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Trish,

Sorry that you are having a hard time.  I understand the depression and how you can isolate yourself.  I hope you can find a good therapist soon.  Ill pray for you.

Hugs,

Yvonne

So sorry you are going through this. I have been fortunate to find good therapists both times I've sought them. But everyone is different. Please, if you need to talk or message, I'm available. I'm a good listener and I don't judge. I'll PM you my phone number. 

Hello Trish...I read this and have taken awhile to think about it.

I think you are about to hit the wall!!

First of all you need to take time for you and no one else. You can't take a chance of losing it with Colleen or your grandchildren.

Second you need to get into an AA meeting today! No more excuses!!!

Third you need to see or call a therapist NOW. If not then you need to get into the hospital. You are balancing on a very thin line.

I don't like to know you are so desperate and alone. I am not surprised it has gotten to this point.  Everything going on with your mom, Colleen being so controlling, and you spreading yourself too thin. Something had to give. 

I know you are very worried about not seeing your grandchildren anymore. I am sorry that Colleen seems to like holding that card above your head. You are her mother not the other way around. You can get mad at me if you want. Colleen blames most everything on you when many times it is herself she is angry with. You should not need to walk on egg shells 90% of the time when you talk with your daughter. 

PLEASE get some help and do it now!! This is a very serious situation. I don't want anything to happen to you.

I have noticed you haven't been yourself since you came back from trying to help your mother. You have been distant and very serious. You hardly ever have anything much to say.

I hope you get the right people involved and get yourself back to the fun and caring lady you are.

I am here if you need me....anytime!!

Love and many hugs to you....connie d

Hi Trish,  I am so sorry you are in so much pain.  This is one of those times when I wish I had a magic wand!  ❤️❤️

I have are a lot of AA friends and every one of them has a sponsor who they share everything with.  Some say this relationship is even better than therapy.  Do you have a sponsor?  I am a retired clinical psychologist, and I have found some of the BEST therapy out there is AA, the group support, the steps, and the unselfishness of a good sponsor.  Hoping you find a good group and a great sponsor!!❤️❤️❤️

It sounds like you have friends on this site.  No offense intended, but this is way too much personal information to post here.  Take the suggestion of others and PM with your established contacts.  You really never know who has access to any forum.

Best of luck on connecting with a therapist.  Positive thoughts from me to you❤️

Hi Suzanne,

I'm a very transparent person in real life.  Most people on OFF already know the stuff I shared in my post.  I am not concerned about these things being too personal.  If I offended you, I apologize, but I don't apologize for being an open book.  What you see, is what you get.

But you start out with, "Please, please, please " don't share this on FB?  Sounds like you are not an open book to all.