Up and at 'em Wednesday!

Hi Connie, just taking a short break.  Since you asked Butch is not doing very well.  The pain is better.  But he's so very weak. He really can't do anything.  Even the 30 minute ride over here this morning was too much for him.  He got sick and threw up on the side of the road. Then he could barely make it from the car to the bedroom. He's been asleep ever since.  I really don't think he can tolerate another chemo.  I'm not sure he can even make the trip back to Houston next week.  It's very sad.  I truly don't think it will be much longer.  He's just so far down.  It would truly be a miracle for him to regain some of his strength. I pray for it but I'm practical enough to see how far gone he is too.  I just hope I can get us settled quickly and then spend some time with him before the end.  Love you. 

Oh my dear, Vickie, I am so sorry hon.  Leave those boxes and rest, and relax with your Butch.  I am praying for you both.

My sweet Vickie....I am heartsick...I cried reading this....I had to read it twice to make sure what I read really was what I read. I know the decision you and Butch made is the right one for him.

I always so hoped Butch could surprise us and come through this. In my heart I knew it probably wouldn't happen. He is just plain worn out, honey. I feel absolutely sick. I am so worried about you. I guess it is a good thing you have all this work to do. It sure has kept you thinking of other things. Although, I know you have always kept Butch foremost on your mind at all times.

I too am praying that you and Butch will have sometime to enjoy your new home. It will mean so much to both of you.

I know how sad you are feeling and why wouldn't you. I believe you are right. He doesn't have a long time left. I will be praying every day that God will see him through this somehow and give him the extra strength he needs. 

I love you with all my heart. I am always, always here for you!!

Loads of love to you  and bushels of hugs  too...connie d

I'm so sorry to hear this Vickie.  No matter how prepared you are, it will be so difficult.  When my father passed so long ago, it was a combination of emotions -- relief that his suffering was over, and grief over our loss.  I'll continue to pray for both of you.  I guess the long battle prepares you in one way -- my husband passed unexpectedly and 13 years later I still breakdown when a doctor is doing a history and asks if I'm married.......  Losing a loved one is a ***** no matter what.  God bless you Vickie - your faith has helped you, and will continue to help you through these difficult times.

VIckie  What heartbreak you are dealing with!   I wish I had magic words to help you not hurt so much!    All I can do it offer my love and empathy  and continued prayers.    Remember God is near, 

Hi Vickie and my OFF family:

Well, the night elf has been working in the apartment ... Richard rearranged the living room. He moved the bookcase in his bedroom to the living room to give himself more room. I have no problem with it. It's behind my recliner and I still have room to recline, so it's fine. He also wants to move another bookcase out here. But he's so sore now he can't move. It's a rather heavy bookcase, so I don't know why he decided to move it (as well as all the books). But now he doesn't feel like shopping ... it's food stamp day ... so I'm going by myself. Then he'll cook when I get home.

Vickie, take it easy on yourself. I know you want to get settled but don't overdo it. I always get the kitchen unpacked first, then do the nonessentials later. Toilet paper, of course, is an essential. Glad Butch is feeling a little better. 

I had a restful night, so I'm going to get to it soon. Time to get in the shower and get dressed. Have a good day.

Hi Eileen....so Richard rearranged the living room....is he crazy? He can hardly walk with out resting or falling. How could he move that bookcase alone and the books too? No wonder he is too tired to grocery shop!! I hope he will be up to cooking later. Men!!!

So is today your last day of vacation? I hope you enjoy it. I am glad you had a good nights sleep last night. 

Love and many hugs....connie d

Not very busy today.  I did go out and do more raking ..... the front and sides are just about done. I checked out the back yard and it doesn't look too bad.  I may just get away with mowing it --- although last summer the back didn't get mowed, and the grass got very tall.  I may hire a neighbor's son to mow the back and clean the gutters.  I am not about to climb a ladder - but the gutters are chock full of leaves, and must be cleaned.  I love the energy I'm feeling.... I put the radio on when I was outside and raked to Oldies Music.  I have a chair in the shed that I'm going to get out tomorrow -- the sun was so nice today I sat on my front steps for a while after I finished the raking.  I am going to get some flowers to plant, and maybe a few vegetables too.  I'll pick up some potting soil, and maybe try container gardening.  I do some reading on it.

All this fresh air and physical activity has helped my sleeping -- which is a very good thing.

Prayers and good wishes to all.