Monday update

Vickie, I am so sorry for all you , Butch, and your family are going through. I am so thankful you have the help of Hospice. I told you earlier what a tremendous help they were with my brother. They not only helped him so much they also helped us. You remain in my prayers.

Vickie-

Thoughts going out to you this morning.  You will be in my thoughts throughout the day.  I wish I was in Texas so I could drive to give you a hug or more.  Yes, Butch is going to die but he will be passing to a plane where there are many loved ones to take care of him.  The confusion he's experiencing is probably due to the pain meds and lack of food.  When he dies you are going to crash.  It's okay to acknowledge the grief you are going to experience and to allow yourself to crash and be consumed by sadness.  We will be here to support you along with your family.  So with that said, it's okay to be a sad mess today.  We're here for you and you are in our thoughts.

Cindi

Vic,

Sadly, the reality of death is that he will be gone.  It does sound like he is entering his final phase and the end is near. I cannot imagine how sad you must be feeling and how that sadness is magnified by the conundrum of wanting him to live but also wanting him to pass so that the suffering ends. My thoughts are with you and know that where you are at now..facing death...is so much more painful than where you will be after he dies.  Now, you are helpless and feel so much guilt and pain knowing you cannot stop the process and, in so many ways, pray that the struggle ends.  But after, you regain the control and saying your final goodbye is so much easier that trying to say your final goodbye but hoping that he lives another minute.  It's that anticipation and the loss of control...you cannot stop it to save your own life nor would you. 

Peace..my friend.

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I am feeling your pain Vicki we are ALL there with you holding you tight and praying....GOD be with you!!!

Dear Vickie,

I can't begin to imagine what you are going through.  I do understand the harsh reality that the word die means.  It means it is real and final.  The other words, like pass over and go home are true, but do soften the blow.  It's okay to feel an overwhelming sadness.  It's part of the grieving process.  Just cling to Butch while you have him, and trust that the Lord has both of you right where you need to be, in the palm of His hands.  

Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord.  "Plans to prosper you, not to harm you.  Plans to give you hope and a future."  

Love you.

Vickie,

I do not know what I can add to what the others have said...

All I can do is repeat that you are in my thoughts & prayers as well as everyone else's. Remember that God is carrying you now while in one of the deepest stages of sorrow & grief. He will continue to carry you until you can walk on your own...come to terms with all this.

I repeat that I believe your plan to go to North Padre Island by yourself to deal with the initial grieving after Butch passes will help you move ahead. You are a strong, capable woman & Butch would expect you to carry on.

Peace be with all of you.

Good Afternoon Vickie....I am so sorry I didn't get on here to see your post earlier. I am behind on everything today....too slow going.

I read this post and sat and cried for you and Butch. I am so sorry. Butch is a good man and he shouldn't be suffering like this. The pain and agony of how you feel is breaking my heart. You don't deserve this kind of pain either. YES..Butch is going to die. I am glad you finally said it. All of our love can't make it stop. Jesus wants Butch to come home. There are such things as miracles and Jesus can do this. I do believe that. That is what I have been praying for "miracles"  these days. I will continue my prayers for all your family. I keep you all in my thoughts daily.

I love you so much my dear friend. Be good to yourself today.  I can feel your heart breaking. I wish I could make it better.

GOD bless you all. You are amazing!! 

So much love and many hugs ...connie d

So sorry Vickie. Yes, the word "die" is much more permanent, simple. It puts it right out there. He may be getting that much closer. We all love you and you can come here to scream and cry. 

Vickie, If only things could be different, but they can't be.  Yes, Butch is dying....and you will be left to carry on.  But I know that you will be filled with happy memories that will help you through your dark time....and then you will return to living your new life.

Ongoing prayers for you and your family.  You are surrounded by loved ones.

Mary