Guess What Day it Is. Hump Day.

Vickie, I am so glad you had that talk with your mom and that you're seriously giving consideration to Hospice.  My mother didn't have cancer but she broke her neck at an advanced age and had bone on bone in her neck and suffered with bone pain.  We tried working with the docs to get her pain under control but it wasn't until the last six months of her life, when we brought in Hospice, that her pain was controlled.  The Hospice nurses and docs aren't afraid of addiction and they worked hard to manage her pain.  If I could do it all over again, I would push for Hospice sooner. 

My heart broke as I read your post today.  You are facing a tough road with hard decisions.  I hope that you will reach out to family and friends.  They can help. 

You are loved and so is Butch.  We continue to pray for you and your family.

Cindy P.

Vickie   MOst areas  have a organization called Respite Care   I know in our area they help with cancer patients.  THey have some training and come in for usually 4 hrs a couple times a week.  I don't  believe they give meds  but do many other things  main thing being they take charge.   you could leave and do errands  or  sit and crochet  take a nap   do check book  take a long hot bubble bath.  Heck you could go outside and scream your lungs out!   THe key thing is they are there for  Butch for a few hrs to give you a break. Caregivers can burn out.  and knowing the loved one is probably termimal makes the care harder and the burnout faster and the crash harder.

You my friend need to be able to step back  take a deep breath and let go a little.    You need to take very good care of VICKIE.  You cant take care of BUtch if you are sick your self.   

We can all pray for you both and I know prayer helps.  But it doesn't take physical care of VIckie.  

Vickie has to take care of  VIckie.       Will be sending you those prayers   for your whole family.