of heavy duty clean out for a colonoscopy will subside so i can get some sleep. I am going back tomorrow for my scope as five days of Miramax, Mag Citrate on Sunday a colon prep solution on Monday and Tuesday DID NOT get my colon clear enougb for the exam. So i took another prep kit this evening.  Been on liquids for three days and clear liquids for two and i am tired cranky and hungery. Has anyone else had problems with getting there colon cleared for a colonoscopy?  All i have to say is if it isn't good enough tomorrow i ain't having it. 

Sorry i haven't gotten toread your posts for the last couple days....i have been bathroom hopping, not to be mistaken for bar hopping.... lol

I pray for all of you daily 

I am going to try to get some rest. Have to take. Another round of this laxative prep stuff between 9 and 9:30 .  Wish me luck. 

Oh Boy, do I wish you luck!!  I'd rather be bar hopping too; it has been ages since I've enjoyed a ****tail.  I never heard of anyone having problems getting the colon clear other than it just happened with Jim.  They did the scope, but he wasn't cleaned out enough and they were going to reschedule it -- but I think his cir****tances were special.  If I were you, I wouldn't be too worried -- it should be ok.  But I'll swing a chicken for you anyway!!  I hope you get some rest.

Jim is up and down.  I got to the hospital, and he greeted me with a smile and a hello. Unfortunately, by the time I had to leave, he was "out of it" again.  The Social Worker took me out to the hallway and spoke with me about the Health Care Proxy.  Since Jim is in and out of it, things can get complicated.  When he's "with us" he gets to make the decisions; when he's out of it, I have to sign the authorizations for procedures.  But, if I make a decision and Jim is able to voice an objection, the Court would have to get involved.  Things can get complicated.
Tests are ongoing.....still looking for source of infection and source of bleeding, and kidneys are not working properly right now, which is a concern.  I never know what to expect when I arrive at the hospital.  But I'm taking half a Xanax when I get to the hospital, so I'm able to hold things together now.

Taylor went to school Tuesday - it was an "introductory" day, so she just spent a few hours there along with Maura.  Apparently her nerves got the better of her and her behavior wasn't the best; hopefully she'll settle down today.

I'm going to try to get back to bed for a few hours sleep.  Keep the prayers coming my friends.

Mary

Hi All,

I am just about ready to go to bed. I sleep off and on all day and night since my hospital stint...I am just trying to heal up. I had a colonoscopy about a month ago....clean out was a bear but the procedure was quite easy. I did have a precancerous polyp so it was a good move to get that done. 

Yesterday I cried all day....I was just overcome with the gravity of my recent surgery and the way it came about. I feel that it just wasn't handled very well in many ways. As soon as I'm stronger I want to process it with my family doctor. 

Today I did some walking and even a little bit of driving. The pain of my incisions is depleted every day. When I got home from the hospital my hummingbirds were trying to get the last drop of every feeder. I cooked up nectar last night and refilled the feeders this morning. The birds are so thankful. Mommy was gone too long.

Off to bed now. Hope those of you having sleep struggles have a pleasant night of deep sleep. It truly us the best thing ever!

Julia

Good Morning Francine, Mary & Julia & OFF Family to follow!

Francine, you have my sympathies on the prep process! I had pre-cancerous polyps since my 1st colonoscopy 5 years ago & had to have them yearly until I was clear last year. I was told my prep results were not as good as expected, but he was able to get the job done. Makes you wonder! I am going to change doctors before my next one as I did not care for this doc at all. Plus, I have never been regular & only go about 3x's/wk...TMI I know. Sometimes the preps would not even move me, but somehow he 'worked through it...lol...ewww!

Anyhow, best of luck!

Mary, I sure hope Jim stabilizes soon & is more alert. He definitely needs to go into a rehab vs. home. Still a lot on you as the running around & dealing w/the ongoing medical issues is a strain. but better than you dealing w/it at home. I wish you peace!

Julia, sorry you are having an emotional time as a result of your recent surgery. But I would think that is not unusual given the physical impact of surgery (at our age...not spring chickens anymore!), and our emotions are tied into how we feel. Get it out of your system and it will pass. You will recover & get back to your 'old' self.

I'd like to say 'prayers' for everyone going thru rough times, but the past few nights when I say my prayers I have fallen asleep within minutes of turning off the lights. I guess this heat & humidity  are kicking my butt! I will need to do some daytime prayers...geez!

I am cleaning the house today. It is the only day this week I don't have an appointment. Hope to get in the pool later b/c of the heat wave. Tomorrow we are taking my sister & husband to my middle daughter's restaurant at the beach for my sister's b-day. I am looking forward to a small lunch as we seldom get time to talk...since she lives an hour north we see each other mostly at family gatherings.

Everyone have a good day. Thinking of you all!

Good morning, sistas,

If you can call it a good morning, more power to you!  Me?  I was up all night.  The new medicine (BTW Connie it IS trazadone, not trazadol) did NOT work.  OMG.  I feel like **** warmed over this morning.  Headache and fatigue.  This not sleeping is the pits.  I know I'm preaching to the choir here.  It seems like many of us are having this problem right now.

I'm glad I turned off my phone last night.  Early early this morning there were phone calls and messages from both Mike and Christie.  I'm going to have to set some boundaries.  I am not going to be their go-to person for problem solving.

Yesterday evening Mike was spouting off about how he had done HIS part and that Christie was going to have to do x,y,& z for HER part.  I said, "Mike that's not how a relationship works.  You can't keep score.  Each person has to give 101%.  You two have to be a TEAM."  I don't think it sunk in.  Those two are so busy toting up who has done what and who owes this and that.  I honestly don't see how they're going to make it if they don't give that kind of behavior up and soon.  

On a brighter note, my Carrie is 16 weeks along this week!  Just a few more weeks and we will hopefully know if little Pita is a boy or a girl.  Carrie sure is convinced she's a girl.  Even though we promised not to buy things until after the sonogram at 20 weeks, she's slowly but surely bringing home girly things.  LOL!  She seems to have settled on a Paris/Eiffel tower theme.  Yesterday she bought an Eiffel tower lamp!  It needs a shade and she asked if I could make a custom lamp shade out of some of the fabric we pick out.  Well, maybe.  We will see.  First I have to get through with my own sewing for the house.

If my headache will let up, I plan to work on those outdoor cushions some more today.  My fabric samples from Country Curtains should be here next week, and then I'll decide what I'm going to order ready made and what I'm going to sew myself.  I have to do my living room, breakfast nook, master bedroom, and master bath.  I already have the fabric for the front bedroom which Mother is using as her little sitting room.  And she had curtains for her bedroom.

Anyway, here are some of the things I'm looking at for my bedroom and bath.  This is what I think I want to use in my big picture window in the master bath.  I already have the wide slat type of white blinds in that window, so I just need a valance:

And then in my bedroom, I have this huge wall of windows (over 10 feet wide!) and there are already vertical blinds in place, which I actually like in that room because I can close them and totally block out the morning sun.  So I'm thinking valances across the tops of those windows as well:

The nice thing is I can buy all of these coordinating fabrics by the yard, too, so I can make a matching bedskirt or whatever I decide on.  But I'm waiting on the fabric samples to see the actual colors.  You really can't tell colors on the internet at all.

In the living room and breakfast nook (which are adjoining), I'm wanting to use blue and white toile, along with coordinating blue and white checks and stripes.  I ordered all those fabric samples as well.  I do love the toile curtains!  I want to take down the vertical blinds in the living room and hang white sheers instead.  I won't print all the fabric samples, but these are the toile curtains I'm thinking about:

I like the way they puddle on the floor, don't y'all?

Well, I need to close.  Eat a bite of something and see if my head won't feel better.  Sure hope everyone has a better day today!  Prayers for all.

Love you all!

Vickie, trazadone is an antidepressant and sometimes it takes awhile to work. I know that doesn't help when you want to get sleep right now, but I was on it before (it was the first sleep aid I was put on when I was diagnosed with fibro) and it took a week or two before I started seeing results. Also, take it about 2 hours before you want to go to sleep. 

Vickie:  I like your choices for window coverings -- although I'm not all that fond of the puddling effect but I do really like the fabric choices.

Sorry that Mike tried to get you to run interference.  He and Christie need to work through their own issues.  I'm glad you refused to be dragged in the middle of it.  I hope that, for Benny and Budder, they are able to work through the ups and downs of their relationship.

Give your new med. time.  I sincerely hope it works great for you.

Cindy P.

I had problems getting my colon cleaned after one day; had to do it a second day and even then it wasn't quite as good. I had some polyps removed that time. That was three years ago. I don't have to do another one for two years.

I sure would rather be bar hopping!

I feel better today after my epidural, although I have a bit of a headache. It's on and off. I just got off Skype with my brother Gary. He seems to think he'll be there until next Tuesday. The service for brother No. 1 Ed's MIL is Saturday, but they may want him to stick around until after Labor Day. Ed won't be able to go to the service because he'll be in too much pain (hip replacement), so Gary will need to stay with him. Then Sunday, SIL Margaret will go with her family to clean out out her mom's apartment. So Gary needs to stay with Ed then (gee, I was alone most of my knee replacement time). 

Got a call from the leasing agent about signing our lease ... Gary wants to see if we can do it next week. I have to call my movers and see when they will be coming to move me. Plus I have much more to pack.

Vickie, your curtains look very nice. Not my style, but I'm not a curtain person ... I'm a blind person ... curtains attract cat hair. 

My boss will be by at 2:30 p.m. to take me to my car, so I have to get ready earlier than usual. Need to get in the shower and get lunch. Have a good day. I have to work OT tonight.

Eileen:  I'm glad you're feeling better after your epidural.  I hope you get as good a result from it as you have in the past.

Gee, it seems like it's one thing after another re Gary being able to get settled.  A little frustrating that @#%! keeps happening!

I hope your night at work goes smoothly and that you don't have to work too late.

Cindy P.

Good afternoon Francine and OFF-

Sorry about the clean out problems.  Hope that all of your stories don't jinx me when I have my colonoscopy later this year.  Haven't had one in five years but this will be the first since WLS.

Julia- your emotional roller coaster sounds like my recovery post hysterectomy.  One day I was normal, the next crying, the next insomnia, etc...  It will pass.  Just keep walking.

Mary I agree that it's good that Jim is going to rehab.  You don't need the stress of trying to care for him.  He should be able to care for himself before he's discharged from rehab.  Hope the social worker understands that and will communicate it to rehab facility.

Vickie-  I like all the drapes.  Not necessarily all my colors but I like the designs.  I have a box of drapes/curtains that I will be repurposing.  Sorry the new sleep aid didn't work.  Hopefully doctor will try something else when you speak to him again.

Eileen I am getting excited about your move.  It will be a new place, new memories and no attachments to the past.  Good luck with the packing, I feel your pain as I'm there too.

Kathy what kind of restaurant does your middle daughter have?

Well today I went to town and got a hair cut and perm.  Happy to have shape and body in my hair again.  Hopefully it will improve my mood.  Going to take the rest of the day easy and not do anything else except unpack suitcase and sort the laundry.  Mom has a document she wants me to "see" and interpret for her so I may try to set that up today.  Something about a financial report that she has to submit to her facility.  We'll see.

Hugs to all of you.  I'll keep you in my thoughts through the rest of the day.

Cindi B.