Monday in Skokie Il!!!!

Ladies,

Here I am, sitting at my desk at work. I just finished a huge workshop that I've been working on for the PhD students and I have included all the supplemental materials and I am one relieved director...this comes right before my monthly dean's meeting.   I am almost finished with my huge report, and if all goes well, I will slide into home with about a week before deadline.  yeah.   This time of the year is killing me.  I have so many reports, budget proposals, position proposals, and courses to get approved. I hate it.   July, or after the first week of July, I am on easy street.   BTW, the middle of July, I'm taking a group of graduate students on a road trip up to WY, SD, and then over to ID, then Seattle, back down to Salt Lake City, and home again.   One thing about traveling by van with graduate students is they drive. The worst thing is they chatter none stop...sometimes I want to say, no...not that again.  

Vic, I hope you are hanging in there.  I know that you are running on sheer adrenaline and I wish I knew of a way to make this easier. Like the others, my heart breaks for you and Butch...no one, but no one can know how hard it is to say good bye to your best friend; you just got him home for good and now this.  I love that he is talking to the grandson and that he is getting relief from most of the pain. Friend, take care of yourself.  You know we are here.

The rest of you ladies, I wish I could remember what I read...Carla, drive safely; Connie, don't over do it at the store; Eileen, enjoy the pool; and the rest of you...stay cool and safe.  

Hello Jeannie...glad you finally got that workshop completed...you are a STAR !! The report is almost done as well...wooohooo!! What a relief that will be....close to the deadline...but you will have it in on time!

You have done those road trip before. I remember reading about them. Tons of fun...all but the constant chatter...LOL!!!!!

Have a good evening....love ya...hugs....connie d

Hello....WOW...Thought you all knew I was going to Michigan for my mom's 94th birthday...guess not...oh well...went home Friday afternoon and surprised her for sure!!! She was HAPPY to see us!!! Then we went to motel checked in and called my sister...no answer...hmmm she was the ONLY one that knew we were coming home...where was she? Dialysis? Maybe...said she was going Friday so she could be more with it Saturday to celebrate mom's bday with us. Waited little longer then my phone rang...it was mom...my sister was in the hospital. She fell and didn't know how she got to hospital. Her life alert went off and ambulance took there. Great. So much for a good weekend celebrating...sighs.....called her kids let them know where she was at...Rick and I went out to eat. My son and his soon to be wife and her son showed up also to eat...had a good time with them. Made plans for later on Saturday afternoon/evening to meet Renee's mom and dad. Plus the guys wanted to shoot the guns...LOL So Saturday we took mom out for her birthday dinner about 3pm and had a good time just the 3 of us. My crab ass older brother wouldn't go because he didn't like "surprises"...said next time "CALL" so he would know what was going on...excuse me...I DID call and HE answered the phone and he told me HE WAS BUSY WATCHING TV so I told him let me talk to mom then!!!! He can be such an ass!!!!!!!!! So we went without him!!!! Hope he was happy too!!! Anyhow we got mom some cute pj's that she could wear as pj's OR a short set. (well on her the pants would come to her ankles LOL) the color was a pretty melon which she loves!!! Then after dinner we took her for a ride and then home and stayed with her a little while til she said she was worn out. So we left then went to motel took Bandit out potty then left to go to Renee's mom and dad's place to meet them and shoot guns. OMG her parents are the sweetest people!!! Now I know why SHE is so sweet!!! Had a GREAT time there hated to leave!! And yes...Duncan was there also!!! OMG he was so excited to see me he broke the rope David had him tied up with!!! That rope was SUPPOSED to hold over 900 pounds!!! That dog is about 100 pounds or so right now and still growing...for those that don't know what Duncan is...he is a Bernese Mountain Dog not yet 2 years old and still filling out....big baby!!! LOL So yesterday we went to hospital to see my sister and se is so upset over her life and all that is going on with her. She said they have no idea what is oozing a creaming color in her right side groin area and were going to let her go home...HUH????????? Yeah...she told them NO!!!!! It is Sunday people!!! Sundays you can't find people to HELP when you need it I am staying right here!!!!!! I agreed!!!! What the hell is wrong with hospitals??? So anyhow we had to come home again...going back in July for the wedding festivities and all....Wedding date is August 1st...so excited!!!! Told Mom and sister GET WELL!!!!!!!!!!! They said they would TRY...as for CRAB ASS...I could care less what he does right now...all he wants to do is sit in a bar and drink and come home drunk!!!!!! Then ***** at mom...ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!

So here I am at home and trying to get caught up on what I missed and see now that Butch is in a HOSPICE HOME...if this is what it takes to get him built back up to get back home so be it...Hang in there POE family!!! GOD IS THERE WITH YOU ALL!!!! THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS FOR YOU ALL...And WE are all with you also!!!! HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

So that is it for me...sorry that some of you were worried...

Thoughts and Prayers for ALL that need them!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Hello JUDY....I have never been so glad to hear from someone in my life!! I had all kinds of things going through my head!! You never know with living with the crazies!!!! Thank God for answered prayers!!!!!!! 

Now I remember you going home to see your mom and celebrate her birthday. How in the world did I forget that!! Sounds like you had FUN!!!! Girl you needed FUN!!!!!

It sounds like you had a wonderful time. Renee's family sounds wonderful!! I am so happy for you and all the families!!

So sorry about your sister. I am glad she spoke up and you were there for back up. No way should she have gone home. I hope they figure out what that is all about. I have never heard of that issue. I am praying every day for her!!

Sounds like you have some great wedding times ahead. I am so glad everyone is so excited!!!

Then there is Baby Duncan...LOL!! He is really going to be a big dog!!! Poor little Bandit must be terrified...he probably feels like a snack for Duncan!!

Your brother is another matter...I could say a few things but I won't. Men like that really bother me!!

I am over the top glad you are okay!!!!

Lots of love and many hugs...connie d

Hi Folks!!  Not much going on with me - enjoying the cool weather; I can't stand it when it gets too muggy.  We might have some showers over the next few days, and that's fine with me.  

Jim is still having problems - not feeling well, but not bad enough to go to the hospital.  He's always wanting cold spring water to drink, and we usually pick up three-gallon bottles.  Tonight, I offered to buy a hot/cold water dispenser and get the big bottles of water, and he said no - because he doesn't know what his situation will be.  He said maybe I'll go in to his room some morning and he will have gone in his sleep.  There's nothing I can do -- he's playing with his medicine again, skipping some and taking others, and he was supposed to go for blood work today but he was too tired.  And he still has the "south of the border" problem, which doctor said should go down.  Don't know what to think.  We just went out for a ride, and I looked at him as he got out of the car....he looks so unhealthy.

I need to get Taylor over to liven things up - she's a firecracker!  She is so full of herself!! 

Prayers and good wishes to all.

Mary

Hello Mary...I am glad you are enjoying the cooler weather!! Today was pretty warm but the humidity wasn't as bad as it was the last couple days. I walked some outside and managed okay.

I am heartbroken for you  !!!!! I am so sorry Jim is being so contrary!! It isn't fair to you. He doesn't seem to care much about himself. He needs to be in the hospital or sub acute care to monitor his medications. He knows what will happen and he doesn't care anymore. There isn't anything else you can do besides contacting his doctor and letting him know what Jim is doing to himself with the meds. That is so sad. 

I hope you are doing okay...I am worried about you!! I say prayers for you all the time. You are loved and cared about by all of us here!!   We are here when you need us!

God Bless....love and hugs to you....connie d

Hello sweet sistas, just wanted to say hi before I go to sleep. We have had an intense couple of days. I'm quite drained. We planned butch's funeral with his brother, talked about dealing with all of butch's stuff (tractors n equipment n tools etc), who will teach the boys to hunt and fish, etc. It was wrenching and exhausting and emotional, but Butch feels better about things now.

I am eating so much junk I feel positively ill.  I simply must stop abusing myself like this. Donuts and cokes and chocolate are not going to change the situation AND I KNOW THIS.  So why do I continue to stuff junk down my gullet and feel so sick all the time? I think I am punishing myself but I don't know why. I probably need counseling. I am out of control. 

I posted a sweet family pic on fb. If I was home on the computer I could post it here too.  Connie if y'all get those fb friends working will you send me friend requests too?  I like to be fb friends with everyone here. 

My head is pounding and I need to close my eyes. They are so sore from all this crying. I just lie here and listen to my audio book. Thank god for smart phones.

Love you all. 

LOVE going out in unmeasurable waves and waves and waves, can't find the infinity symbol here...

jennifer

Hello Vickie....I am going to bed in a little bit myself. I hope you can sleep well tonight. Prayers for both of you!!

Please don't be so hard on yourself about eating. It is stress and you are over the top with stress!!! Be nice to you. You could be out drinking every night or worse. Weight you will lose again. If food is your comfort right now just go with it. I know you aren't happy with it but just be okay about it for now. You don't need that to worry about too.

I am so sad that you are so sad. I am sure you have cried rivers. It is hard finalizing all these things. It is good that Butch could make his wishes known. It was a good thing he had his brother's help and yours too. Now it is done. Put that away for now.

You are probably in a way punishing yourself. I know how you are...you never feel like you are doing enough. You have gone above and beyond doing enough. Down the road you will sit back and be amazed at what you accomplished. I am so proud of you. You are a very strong lady. You love your family and it shows. God Bless you!! 

You are friends on Facebook with me...LOL!!!! I know what you mean....I will let them know. HUGS!!!!!!!

I love that family picture...it is really a great pic of all of you!!

I love you much...lots of gentle hugs...connie d

Vic...HUGSSSSSSSSSSS PRAYERS and more HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSS