It is Monday....just popping in to say hi..

Good afternoon everyone.....

Today is another day I couldn't walk outside. The humidity is too high for COPD patients. It is dangerous for me when the humidity is in the 65% range..today it is 79% and tonight 91%. I literally can't get my breath out there. I love the sun and it makes me upset that I can't be out in it! Thank goodness for A/C!!

I had a surprise yesterday that almost blew my flip flops off. I was resting and watching a movie. Had just taken a pain pill. Someone buzzed me from outside. I wasn't expecting anyone. It was my twin brother, Donnie, and his wife Beverly, and their oldest son Jason. I haven't seen my brother in at least a year. He is the only brother I would have anything to do with. Beverly's brother is in the nursing home across the street. They know I was here so the came to visit. He hugged me and hugged me and told me he loved me. I was crying!! They said they will be stopping in more often. If I need anything to call. 

I needed that so bad yesterday....God answered another prayer.

Still sifting through everything on my mind. Please believe me, I am okay. Depressed and agitated but hanging on. Contacted my doctor's office today. All is well.

Thank you Kathy G for checking in....you are so sweet!! 

I wonder where our Christine is....she usually stops by on weekends. I hope she hasn't left us. 

Time to rest for awhile. I will check in again later.

Prayers for all our wonderful OFF Family and their families.

Prayers for our sweet Vickie and Butch and of course their family. Always on my mind and in  my heart. Still praying for Judy's sister, Bonnie, and Judy too.

Loads of love and bunches of hugs to all....connie d

Oh Connie that WAS a nice surprise for you!!!! WOW!!!! I hope that will help you get better now...so worried about you my dear friend!!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Hi Judy...thank you for worrying about me. I am okay...just a glitch...I am heading in the right direction....really I am!!!

I am pretty worried about you as well. I know between your health issues and your sister's you have not been doing well yourself. I keep praying you will find peace and wellness too! 

Yes...my brother totally surprised me. He has decided I wasn't the one in the family in the wrong. He knows my abuse was real. There is a lot more to it but I don't feel comfortable going into it quite yet. I know you understand.

I love you and am so glad we are such good friends!!

HUGS!!!!!!! connie d

Hey Connie...I am broken hearted tonight again...saw this afternoon that another horse on my rescue group had to be put down...the one that hurt her foot when she was brought back a couple weeks ago...so sad...this makes two dead in less than a week!!! The other one had colic and the so called vet did nothing for it!!! We are all sick with grief right now!!!! Not sure how much more sadness I can take. I will be OK though...I am a tough Biotch!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSS

Judy...I am so sorry...I remember reading about those horses. I am so sad that they both died. I am concerned about you. I know this breaks your heart....mine too. Try to keep strong sweetie...we need to hang on to one another right now.

I need to go...we are about to get some wicked storms here. It is very dark and windy right now! They are saying very high winds and large hail. I hope it misses us!! It was in the Twin Cities area. I was scared for my daughter, her husband and grandchildren. They text that everyone is okay.. all but Kyleigh...I may have to text her boyfriend...sometimes she forgets to turn her phone back off after work.

I love you much..yes we are TOUGH....more love and hugs...connie d

Connie,

So glad you stopped in...we miss you when you don't post...same as Christine & the other 'regulars.' Like I have said you are like the heart of the group & how can we beat on without you?

I somehow missed or forgot you had COPD. I know you have the fibro, broke your hip, etc. but somehow forgot that! My mom also had COPD...healthy well into her 70's, but then got diagnosed even tho she had quit smoking 20 years prior. I hated watching it progress...she was able to dance circles around me for the longest time! I am sorry you cannot tolerate the humidity, but protect your lungs.

Didn't know you had a twin...I always thought twins were so cool! That is wonderful he paid you a visit! I miss how close I used to be w/my siblings...especially my sister & youngest brother. We still get together at holidays, but we don't drop in on each other or talk on the phone like we used to back in the day. We had a huge rift when my dad got sick that divided the 5 of us for almost 10 years. four of us worked through it, but it is still not the same. Our oldest brother 'disowned' us & we have had no contact for over 6 years. Don't even know where he is...so sad!

I envy families who don't go thru this kind of heartache!

I know Vickie & Butch's situation is hurting you, but like w/them there is not much we can do to alleviate the pain except tell you we are here for you...no matter what you have going on...share or not share!

Please know our hearts are big enough to care as much about you as we do Vickie, Eileen, Judy or any other of us going through bad times!

Hello Kathy...you are the best...thank you!!!!

I don't feel like the heart of anything right now. My head is messed up a bit. I am working with great mental health people and I have been with them for many years. They know me better then I do!! Seriously I am coming along. I have dealt with this for years! It just decided to creep up on me when I wasn't expecting it. I am doing okay..really!

Yes I have COPD and asthma....I have had that a long time too. I miss out on so much because of it....grrrrrr!!

 I have thanked GOD several times today for sending my twin brother to me! We were so close when we were young. I don't wan to lose him again! I understand the family fights..I have my horror stories of that too.

I know you care about me and all the others. I feel bad about what Vickie and Butch are dealing with. Their situation is not the cause of my head issues. Maybe sometime I will share it with you. 

Thank you for always being so sweet to me!!!

Love and many hugs....connied 

Dear Connie - you have so much going on right now in your own life, and I know you are grieving for Vickie and Butch too.  I'm glad you had such a great surprise yesterday!!  I do hope your brother does stop in and visit more often .... I'm sure it would bring you lots of happiness!

Mary

Awwwww sweet Mary...I won't lie....things are tough right now.

Yes ...I am grieving for Butch and Vickie. I so want them to know how much I care and how seriously I wish I could do more for both of them. I wish I could just change the direction Butch is going. I am praying and praying. I know God is listening and Jesus is right there holding them tight. They are such wonderful people.

I have some other things that I have to work through. It isn't very easy. That is why I have such amazing mental health people working with me! 

Don't worry about me...I have been dealing with this stuff for over thirty+ years. I will come through. 

Seeing my twin was a wonderful surprise. I know he is on my side. He said he will be back and I know he will. I can call him anytime too. I am doing better after seeing him. I really felt I had lost him. God did answer my prayers!

Have a good evening...love and hugs to you...connie d

Sweet Connie: sorry to hear your copd and fibro making their mark. Great you had a good surprise from your twin to lift your spirits...hope you can catch yoyr breath soon and feel better physically and mentally....

big hug, 

Jennifer