Monday Monday

Mary...oh no....not again...I would be just as angry!!! Grrrrrr!!!!

Yup you did get in one post with paragraphs....LOL!!!

Love and hugs....connie d

Hi everyone! 

I continue to pray for Vickie and Butch, and for all of you with challenges.  I have a new one today, so I hope I might ask you to add me to your prayer lists - or just send some positive thought my way. 

I lost my job this morning. They laid me off, very unexpectedly. It's a small company and it seems they decided to make some very large cutbacks.  They are paying my benefits through March, which is a help, but I will have to pay for them out of pocket (via COBRA) to continue on the path to surgery in April.  I work in technology and the job market is "hot" for what I do, but with WLS potentially scheduled for 6 weeks from now, it will be hard to take a job until after that is done.  Well I am going to just dig in and start job searching, but any prayers or good vibes would be appreciated.  

But here is a bright spot in an otherwise horrible day.  They let me go right around lunchtime, and I packed my bag and left quickly.  I didn't want to get emotional.  I hopped in a taxi and sobbed all the way to the train station, and when I got to the station and I had a 20 minute wait for my train.  All I could think of was M&Ms. I went into the store, picked up the bag and then it hit me: I can still eat those M&m's since I'm  presurgery but it doesn't mean I should. I have to stop using food as a response to stress. So I put the M&Ms down and picked up a water bottle. And then I walked around the station drinking water until 5 minutes before my train.  I got a lot of extra steps and felt a heck of a lot better.  One small step for a woman... A giant leap for me.  

Thanks for for letting me vent.  

Sending hugs to all who may need them.  And who wouldn't need a hug??? 

Thanks

Christine 

Oh Christine!!!! I am so sorry!!!!! HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS That just plain sucks!!!!!! You did good though NOT eating those M&M's!!!! Proud of you!!!!

Maybe you can speed up your WLS if you explain to your dr about loosing your job and all?? Worth a try....

Thoughts and Prayers for you!!! Hang tight!!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Christine, I'm very sorry for your misfortune -- I was let go once years ago - it rocked me. As Judy asked, can you move your surgery up? If not, sounds like it will work out. / Hopefully, when you are ready to get back to work, you will find something better and more secure. ........ Great job with the M&Ms - you deserve kudos for that!

Hi Christine...so sorry about your job ending. I think you should be able to find something fairly quickly. There should be plenty of jobs in your field. I will be keeping you in my prayers!

Good choice with the water...that is a great habit to get in to. You will do really well after your surgery.

You can vent anytime you want....it is allowed!!

Love and hugs....connie d

 

Hello sisters,

So today is my 4 year surgiversary and I feel like a real slug.  I know my weight is up. I am trying to eat better today but it's pretty hard to do so in the hospital. I feel like I eat junk all day long here.  Either I'm bored or I'm scared or I'm anxious--any way you look at it I'm eating to cover up my emotions. The fact that I know I'm doing it doesn't seem to be a deterrent. I just keep stuffing food down my gullet. Sigh.

Well today has not been a great day for Butch. I got here just in time this morning to hold the basin for him to throw up. Guess we're not quite over the nausea yet. 

He has had a lot of pain today. Not doing well with that. He's never going to be able to get up out of bed unless they get his pain under control. 

It's cold and wet here but no sleet or snow. It rarely snows in Houston but it does sometimes ice over. That's what they are expecting for tomorrow morning. Butch doesn't want me to drive in it. I have 4 wheel drive but hardly anyone else down here does. He's more afraid of the other drivers slipping and sliding into me than anything else.

I'm feeling pretty blue today. I'm trying not to let this mess get to me but it is. I'm trying to stay upbeat and positive around Butch but I can let my feelings "show" here.  I just don't think he's getting any better and I have to start thinking about what might come next. It's some pretty scary **** to be quite honest. Some days I just don't feel up to dealing with it all. I guess this is one of those days.

Love you all.

Vickie....BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I KNOW its HARD!!!! I don't know what to tell you to help Butch...they are giving him medications to control his nausea?? I am sure they are...maybe not strong enough? What do they say about it??

Can you sleep in a chair in Butch's room over night? I know having 4 wheel drive is good but not on ice...doesn't matter at all if its ice!!! But so many IDIOTS out there!!!!

HAPPY 4 years today!!!! Look how far you HAVE come!!!! Don't beat yourself up too bad!!!! We have ALL been through some trying times of some sort...but I am sure NOT like what you are going through now!!!!

Remember we are here for you!!! We ALL care!!! Hang tight!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSS LOVE and TONS of PRAYERS!!!!!!!!!!

Oh Vickie, I'm sorry you are having such a rough time - you must be exhausted. If things don't improve very soon, I hope you can arrange hospice care quickly, otherwise, you'll be in the hospital too. I continue to keep you and Butch in my prayers.

Vickie....I am so sorry today is a bad day....sorry that Butch isn't doing well. I know the fear you have as Butch struggles to get better....and it doesn't work out that way. 

How can you not let this get to you, of course it will. Sometimes trying to make things seem good when they aren't is more tiring then working a 12 hour shift!!! I do know how scary this is for you. I am scared for YOU!! You just do the best you can to get through it. I know you always do.  For Heaven's don't be so hard on yourself when you don't feel like you aren't dealing with things well. You just keep doing the best you can do and that is good enough!!!

HAPPY SURGIVERSARY my very special friend!!!! You are doing just fine under the cir****tances. Cut sweets out as you can...if you can't that is okay for now. Please don't be so down on yourself. I love you...I am here for you!!

Please be careful with driving on the ice....Judy is right...4 wheel drive won't help at on ice. 

Lots of love and many HUGS....connie d

Trish I saw lady Gaga's tribute and OMG I had goosebumps!!!!!!! It was awesome!!!!!

Hope things are getting better with your mom!!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSS